This is not me speaking This is not me- Oh, but it is And let me tell you one thing I hate having you Inside my head It annoys the hell out of me I detest your presence Even though I won't Admit it And I hate the fact That I'm forced, to put up with you No, that's not true Listen to me, I can explain- Oh but I can't I've been counting Did you know? Each time you turned away Waved me off And I kept trying Trying to laugh it off My eyes still followed Yours all the way through And did you notice The way they slit At the end? Tell me, did you? .... ...... See? Told you This IS me speaking I'm my new voice And I have punched you Countless times in my head; With prehand planning Wait, I just made that up You know I don't mean it You know, don't you? Dont you? Dont you- Oh but I do I mean every single word I have said And I will say I want you dead Then flash you a smile Because I know you Could never resist them, right? I know, I can charm; But that's not the point You see, I hate that you can Talk about me I hate how you Have known me since years Even though I pretend To hide my vulnerability I hate that you Have witnessed it too closely To forget No, don't listen to me Don't listen- Dont listen- Listen to me I have a seperate Room for hatred Inside of my heart And I would've let you in If you had been willing To keep a secret I'm not a complicated person You must realise I just have specific standards A perfectionist, You might say I let you believe I'm clumsy But believe me not, For my mind is the most Organised place you will ever Step into Not that I'll ever invite you again Not voluntarily, at least But you see, You've always had a way Of sneaking into my life A smooth slither Of a snake Which I dearly hate And the venom still burns Till date I- ..... Well fuck- Victory! I like to think As my writer self approaches The darker corner Of my mental catalogue I brought her there You brought her there And she loves it there Do you wanna hear a joke? Roses are red Chocolates are brown I expect nothing And I'm still let down ...... Please, please laugh- On second thought, Please don't Your laugh sets my teeth On the edge It's haunting When you laugh at me Did I tell you? Did I? ..... Look at me, look at me- Why won't you look at me! Can you hear me? ..... Or hang on; Have I killed you already?