Perpetual day dreamer
Sometimes I feel like quitting up my life, I say not now , an inch of hope keeps me upWe all are tied up by the same knot they say, Wish this break could end up anyhow I just pray, Misunderstanding kills me, kills us is what I feel, I know you are hurt, I promise you I can make you feel healed, It some how affects our relationship, why I don't know, Hey, but really I don't wanna make us feel lowNow what has happened to us a questions comes why? But I remain silent somewhere being so much high, I promise you to give u every bit of mine, I trust you, hope one day we will shine -Vinay ©be_leaver
I am a Human being too.
Dad left us, it doesn't matter me now, I was is my childish shell, Now when I think of it, he has left us to live a life like a hell, Those threatening messages of him makes my sleep goes off daily, unprotected is what I feel, I know I have some hope that one day everything will be healedKeep trying till you succeed is that what they say, I finally got them, who can accept me, respect & can pay, Calculating each & every penny what I earned, I could save more! A thought hits my mind every second, Waiting for the transmission & hope this could take an endIt's not my fault dear, god made me like a unique piece of art, different you call me, Hope someday everyone will accept me that day I would be finally free, I would just live like you, breadth like you , in that one bedroom Hall, Accept me please a little request to you all, We are happy to have you, are the words that I would Love to hear, So I can stand in my life ,like a proud trans without any fear, There may be different diagrams, showing human anatomy, sexual organs, charts, But just remember we all have same hearts, I don't ask for help of people or respect... NothingIt's not a choice, Nothing has happened in my life to make me trans. I was born trans! & I am proud of being trans. Just a small favour from you all, Treat me like a 'Human Being'.
A soul of a transgender
26th September 1998 I was born, cute, innocent toddler & very happy same like you everyone, But why? this people treat me like I am no one. Grew up with my Muma & little brother , just everything so good hearing my last period school bell, Dad left us, It doesn't matter me now ,because at that time i was is my childish shell, I think of now, it feels that he has left us to live a life like a hellThose threatening messages of him, makes my sleep goes off daily, unprotected is what I feel, I know, I have some hope that one day everything will be healed, Society has just dumped me off like a foul smelling garbage, sticking spits on me, cuts and bruises which bleeds everyday, After every fight in this deep ocean one day I will find my named bay. Sometimes I say, I am use to all of this shits, But this single thought , kills me inside , I wrap up myself and I say that everything is fine, but it somehow badly hits., Now couple of years has passed I have left my age of teen, Surviving in this world , alone with still a little inch of hope but they put me down somewhere besides the garbage bin, Those silly taunts , gossips, few friends, I ignore everyone of them and sometimes I go with the dressing trend, We are happy to have you, are the words that I would Love to hear, So I can stand in my life ,like a proud trans without any fear, There may be different diagrams, showing human anatomy, sexual organs, charts, But just remember we all have same hearts, I don't ask for help of people or respect... NothingIt's not a choice, Nothing has happened in my life to make me trans. I was born trans! & I am proud of being trans. Just a small favour from you all, Treat me like a 'Human Being'. -Vinay©be_leaver
Word Prompt: Write a 8 word short write-up on Transparent
Someday vall shared everything like a transparent class
Never thought of loving someone so much. But loved, till my last nerve. Seeing the whole world in one person , imagining her for the rest of the remaining life sounds dramatic in the current time, but I did, a true purified love after all. Infatuation - strong feeling of love and attraction for a short period of time , sounds insane but was the definition from her. A true affection for someone and expecting nothing from them - Love, was the definition from me. Sounds little similar but works completely different. I would wish in the category of feelings this infatuation category should have been deleted. At least it won't be one-sided. But somewhere the faith, trust in love has fainted and blurred. -ViNaY©be_leaver
I have seen beauty going by my side seeing her from the window of my bus, the fragrance of her mixing in the air wich entered my nostrils and gave me an another oxgen to live. Tears for the movement appeared but the menly ego said no dear, do not let your eyes get moist, same does the brain repeated, but heart said fuck you both I don't agree. Ego said I am leaving, brain said I don't have the power to control the beating of the heart, and again heart won. At the movement I understood that even if brain goes dead heart keeps on beating but if heart stops it's an end of everything. Anyways it's all the medical stuff but for me it was important of heart winning again. After all is in love for someone weather it could be one sided learning to live within every perfections. But after all I still admire the smartness of brain and santity and purety what love tends to bring. I don't know what she thinks what the world things, I prefer supporting my heart and let him win with the coming time, love after all as I said, one sided. -ViNaY©be_leaver
Attitude-acceptedIgnorance-acceptedRejection-acceptedMood swings - always as above Self respect- I don't care of mine. Whatever happens whatever goes, whatever comes who cares ;But one thing that ever comes across my mind is about her she is still the most most beautiful girl in my world little fatto, little weird,some spray of Engage blush still makes me wonder and believe in living the time ahead. Maybe she have given up or must be she have moved on ,who knows. I live in the memories of us they are short, some sour but more sweeter, as the days passes it becomes more pleasant and alluring. Admiring her and respecting her is the thing I believe each time whenever I see her. I thank Almighty to make me meet a person like her. She is my dream girl of my la la land. Love it ? Then SC it chubby. -ViNaY I. ©be_leaver
From shouting out loud, screaming, eating head, troubling, making everyone happy, arguing, every time keeping asking the same question, to somewhere being the most silent person ever , there was a great drastic change. -ViNaY.©be_leaver
To widen your happiness everything ready to do. Or someday want to slap you and hug u tighter, squezzing your nose. Want to make some movements cry out louder and laugh on your laps. Touching your filled chicks adoring you the way I use to. Want to say sorry Or someday want to argue and keep you irritating all life. Every time I feel where I went wrong, I keep questioning myself but as you said when you try to find answers life changes the question, it's true. Didn't want to loose you anymore must be sounding lame, but believe me I am still all the same, some possessive but little shy.. I have attitude with some ego I know but yes I am still the old one asking the same question eating your head maybe it's 11th or 12th time and go on. I speak nonsense sometimes behave like I don't care but everything its opposite dear. I know I am not the only guy who keeps posting stuffs writing something for you but hey I still participate in your list. Maybe your not interested in this kind of stuff I know but my fingers keep rolling on the screen and I can't stop myself writing for you coz I started writing because of you. -ViNaY©be_leaver
I miss her in many many ways, Always keep describing because I feel her always, I count her in each single day, She is just beautiful Chubby anyone can say, She doesn't message me why i don't know, She must be thinking is it for me ?I say yes that's all i want to showEach and everything till now written is for you, Your moods are like a dark sky, or someday a sky blue, She shows me a way to live and calms my inner beast,Which keeps me believing that love does exist, Remember me when you say me a goodbye, I am not deserving or maybe not your dream guy, How I fell I try to put them in wordsYou enjoy high in the sky like a free birds, -ViNaY©be_leaver