// Sundar sundar vo haseena badi, Sundar sundar, Main to khone laga uske nashe main Bin piye behakaa // We were singing aloud in sink like we were exerting our frustration out of our body in the form of this song, we were so much in moment, if someone asked us to something daring we would have been done it, we had so much of adrenaline rush in our body. When song was complete we looked at eachother and high-fived eachother like we did something big in our life we completed some goal, though it was just a song but we had fulfilled some goals. We didn't propose to eachother as in we didn't said we are in relationship but we were understanding eachother very well, hanging out after work, planning weekend to go out, we were living with eachother but there were no compulsion to it, it was more of like we are vibing with eachother. After completing the song, I looked to her, she rolled down window of car and was enjoying slow winds passing through her face, wind which was making her hairs dance on their direction, her eyes were watching the living side of road which was making me feel like she is about to kiss wind and ask them to pass it on for someone who is in need of that love. She was so happy, she was so lively that she forgot she was having cramps few minutes back. Few hours ago, we were talking on call and suddenly she said "I fucking hate it when I have periods on such a good day, I want to go out, it is so sunny, I want to dress well, I want to enjoy this time and I am so much of pain right now, like so much that I can kill someone to get rid of this pain, please god take this pain away". I stopped and gave a thought and asked "shall we go out? Don't get ready, let's go out for a ride, wear your payjama, you really look beautiful in it, I am bringing chocolates and some pastries for you, I will be there in 20 minutes, just wash your face and come out of your flat, we are rolling baby" she was shook after listening to this , with low tone she replied "okay" and I cut the call, went out and started doing chores to make her feel good, spraying room spray in car, getting fresh warm pillow for her, went out and bought things for her and reached her place, called her down. She was looking so beautiful and perfect with sleepy face, I hugged her when she came out, she was smelling so good,feels like I went to garden full of flowers where water is just sprinkled over muddy ground, and sun is hidden behind white clouds. She kissed me on cheeks and said "you smell good" and then we went out for the ride. We were enjoying this thing between us, there was no rule of being fabricated with looks and being smart ass in front of eachother, we were more of like cute kids walking around and exploring ourselves, I was really enjoying her company, she was so perfect so perfect, how can even someone think of breaking this heart,I was her escape from the reality of stuck with someone else thoughts and also I was searching for something in my life, she came in my life like a missing puzzle pieces, she completed my puzzle of love, but I felt like we are perfect for eachother for some reason or other. I was really seeing my future with this person but taking everything very slow like very slow like very very slow. She rolled up windows took my mobile and changed song to very slow soft song, then she looked at me with little shyness and came up to me kissed me on my cheeks, this happened so sudden that I didn't get any idea what just happened. She took my other hand and kissed it slowly, and she was kissing all over it and suddenly she bite me on the hand like she was known to this drill, like she was already ready to do it like she took my hand not to kiss it but to bite it, that bite was so sudden that it gave me little shock of something happened in hand like a lion put his teeth in hand and it is going to tear it. I took my hand away from her by looking at her in anger like what you are doing? She gave me sad look, the sad look, that will melt anyone, that look can melt down glaciers, and that look made me put my hand back to its place, like I am giving you my hand, use my hand as you like, she was so happy to see that, she kissed me again on my cheeks and this time she didn't bite my hand but put it over heads n made me pat her like when we pat a kid when they do something good, this thing made me smile, It made me so happy that I parked my car, and kissed her, kissed her like I haven't kissed anyone from years, like someone put drugs on her lips making me addict to it, she stopped for few seconds took few deep breaths and we kissed again, this kiss was so intimate with love and happiness that we forgot that we were still on the road. I opened her hairs again which she tucked few minutes after rolling up window, her hairs were soft, which was placing all our faces, I played with her hairs, they were smelling so good, I was getting drugged with this smell, I was becoming addicted to this smell, I want it, I want it more, I want have it more and more. We were back on the road, we were heading back to her place, both were getting hungry, we went to her place, ordered pizza. I went so many times to this house, but I always find it amusing everytime whenever I go, it has smell of hers, like essence of her all over the place, she maintained her house so well, there was one white dream catcher in living room, I don't know why but I find it so beautiful in that place, dream catchers are always been beautiful but this was one was different like it came from the real feathers of a white bird who has its existence only in heaven like it is so beautiful. I was so much in thought of it that i forgot she was calling me. We went to her balcony, last time we bought chairs, to seat in balcony like a restaurant with open view place to enjoy, it was place, we decorated it with ligths and small plants and wooden floor, it looks so good to seat there especiallyat night, we can see a lot of places as she was living on top floor, we had really great view of outside, it was really great idea of mine to do this. We had pizza and wine like a date over a big five star place. Before leaving I said "I love this place very much, it feels like I also want to stay here, actually I want to stay with you" she looked at me with a smile and said "NO" . We both laughed and I went back to my place. At night she messaged me "thank you very much for this day, I really wanted to go out and enjoy it, wish I could stay forever with you and forever and ever"
