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  • darkerthanblack 3d

    How are you?

    How was the day?
    Something new happened today?
    Tell me naa,
    I am alll ears for you
    Tell me everything,
    I will take sip by sip of coffee and listen to your words
    Your sad moment of the day to your fun part of the day
    Will you tell me again about the plant which you are giving water daily in your office before coming back to home?
    Tell me everything
    Tell me something about others,
    I just want to know a little more about you
    How was your day?

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 3w

    Chapter 3


    // Sundar sundar vo haseena badi,
    Sundar sundar,
    Main to khone laga uske nashe main
    Bin piye behakaa //
    We were singing aloud in sink like we were exerting our frustration out of our body in the form of this song, we were so much in moment, if someone asked us to something daring we would have been done it, we had so much of adrenaline rush in our body. When song was complete we looked at eachother and high-fived eachother like we did something big in our life we completed some goal, though it was just a song but we had fulfilled some goals.
    We didn't propose to eachother as in we didn't said we are in relationship but we were understanding eachother very well, hanging out after work, planning weekend to go out, we were living with eachother but there were no compulsion to it, it was more of like we are vibing with eachother.
    After completing the song, I looked to her, she rolled down window of car and was enjoying slow winds passing through her face, wind which was making her hairs dance on their direction, her eyes were watching the living side of road which was making me feel like she is about to kiss wind and ask them to pass it on for someone who is in need of that love.
    She was so happy, she was so lively that she forgot she was having cramps few minutes back.
    Few hours ago, we were talking on call and suddenly she said "I fucking hate it when I have periods on such a good day, I want to go out, it is so sunny, I want to dress well, I want to enjoy this time and I am so much of pain right now, like so much that I can kill someone to get rid of this pain, please god take this pain away". I stopped and gave a thought and asked "shall we go out? Don't get ready, let's go out for a ride, wear your payjama, you really look beautiful in it, I am bringing chocolates and some pastries for you, I will be there in 20 minutes, just wash your face and come out of your flat, we are rolling baby" she was shook after listening to this , with low tone she replied "okay" and I cut the call, went out and started doing chores to make her feel good, spraying room spray in car, getting fresh warm pillow for her, went out and bought things for her and reached her place, called her down.
    She was looking so beautiful and perfect with sleepy face, I hugged her when she came out, she was smelling so good,feels like I went to garden full of flowers where water is just sprinkled over muddy ground, and sun is hidden behind white clouds. She kissed me on cheeks and said "you smell good" and then we went out for the ride.
    We were enjoying this thing between us, there was no rule of being fabricated with looks and being smart ass in front of eachother, we were more of like cute kids walking around and exploring ourselves, I was really enjoying her company, she was so perfect so perfect, how can even someone think of breaking this heart,I was her escape from the reality of stuck with someone else thoughts and also I was searching for something in my life, she came in my life like a missing puzzle pieces, she completed my puzzle of love, but I felt like we are perfect for eachother for some reason or other. I was really seeing my future with this person but taking everything very slow like very slow like very very slow.
    She rolled up windows took my mobile and changed song to very slow soft song, then she looked at me with little shyness and came up to me kissed me on my cheeks, this happened so sudden that I didn't get any idea what just happened. She took my other hand and kissed it slowly, and she was kissing all over it and suddenly she bite me on the hand like she was known to this drill, like she was already ready to do it like she took my hand not to kiss it but to bite it, that bite was so sudden that it gave me little shock of something happened in hand like a lion put his teeth in hand and it is going to tear it. I took my hand away from her by looking at her in anger like what you are doing? She gave me sad look, the sad look, that will melt anyone, that look can melt down glaciers, and that look made me put my hand back to its place, like I am giving you my hand, use my hand as you like, she was so happy to see that, she kissed me again on my cheeks and this time she didn't bite my hand but put it over heads n made me pat her like when we pat a kid when they do something good, this thing made me smile,
    It made me so happy that I parked my car, and kissed her, kissed her like I haven't kissed anyone from years, like someone put drugs on her lips making me addict to it, she stopped for few seconds took few deep breaths and we kissed again, this kiss was so intimate with love and happiness that we forgot that we were still on the road. I opened her hairs again which she tucked few minutes after rolling up window, her hairs were soft, which was placing all our faces, I played with her hairs, they were smelling so good, I was getting drugged with this smell, I was becoming addicted to this smell, I want it, I want it more, I want have it more and more.
    We were back on the road, we were heading back to her place, both were getting hungry, we went to her place, ordered pizza.
    I went so many times to this house, but I always find it amusing everytime whenever I go, it has smell of hers, like essence of her all over the place, she maintained her house so well, there was one white dream catcher in living room, I don't know why but I find it so beautiful in that place, dream catchers are always been beautiful but this was one was different like it came from the real feathers of a white bird who has its existence only in heaven like it is so beautiful. I was so much in thought of it that i forgot she was calling me.
    We went to her balcony, last time we bought chairs, to seat in balcony like a restaurant with open view place to enjoy, it was place, we decorated it with ligths and small plants and wooden floor, it looks so good to seat there especiallyat night, we can see a lot of places as she was living on top floor, we had really great view of outside, it was really great idea of mine to do this.
    We had pizza and wine like a date over a big five star place.
    Before leaving I said "I love this place very much, it feels like I also want to stay here, actually I want to stay with you" she looked at me with a smile and said "NO" . We both laughed and I went back to my place.
    At night she messaged me "thank you very much for this day, I really wanted to go out and enjoy it, wish I could stay forever with you and forever and ever"

