As I didn't give time to my relation, I lost the love I had . Now I am hunting for finding the love he gave me but I see that people are sad like me .. they got love after begging but they lost too ... As see him down the street, I run from their without any sense soon I felt myself falling from the cleft ..
It had been months now but I don't know why I didn't forget Veer. The name Echoed in my mind making one thing clear that a part of my mind remained empty. Now, hot summer had entered making me experience my toughest times. As the alarm rang, it terrified me. I woke up and looked around the messy surrounding. The mess I created the day before just because I wanted to dig in to my old memories and find a peice of Veer that's lost. I couldn't find one. After thinking so hard, I discovered one important message of a presentation. I hurried up to get ready with formal dress. I didn't know when I became so unorganised and I miss my old self who was so organised and cheerful, whom one could obviously locate in this chaotic world just because of the childish nature. It's true that sometimes MATURITY hits hard. After few moments, I found myself running to catch an auto as they were always there to my rescue. I sat and struggled to put my Frizzy and dry hair in place while covering my face with a long cloth just to prevent the dust of chaos to sit on my face. I reached my venue and hurriedly went inside and soon bashed with a person and I was about to scream as in front of me stood Veer. I controlled my emotions but I didn't know what to express whether a simple HI or excited HI ? Before I could win the war inside my mind, he started," Oh hi!!!". My eyes went on the clock and I just ignored him and ran from there to the hall. Felt like I didn't run away for my job but to save my uncontrollable emotions from him. As I made my way to hall, I saw him standing and giving his presentation. For a second I dropped my idea to enter the hall but then I discovered that I was being foolish and I went and sat on one of the chairs. After four hours, I found myself in front of him and now I had got my senses back because all through the meeting I was just thinking about my lost memories. I never thought this hard about something or someone. It was like a part of me was missing. He glanced at me and asked," do you want to say something?" I had only option to ask for the question that had eaten me up but the chance went away as I ended up saying NO. He wrote on the papers his key point and for a second I felt like I found a part. The exact handwriting I saw years ago in a crowd which was written for me. But I feel I was cursed that I was not able to recognise what words were there. He seemed to be very formal. As I was asking for a cup of coffee, I felt someone touching my Bag. As I turned around I saw Veer standing and he yelled me a GOODBYE and he departed. That cool evening, came my childhood friend Diksha. I met her after years and we just experienced a nostalgic experience by seeing the album she had made of our school days. I had forgotten about Veer that's when I saw an image that made me tremble with surprise. I was not astonished like this before. I was speechless!!! Infront of me lied a photo in which I spotted Veer and everything came to mind like a spark. I wanted to shout out something and from then I started to behave like I was no more interested in the pics and this was my speciality. After few moments, Diksha left. I closed the door so tight and I sat down neutral. I just said one word that was VEER. Veer knew me. The photo that I had successfully taken from Diksha gets soaked down in my tears. I rewind my memories. I saw: Outside the exam hall, there was an enthusiasm among 12th class students that exams were over. Every one was talking and laughing and I saw myself as cheerful girl asking about their plans and that's when someone handed me a chit. I turned around I opened it and saw Veer very lightly. The words in the chits were: Dear, You may not know me but I have been seen you since the day examd started and I don't know why but now I can not hold on to my words that I have fell for you. I know we will never meet but it's just few words that will give satisfaction to me. VEER. I didn't take the words that seriously but I thought about it for a moment. But then I forgot everything and got engaged in the sassy talks with my friends. Now I was back to present, There was a mess in my mind. There was a sadness about losing a true love, guilt about leaving those words and guilt about having an empty space in my mind.. I started to make myself comfortable with the present but still the memories Haunted me. After a week, I was cleaning my bag to find some important documents and that's when a white chit came into my notice. As I was opening it I was just getting the memory of Veer and when I opened it, there were the golden words of Veer: Hey there!! I know you have forgotten me but my appearance has made you to wake up most of nights.. Yes.. it was me who handed you the chit years ago and do you know what I am still having a space for you. But that space will remain empty because I think that it's very rare or impossible meet again in this world where you are surrounded with people and work. Thank you for giving me that time to think about. BYE.
As I close the chit, I silently go and throw it in the dustbin just like how I threw those words in a bin of my mind, years ago which never decomposed and had an imprint in mind.
With cold coffee in hand and my uncertain future in mind, I walked on the corridors like a wandering spirit. It became uneasy to handle two of things and as I turned around, the cold coffee splashed over an unknown figure. I was ready to be embarrassed but to my surprise that person didn't give any reaction and just gave me a smile of comfort. It had been days and the chilling winter had entered. One usual morning, I woke up with that unknown person's thought and I got astonished to see that figure with specs on, outside my hostel gate. I grabbed my senses back and started to cross him but a peculiar thought striked me to say SORRY. I questioned myself what for but without knowing the answer I headed towards him. He didn't notice my presence but I gathered up the courage to talk to him. He gave an expression that made clear that he didn't remember me that's why I started with an uncomfortable voice of HI and then SORRY before he could open his chapped lips to say I continued to explain the reason and I got to know the answer to my question while explaining. I stopped to take breath and that's when he continued,"It's all good. I know you were in deep thought that day. Haha!! Anyways I am Veer." In my life I didn't see a person giving such an appealing smile and my mind slipped and I uttered my name. He was to say something but the irritating and not so wanted phone rang and it destroyed the upcoming chemistry between us. He said, "Hope to see you again.Bye." The whole day I felt uncomfortable with just few words. I don't know why I felt so uncomfortable after talking, I never went into such a deep thought earlier. As I concentrated on my work then came a hand and patted my back. It was Kriti, my colleague or you can call her my room mate as well. We both reside together in the JandK Girls hostel because according to my Mom living in mess was too hard to handle. Kriti was upto something and that's why I showed strong dislike towards what she was talking. Walking on the lonely streets of December, there was only one thought about my unusual thoughts towards an unknown soul,ok now Veer. As a pebble hindered my way, There came a reason inside did I know him? I now feel like I saw him earlier but I don't know where and when. Was he a witness of my past or a part of my future in my dreams.