"So are you ready to meet her?" I was saying to myself while looking into mirror, I was so nervous to meet someone whom I don't know personally but meeting through dating app after talking to someone for a week and finally a chance to meet her, and it is my first time trying to meet someone unknown and I am so nervous to even move out of flat, I was thinking so much about everything and practising my lines what to say or what not to say, where to seat and what should I talk to her like there was list in my head which was going round and round. I finally moved out of house gathered all my guts to see that person who is going in my head for a week. I left for the place thirty minutes before, so that I can observe the place and make myself comfortable. I choose the table where there were less people around so we were able to talk comfortably. She came after few minutes still early from the time we decided to meet. She was looking for the place to seat as she was expecting she was early to the place, i looked that thing and called her at that time, we saw each other for the first time it was kind of weird moment in one of those days, where you are talking to that person so long but don't know how to start the conversation and that person is looking towards you assuming you are going to start the conversation. But it is one of those moment you don't know what to do, how to react to it. We saw eachother, I stood up we hugged eachother and I pulled chair for her, made her seat and went back to mine. She was looking stunning, she did little make up her face which was making her more attractive then ever, she was wearing blue mascara which was looking so good on her eyes and matching her clothes, she was wearing black scrunchie on her left hand after she opened her hair, oh god, she was looking so beautiful when she opened her hairs, I was melting down bit by bit, there was soft sweet smell of hairs was spreading like aroma, completely changing the perseption of the place. We ordered something to eat, and we started talking, I love how the conversation was not getting boring at all, how it changes from small things of our daily lives to talking about politics and economics and other things. I was so much happy to talk to someone who is so great in talking about everything, though there were some awkward moment but there weren't any shy moment there were more of laughs, like what we are talking. When we were eating her hairs were coming in between, everytime whenever she went to eat something, I pulled her hairs back to her ears, the moment was so different that we imagine in movies and shows, she stopped eating and looking at my eyes, it was kind of awkward moment, my hand over hairs and we both looking at eachother, and the cherry over the cake moment came when I saw sauce on her lips, I came forward and licked it from her face, and came back to our normal position like nothing happened between us few seconds back, actually we didn't know how to respond to that sudden moment, it become awkward for few minutes, I was hoping she will leave me right with a slap on my face so, I closed my eyes and took few deep breaths and slightly opened my eyes to see is she left or about to slap me but it was all different she was blushing, I felt little relaxed and more of guilty person, who did wrong to the person with out consent, and she felt that feeling in me, she looked towards me and holded my hand like a bond was going to create with hands which will stay forever and ever. We looked at eachother I asked let's go out, it is been 3 hours we are here, though we don't know how this hours passed, we still felt like we came few minutes back. We went out, I asked her would like to walk for few minutes or an hour because I don't want you to go so soon, I think she was feeling same. She looked at me and said "I was about to ask you same" we both giggled. We were going towards park, for some reason the hands were still stuck with eachother, I think when we holded it first time, we are still holding it from that time, it was more of nonchalant thing, we were roaming in the park like sophisticated couple for few minutes after that she was like a kid to me, she wanted to eat cotton candy then icecream and Everything which was nearby, she was having her time and I was happy after looking at her, When we reached to end, there were few people who were roaming there dogs, she left my hands and went straight towards dogs and started playing with them, and talking to them in sweetly and cute ways, I was dying in happiness after listening to her, I went along to play with dogs, by the end we were friends with dogs and with the people who were holding them. We left park, we reached back to our vehicle where it was parked, it's one of time where we are going to be apart, we looked at eachother and said it was good moment, let's meet again and by saying that we hugged tightly, we were still holding hands, I brought her hands up and kissed it before we leave, we were going back to our vehicle, but I stopped and turned around and went back to her again, and kissed her on her forehead and hugged her tightly and when I was losing my grip as in to get away from her,she got the moment and hugged me more tightly, it was more of like she was crying and she don't want someone to see she cried, I put my hand over her head gave it little pat, like she deserves that as she went so many things in her past. While hugging me with cute voice she said thank you, I was melting down when she said it, We hugged and left the place towards our own direction. This meeting with her was so different from the meeting I ever had with other woman through dating apps, it was more of good connection and bonding with ourselves as own self, as a person we are in real, we end up faking things and get real towards eachother and had real conversation and real touch towards eachother skin without any sexual arousal or thought. It was more of like I wanted to meet this person from so long, I was waiting to happen this in my life, I want this in my life, i wanted her again in my life, i want to meet her again, I want to meet her daily, I want to be with her, i want her, I had this thought, which I use to have earlier when I was seeking for that person but how things are changed, I came here to take the person to my home and make love with her, and how situation changed and I was waiting to meet that person again and again, but not wanting her in my bed but in my head and heart, it was one of moment where you are touched with the person whom you meet few days back or got to know them few minutes ago, how they are, whom they want. I love her, she was roaming in my head. I want to have her in my life. I want her to be a part of my life, wish I could get this person for life.
