I want you, only you. No one's eyes ever meet mine with such an electricity as yours do. No one holds me without touch quite like you seem to do so easily. I love you. The whole you. Every part. Every tear in the fragile fabric of your soul, every crack in the glass house that you've built to protect you. I want it all.
Maybe we meet someday When I dont feel anything for you Part of me was free from you.. And you will be searching feelings upon my eyes..but you will find betrayal and lies Which are given by you..and i accepted with politeness the last gift which you gave...i accepted the fact that your love was a lie..i accepted the fact that you never meant to be with and i move on upon my life..and you are here standing... Regretting every single second of your life when you didn't treat me right..and now your eyes are full of pain and regret..you want me to become the part of your life..you want me to understand me once more..you will feel the sorrow on your soul..when your soul will scream at you.. because your soul know the pureness of my soul..your soul knows my love was indeed pure for you...it knows the connection which our souls having..and you didn't take a second to cut down the wires which joint us..
I still remember how you showed me That I'm nothing for you.. I still remember when you ignored me for days...i still remember when you makes things worst..i still remember when you count on other people and i was'nt in that list...i still remember the day you make me cry and went away like I'm just a random stranger... You didn't abuse me But your actions ...your words..killed me everyday...still i didn't show you How you hurt me By saying that indirectly I'm not the one you loved...
And today you were in the same situation like me..you are searching for the love You lost ...but i won't treat you the way you treated me... Because how does it feel .. To make someone kills themselves internally..to steal their all rights to love you.. How is it even possible...? I still wondered...
I won't say i dont love ..maybe I will love you always..but you know what ..i won't show you..ever..that i still love you.. Because my love for you is immortal...but your presence in my life is not..you can love someone and still let them go...so i choosed to let you go...
So If i meet you someday I will say thank you for making me strong even without you..and i simply walk away from your life like a "stranger".... Wriiten by -Shreya Mishra
Tell me Where would you go if you are always seen lowly by all the prying eyes
Tell me Where would you go if you have no where to go to
Tell me Where would you go if all you feel is despair
Tell me If you will wait for the sun to appear or if you will irrevocably get drenched in the rain
Tell me Who will ever wait for someone on the other end who is struck in her own misery
Tell me If she can count on "things will be better" when she has been tired of hearing that cliche line
Tell me Whether it's very okay or selfish of me to stay detached even when my world is trying
Tell me If I am even valid now? Everything about me has never been so off to me.
Tell me Should I stand still or it doesn't make a difference what i try or can do
P.S : It's actually crazy that how i wanted to give up this space. When I am here, I don't see the black, white or blue square boxes. All I see is reason(s). I might even struggle to find the exact context but i pretty much in one look remember the reasons. For some it was just to remember clearly because words and pieces stay. For some it was to vent and try to exist. For some, didn't have any reason and were just out of the blue. For some, it was my dealing and my coping mechanism. To write and never read again. I've turned here even when I was the happiest person on earth and even when I have nothing to be okay about. How do we as humans even ever wait for better days when if we don't know if it will ever be better enough for us? Well well quite a distraught thought, wasn't it. :)
When I am asked to open up, I feel humiliated. The question that they ask feel like a cloud that keeps on getting bigger and bigger above my head seeming it could burst out anytime taking me away with it. The eyes that expect answers stares straight through me, and I can feel the chills down my spine. Why would I like to get naked in a room full of people, even when they call themselves family? Speaking out my thoughts has always been struggle for me, till now. There are times when I fill pages writing about how I feel and I backspace it thinking it might seem like I am seeking unnecessary attention. Some people misunderstand it as ego or false attitude, or some call me weakling who can't speak up for herself. Might or might not be true! And when I look around, I find there is always a choice of either getting closer or closure. What do you choose?
Yo I got eyes and ears everywhere I see as high as the sky is See a tick on an eagle feather I hear with elephant ears Hyena demeanor Sink my teeth deep in wildebeest and eat up I been a king of the animal kingdom Bring some bags of money Handle with a green-some sum Thoughts of a venom abandoned with a machine gun Of-course, 'cause I'm a product of where I came from I'm still mourning losses, still traumatized My psychological trauma is now monetized My life in a rap song is idolised The price of that rap song ask spotify People opinion don't faze me Dislikes don't dissuade me Even when they try to paint me Out to be something i'm not, i stay me I ain't scared to be alone or with a lot of people Great experience provoke I get a lot from either Getting closer to my goal Rest in peace stan lee I'm Peter parker, Lamborghini by the parking meter, start the beeper
Nas NY se Mumbai (Also featuring DIVINE and Naezy)