She held her head close above my chest and waited. "It's kinda true why they say you don't have a heart. I don't hear anything." She glanced up. I smiled. Should've been offended but I'm not. I was pretty convinced of the notion, too. "I could use a heart." "Yes, you could." She bridged the gap between our arms, smiling. "Be the heart and the beat for me."
It hurts thinking about you With your side of the bed getting colder Each numb, passing night Can do nothing but stare at the ceiling Like we used to on starry nights Except now I'm alone And the nights are starless.
I wish I could stay numb But that similar scent over my shoulder The giggles I heard before echoing in the alleyways Remind me I deserve some pain. Some. The familiar smiles, sparkling eyes When I sip our favourite drink- Was it your favourite? I'm sure no more. Guess it was one of those 'little' lies.
Like how it felt like the whole world When we're both together, alone. Like how much more you loved me, Like how leaving left you broken. But I can't wrap my head around it. Why can't I get over you, When you were the one left in pieces?
I didn't feel a thing the moment You walked away, leaving all behind. And I can't understand why I'm doing now what I hate the most Sorting up the scattered mess in my chest Trying to fill the void deep inside.
"One minute you were on the phone talking to me and in another i was on the road lying in the pool of blood!!"She was narrating the part of her story she left last time.He stared at her for few minutes before getting up and standing beside her massaging her shoulders."One minute i was on the phone talking to you and in another i ran when i heard the screams of my own.Running like a maniac on that busy newyork street with sweat running down my forehead with your picture in my trembling hands -Kissing and hugging to my chest until i reached the street you were lying on"He narrated his part while massging her head -The one going through a minor migrane
"I was whispering your name with that grey band around my wrist chanting you to run faster.The cars on street 21 stopped with few people. I saw were running towards my -Dead-to-be-body.I saw you from afar running like something precious to you is going away from you.You stumbled on the rocks beneath your shaky feet -I swear i saw that too with half opened, Half closed eyes with tears running like marathon in them."She was simply immersed in her part that she didn't but he noticed how few tears escaped from the cage called eyes. "Street 21 -The location that turned my life upside down the sunday two years back -The mid of october.With stumbling here and there I finally saw an almost lifeless body curled up in the corner with her body being supported by that brick wall.Reaching up to you with that shaky feet I whispered "Ella" and the moment our eyes locked -I swear, I swear Ella Campbell I never realised how much i loved you till that moment,How much i am scared to lose you!!"He kept reading the lines until he noticed how she hugged him from behind with kisses on his shoulder blades and mumbling "I love you jasper".
"Adam Campbell, The moment you held my hand and whispered "You have to live ellie,You have to for me,For Yourself and For Us"The fear of losing you was there but i swear addie, I swear "Not more than the excitement of being with you,Not more than the faith i have in you -That My Adam won't let happen anything to his Ella" She whispered while keeping her head on his chest while playing with his hair and kissing his forehead. "Ella Campbell,"We counted 20 seconds together and then the help arrived.From being in that pool of blood to that hospital room I knew how I survived.2 minutes earlier and you were safe -The doctors,The nurses were saying "He really love his wife -But I wanted to tell them "She loves me more"but before i could have said something You woke up with mask around your mouth few bandages here and there.I never had this courage to tell you of i haven't fell for you in college but I had fallen in love with you in high school when you were dating my friend."Jasper kissed her forhead and whispered "I Love you aubrey,Good night"
Normally I post my own work on my main account and I use this one for hosting challenges; but since my main account is temporarily deactivated and I need to work through some inner turmoil (which I do by writing), I'm posting this here. Dedicated to Charley with love, always and forever.
P.S. Due to the severity of my son's situation, I am not hosting challenges at this time. Also, this is not a repost account, so please only tag me when participating in my challenges. Thank you for understanding.
1)I carry an in-Built defect within my body.A defect where a 2 minute laugh is injurious to health.The days where there when the breathing doesn't come naturally to me.Backward counting,A little of walking a step above-A step below.Staring at the sun till my eyes starts burning -Breathing turns normal.Picking up a hot utensil -I never try to be easy on myself.The defect might stay for a few more years -Till i die.
2)I realised i was broken when i was staring at the smiling faces roaming around me and thought "How carelessly they laugh, commit mistakes and then can love fully too.I can never love someone enough with the tears stuffed within me -The ones that are desperate to break the shield whenever they got the first chance.I always wanted the carefree smiles to find a home within me -For i was always the abandoned one but if they want to stay my body can be a shelter to them."I stopped laughing like yesterday for the tear free today.I am a broken soul with a cup of soulful poetries.