Chapter 1 "We should definitely hangout sometimes" she said while laughing on my bad puns. I took it as a hint where she is asking me indirectly to ask her out. And without thinking twice I looked at her and in my deep voice I asked "so you do you want to meet this person in real life for more jokes or want to meet this person to talk to?" She had a look on her face, like she is going to grab my collar through video call and punch me on my face, I assumed something is wrong with my lines, so I hesitated and asked "Did I said something wrong?" To which she again gave me that look, now I was curiously seeking for answers. Now, she also got it I am dump fuck to understand her so she looked at me with a smile and said "Do we need specific reason to meet eachother, can't we meet like normal people and let's see how conversation goes which will decide we should hangout next time or not" I was happy to finally understand what she is trying to say. I looked at her and said "oh, now I got it, let's meet then, day after tomorrow at H3 cafe, we were talking about last day, where you like that dilkhush" I said that much in one go without thinking and now after saying so much I feel so weird, like I remember everything we talked I hope she doesn't feel like I have feelings for her or any such things like that. I was so concerned about small small things and even I don't know why I am so concerned about this things which are useless to it's most. She looked at my face and smiled and said, it's late now, we should sleep now. To which I looked up into her eyes like looking into her eyes as I am going to see my future in her eye and cut the call. I was not getting feeling for her but its more of like affection of having someone by your side and talking to you little more than they do normally. I saw time it was 4am and I had work to do in morning so I was trying to sleep before I was about to doze off, she sent me good night message with 3 kiss emoticons. I smiled a little and slept.
Twilight ascended slowly from the east as the radiant dusk wreaths above her head, a fragile lute of zephyr whose euphonious string breathe fresh fragrance of blooming vernal wandered around the arc. the translucent waves of melancholic ocean united with cumulus clouds to pour out the stream of despair. as her eyes closed to see the gloomy grave of treacherous, one dark rose strewned in her dreams; thus an enshrining flames of phoenix held the borrowed despair of her, knowing burning the petals of darkness leads another chaos. flames itself become her translucent wings that helps to overcome every nightmares... the grass that sprung trembled in the melodious beat of her heart as she shed breathless tears of metaphor, a bright stream of hope mingled with her life's sonnet
When you came You bring my smileies with you Bewitching me with you frangence Dwelt in my childish love
Those soft cotton touch of your fingertips Witness the sterlin brightness of my sangfroid soul My blueish green veins covered by my scarlet blood Filled with your blues.
Your hugs were sweet as candy and All my nightmare died, you were the Hero. I feel satisfied and blessed Everything i could feel was you
But when you gone I never knew this hazardous feeling would be so terrible I had waited so long for you to come but i never thought of that day when you would go I know that you are still with me but this long distance between us kills me everyday. Maybe all my excitement and joy was nothing in front of this goodbye. Still somewhere i feel that thing I never want to remember it. But i love to imagine you to come and meet me for the second time and planning stuffs for it.