    ©Darkerthanblack
    @mirakee @writersnetwork #pod #shortstories


    To read other parts of it use :-- #youandnewme

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    Sometimes being in love and being not in love is same if you are staying with a great person, the person with great feeling for you and the person who likes you who you are,
    All is about feeling and existence of eachother with love and at most care.


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    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 3w

    Chapter 2

    "So are you ready to meet her?" I was saying to myself while looking into mirror, I was so nervous to meet someone whom I don't know personally but meeting through dating app after talking to someone for a week and finally a chance to meet her, and it is my first time trying to meet someone unknown and I am so nervous to even move out of flat, I was thinking so much about everything and practising my lines what to say or what not to say, where to seat and what should I talk to her like there was list in my head which was going round and round.
    I finally moved out of house gathered all my guts to see that person who is going in my head for a week.
    I left for the place thirty minutes before, so that I can observe the place and make myself comfortable. I choose the table where there were less people around so we were able to talk comfortably. She came after few minutes still early from the time we decided to meet.
    She was looking for the place to seat as she was expecting she was early to the place, i looked that thing and called her at that time, we saw each other for the first time it was kind of weird moment in one of those days, where you are talking to that person so long but don't know how to start the conversation and that person is looking towards you assuming you are going to start the conversation. But it is one of those moment you don't know what to do, how to react to it.
    We saw eachother, I stood up we hugged eachother and I pulled chair for her, made her seat and went back to mine. She was looking stunning, she did little make up her face which was making her more attractive then ever, she was wearing blue mascara which was looking so good on her eyes and matching her clothes, she was wearing black scrunchie on her left hand after she opened her hair, oh god, she was looking so beautiful when she opened her hairs, I was melting down bit by bit, there was soft sweet smell of hairs was spreading like aroma, completely changing the perseption of the place.
    We ordered something to eat, and we started talking, I love how the conversation was not getting boring at all, how it changes from small things of our daily lives to talking about politics and economics and other things. I was so much happy to talk to someone who is so great in talking about everything, though there were some awkward moment but there weren't any shy moment there were more of laughs, like what we are talking. When we were eating her hairs were coming in between, everytime whenever she went to eat something, I pulled her hairs back to her ears, the moment was so different that we imagine in movies and shows, she stopped eating and looking at my eyes, it was kind of awkward moment, my hand over hairs and we both looking at eachother, and the cherry over the cake moment came when I saw sauce on her lips, I came forward and licked it from her face, and came back to our normal position like nothing happened between us few seconds back, actually we didn't know how to respond to that sudden moment, it become awkward for few minutes, I was hoping she will leave me right with a slap on my face so, I closed my eyes and took few deep breaths and slightly opened my eyes to see is she left or about to slap me but it was all different she was blushing, I felt little relaxed and more of guilty person, who did wrong to the person with out consent, and she felt that feeling in me, she looked towards me and holded my hand like a bond was going to create with hands which will stay forever and ever.
