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#mirakee #vent #dad #idk
"why aren't you here" || its just my thoughts
it hurts to know that the one person who's supposed to love you the most on this world.
is the one person who lets you drown. knowing he could've just been the first to reach his hand out for you, and pull you out of the water.
he watches you bleed. leaves the wounds unattended.
so you end up being the one to tell him. he's supposed to be your dad. he's supposed to protect you from the horrors of this world.
not let you fend for yourself as he lives the high life.
#shortstories #trust #mirakee @mirakee
"trust" || unwanted company
"don't trust her." he says. i look at him, offended as i can be.
"she's not trustworthy." he glares at me. "you know that. she lied to you. she tried to hurt you."
"everyone tries to hurt me." i deadpan.
"but you trust them anyway! you need to stop! you'll get hurt!"
"i always get hurt???"
"so you need to stop!" he sounded like he was getting angry. i don't say anything. he calms down after a while. he glances at me, and sighs. "you won't listen, will you?"
"no." i don't even think. he sighs in defeat.
"...don't say i didn't warn you."
"...i wasn't planning to."
#poetry #iguess #shortstories #itsbbyboy #fear #wherestheknife #unwantedcompany
"you won't" || unwanted company
"i'll be okay." she insists
"𝙣𝙤, 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙤𝙣'𝙩." he argues.
"don't listen to him, he's lying, i'll be okay." she says.
"...i don't lie."
"you are 𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐫, you always lie."
"𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕚 𝕜𝕖𝕖𝕡 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕧𝕖."
"...𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙗𝙚 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮, 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮?"
#poem #shakespeareansonnet #butmodified #becauseitsbeenawhile #its1amnow
"pretend in the end" || its just my thoughts
this is the end
so i'll pretend
i'll pretend for you
because it's all i can do
..please don't leave me behind
if you would be so kind
i'll be the best pretender i can be
i will, i swear, you'll see!
i won't weep
i'll do it when i fall asleep
i already have
but instead, i'll laugh
i'll laugh away the pain
after all, it is the only way for me to stay sane
i loVE HER ART AND HER QUOTES ITS ALL AMAZING
hERE'S HER POST
just 20 seconds by adrienne (insertdisc5)
"even in all this mayhem
spending 20 second to make sure you're okay
..wasn't a waste"
#shortstatements #12amthoughts #itsjustmythoughts
"like a warm hug" || its just my thoughts
it's like a warm hug
when you notice someone you know from afar
and watch how their expression changes into excitement, or joy, or relief just from seeing you
it feels nice to be wanted sometimes
#poem ??? #idk #shortstories #likereallyshortstories #itsjustmythoughts #itsnotmytimeyet
"kill myself" || its just my thoughts
"you're asking if I want to kill myself?" she repeats. he hesitantly nods, afraid he might have offended her. but her expression remains the same.
she seems to think for a while. then shrugs. "yeah, all the time," she turns away, and looks up to the sky. "but if i did, i don't think Jesus would be happy to see me so early."
#poem #stillawake #itsjustmythought #12AM #vent
"still awake" || its just my thoughts
"i'm still awake." i say. i can feel his silent disappointment through the phone. i frown. "it's not my fault! my body still wants to live. not me."
#poem #idk #whenifeel #itsjustmythoughts #vent ???
"when i feel" || its just my thoughts
"maybe when i feel like it," i tell him. "...then i'll find the time to be nice to myself."
sometimes you're alone in this world
but that's okay
those who cry out in pain, who are suffering.
take comfort as when He returns. There will be no more tears. No more suffering.
All that is present will pass and become anew.
#vent #whenyourdadwentoutformilk #andcomesback #butplottwist #heactslikeheisntthere #soyouliterallyonlyhaveGodbyyourside
"absent" || unwanted company
"i'm falling apart." i tell him.
"i know." he merely replies.
"i'm bleeding out." i argue.
"i know." he doesn't even glance at me.
"dad 𝙞'𝙢 𝙙𝙮𝙄𝙉𝙂!" i finally scream.
This time, he looks at me. And he sees my tears, he sees the blood, he sees my wounds. he can see 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨. but he doesn't even blink.
"i know." he whispers, then turns and walks away.
leaving me with these unsolved feelings, and a heavy weight on my shoulders, no, my heart. it hurts.
𝙞 𝙩 𝙝 𝙪 𝙧 𝙩 𝙨 𝙨 𝙤 𝙢 𝙪 𝙘 𝙝 .
and once again. i fall apart. but this time, no one's there to see but the Eye of the Beholder.
Pain does not get easier as we age instead we learn to handle it.©inganekashongwe
things come together tohave a meaningjust like the lonely alphabetsthe moment they come closer they get a name like the vapour that touches the coldand turns into wateryou see some things belong to eachother, like two people holding hands and life suddenly making sense- ayush sangwan
You got the words to change a nation But you’re biting your tongueYou’ve spent a lifetime stuck in silence Afraid you’ll say something wrong If no one ever hears itThen how are we gonna learn your song You’ve got a heart as loud as lightning So why let your voice be tamedSo maybe we’re a little different There’s no need to be ashamed You’ve got the light to fight the shadowsSo stop hiding it awayI wanna singI wanna shout I wanna scream till the words dry outSo put it in all the papersI’m not afraid They can read all about itAt night we’re waking the neighbors upWhile we sing away the bluesMaking sure that we’re remembered Cause we all matter tooIf the truth has been forbidden Then we’re breaking all the rulesLet’s get the tv and the radioTo play our tune againIt’s about time we got some AirPlay of our version of eventsThere’s no need to be afraid I will sing with you my friend Yeah we’re all wonderful people So when did we get all fearfulNow we’re finally finding our voices
#moment #mirakee #writersnetwork
Like a broken stopwatch that preserves a piece of time within it forever,poems preserve bygone seasons, dead flowers and feelings.©artemiswrites