~rishika ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Just a song (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤ :–
इतनी मोह्बत करों ना, मै डूब ना जाऊं कहीं वापस किनारे पे आना, मै भूल ना जाऊं कहीं देखा जबसे चेरहा तेरा, मै तो हफ्तों से सोया नहीं बोल दो ना ज़रा, दिल पे जो हैं लिखा मै किसी को कहूंगा नहीं बोल दो ना ज़रा, दिल पे जो है छिपा मै किसी से कहूंगा नहीं मै किसी से कहूंगा नहीं ।
मुझे नींद आती नहीं है अकेले खुवाबे में आया करो नहीं चल संकुंगा तुम्हारे बिना मै, मेरा तुम सहारा बनो एक तुम्हे चाहने के अलावा और कुछ हमसे होगा नहीं बोल दो ना ज़रा, दिल में जो है छिपा मै किसी से कहूंगा नहीं बोल दो ना ज़रा , दिल में जो है छिपा मै किसी से कहूंगा नहीं मै किसी से कहूंगा नहीं ।
हमारी कमी तुमको महसूस होगी, भीगा देगी जब बरिशे मै भर कर के लाया हूं आंखों में अपनी अधूरी से कुछ खवाहिशे रूह से चाहने वाले आशिक, बाते जिस्मों की करते नही बोल दोना ज़रा, दिल में जो है छिपा मै किसी से कहूंगा नहीं बोल दोना ज़रा , दिल में जो है छिपा मै किसी से कहूंगा नहीं मै किसी से कहूंगा नहीं । ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Stars are lullabies of the widowed celestial dome scattered in the pinnacle of fate humming for the dying sun. Moon is an arrow pierced in the heart of the sea that bleeds all day long living in the shadow of pain caressed by the clouds. Raindrops are disintegrating relics of liquid withering from the eyes of unicorn in the summer heartbreak. Eclipses are abandoned flowers and sandwiched dreams that died in the struggle between wanting to be loved back. Nights are robbed by the mourning of fluorescent inkpots seperated in the semipermeable membrane of hatred and caste system. Heaven is a stuffed lie engraved in the anxieties of the sky wearing a black scarf near shattered dreams and crimson hopes. Rainbows are colourful skin biased in the wavelength of betrayals and barren cheeks that refused to kiss. Comets are snowballs erupting from the eyeballs of a women behind swollen walls and incomplete poems. Asteroids are monuments made by stitching alphabets and dreams of a forgotten art painted on an empty canvas. Planets are circles revolving around the head of solar system with a question mark seeking the meaning of life. Ozone layer is an assaulted lady healing herself within a brief story of time and about how it rattles her life altogether. Lightning is a wound scar on the left forehead of lonely days and depressing calenders from the surpassing years of melancholy. Thunder is an old man with a curved spine and a cotton cloth soaked with blood coughing chronic infront of fading seasons and climate change. May be that's the reason why the day decided to die.. #writersnetwork #ceesreposts #readers_novella @writersbay
Self love is a lie And I refuse to believe that Help is everywhere I realize this may be a shock, but we are asking for help Is a lie We're pretending to be depressed In years to come I will tell the future generation that I have my priorities straight because Hiding Is more important than Sharing I tell you this: Once upon a time People listened and healed But this will not be true in my era Depression kills Experts tell me I cannot be cured. I do not conclude that I love the person in front of the mirror. In the future, I won't have a will to choose to live No longer can it be said that Good people exist. It will be evident that, Selfishness is all this world has to offer It is foolish to presume that Skies or nature will heal you.
You illuminated my life just as the sun lights the earth
Your soul is worth saving Your heart is worth shaping Your legacy's changing You're not worth erasing
And I want to see you living well, doing the things that you love.
Every smile you give holds love and my eyes light up with joy. You laugh and it stirs my soul.
With every tear you cry, drops love and my heart breaks for you. You hurt and I want to bandage your pain.
A touch of your hand embraces love and my skin tingles. You need and I want to fulfill it.
Every word you speak echoes love and I melt at the sound of your voice. You give life to the vowels and the consonants.
Every breath you take exhales love and my heart is charged anew. In all the things you do, you love me best.
Never have I ever experienced such profound love You transmit this powerful love without a spoken word
What a special being you are You are so deep, profound, endless, giving, powerful and gentle I don’t even know you in this reality yet, I live in a space with you that is so sacred and divine Your soul is so pure To experience you is holy To experience you is healing
What must it be like to be you and filled with so much love A deep river, I suppose, aching to be set free You sway through me, touching my soul so profoundly
When two persons are in love, it is not love anymore. It is home. And in this world full of homeless souls sleeping on pavements, I think we need more of it.