    We looked at eachother I asked let's go out, it is been 3 hours we are here, though we don't know how this hours passed, we still felt like we came few minutes back.
    We went out, I asked her would like to walk for few minutes or an hour because I don't want you to go so soon, I think she was feeling same. She looked at me and said "I was about to ask you same" we both giggled.
    We were going towards park, for some reason the hands were still stuck with eachother, I think when we holded it first time, we are still holding it from that time, it was more of nonchalant thing, we were roaming in the park like sophisticated couple for few minutes after that she was like a kid to me, she wanted to eat cotton candy then icecream and Everything which was nearby, she was having her time and I was happy after looking at her,
    When we reached to end, there were few people who were roaming there dogs, she left my hands and went straight towards dogs and started playing with them, and talking to them in sweetly and cute ways, I was dying in happiness after listening to her, I went along to play with dogs, by the end we were friends with dogs and with the people who were holding them.
    We left park, we reached back to our vehicle where it was parked, it's one of time where we are going to be apart, we looked at eachother and said it was good moment, let's meet again and by saying that we hugged tightly, we were still holding hands, I brought her hands up and kissed it before we leave, we were going back to our vehicle, but I stopped and turned around and went back to her again, and kissed her on her forehead and hugged her tightly and when I was losing my grip as in to get away from her,she got the moment and hugged me more tightly, it was more of like she was crying and she don't want someone to see she cried, I put my hand over her head gave it little pat, like she deserves that as she went so many things in her past. While hugging me with cute voice she said thank you, I was melting down when she said it,
    We hugged and left the place towards our own direction.
    This meeting with her was so different from the meeting I ever had with other woman through dating apps, it was more of good connection and bonding with ourselves as own self, as a person we are in real, we end up faking things and get real towards eachother and had real conversation and real touch towards eachother skin without any sexual arousal or thought. It was more of like I wanted to meet this person from so long, I was waiting to happen this in my life, I want this in my life, i wanted her again in my life, i want to meet her again, I want to meet her daily, I want to be with her, i want her, I had this thought, which I use to have earlier when I was seeking for that person but how things are changed, I came here to take the person to my home and make love with her, and how situation changed and I was waiting to meet that person again and again, but not wanting her in my bed but in my head and heart, it was one of moment where you are touched with the person whom you meet few days back or got to know them few minutes ago, how they are, whom they want.
    I love her, she was roaming in my head. I want to have her in my life. I want her to be a part of my life, wish I could get this person for life.

    ©Darkerthanblack
    @writersnetwork @mirakee #pod
    Use this #youandnewme to find other part.

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    How things changes, the things you are seeking for so long, has came in your life as a different person, whom you never thought to be.
    How things change when you meet right person in life, how things get happening in your life,
    You want that person, you want that person to stay little longer, whenever you meet them, you feel like you want to meet them again or let them stay for long, please don't go, stay with me forever, stay with me long enough.


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    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 6w

    Chapter 1
    "We should definitely hangout sometimes" she said while laughing on my bad puns. I took it as a hint where she is asking me indirectly to ask her out. And without thinking twice I looked at her and in my deep voice I asked "so you do you want to meet this person in real life for more jokes or want to meet this person to talk to?"
    She had a look on her face, like she is going to grab my collar through video call and punch me on my face, I assumed something is wrong with my lines, so I hesitated and asked "Did I said something wrong?" To which she again gave me that look, now I was curiously seeking for answers.
    Now, she also got it I am dump fuck to understand her so she looked at me with a smile and said "Do we need specific reason to meet eachother, can't we meet like normal people and let's see how conversation goes which will decide we should hangout next time or not" I was happy to finally understand what she is trying to say. I looked at her and said "oh, now I got it, let's meet then, day after tomorrow at H3 cafe, we were talking about last day, where you like that dilkhush"
    I said that much in one go without thinking and now after saying so much I feel so weird, like I remember everything we talked I hope she doesn't feel like I have feelings for her or any such things like that.
    I was so concerned about small small things and even I don't know why I am so concerned about this things which are useless to it's most.
    She looked at my face and smiled and said, it's late now, we should sleep now. To which I looked up into her eyes like looking into her eyes as I am going to see my future in her eye and cut the call. I was not getting feeling for her but its more of like affection of having someone by your side and talking to you little more than they do normally.
    I saw time it was 4am and I had work to do in morning so I was trying to sleep before I was about to doze off, she sent me good night message with 3 kiss emoticons. I smiled a little and slept.


    @writersnetwork @mirakee #pod
    To keep yourself updated of other parts of story, use #youandnewme

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  • darkerthanblack 7w

    Aaj phir chai thandi hogyi,
    Aag lage tumhari yaado ko.

  • darkerthanblack 7w

    I want to see world with different perspective.
    Actually, I want to see myself with different perspective.

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 8w

    Will you?

    Will you hold me?
    Will you let me go again?
    Will you kiss me like old times?
    Will you be my love for ever?

    Will you hold my hand while watching movie in movie theatre and kiss me when I am not looking at you?
    Will you kiss me when we walk in road ?
    Will you kiss me in my sad times and hug me tightly in my good times
    Will you kiss me with same love in your heart and lust in your head?
    Will you kiss me?

    Will you hold me?
    Will you hug me tight like a kid holding its toy or like a dog keep its toy in it mouth and you try to pull it hard but it won't let it go, can you also not let me go like that?
    Will you hug me when we go apart from eachother?
    Will you hug when I kiss you?
    Will you hug me when feel tremble?

    Will you be my love?
    Will you love me like never before?
    Will you love me like you want to?
    Will you love me like it's your first and our last love?
    Will you love me ?

    Will you?
    Will you?
    Will you?

    Will you kiss me when I sleep?
    Will you hug me when you see me sad?
    Will you kill me for our love?
    Will you make same face when I see you again?
    Will you be my love?
    Will you be my love for our life?
    Will you love me?


    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 9w

    PS: nisar is my pen name
    @writersnetwork @mirakee
    #pod
    (Any tag/# should I put here so that it can reach more people, let me know)

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    Aaj bhut dino baad nisar ki yaad aayi to socha mil lu ek bar

    //Kya aaj bhi tere talash jaari hai?
    Aaj bhi tu uss ladki ki talash kar raha hai
    Jo tujhe chhod ke chale gayi thi?//

    Usne mere ankho me dekha aur kehne laga

    Janab aab talash uss ladki ki nahi hoti hai,
    Aab hoti hai uss ruh ki jo mere sath vaisa hi bartav kare jo vo karti thi,
    Aaj bhi uss chehre ki muskan ke liye dewangi khatam nahi hue,
    Par uss dewangi ko maine kaabu karna sikh liya hai.

    Baat jaise kal ki ho, uske badan ki khusbu aaj bhi mere kapdo se aati hai,
    Par aaj maine uss khshbu ko ek khalii shishi me bhar ke rakh di hai
    Jab bhi uski yaad aati hai, thoda sa chhidak leta hu apne upar
    Uski kammi khelti nahi hai thodi der ke liye hi sahi.

    Maine kal hi sikha hai, kaise apni baato me kisi ko rijhana,
    Par aab tak kisi pe azmaya nahi,
    Shayad main bhi kisi ka dil tod du,
    Iss darr se kabhi koshish bhi nahi uske paintre ko istemal karne ki,
    Shayad ye paintre uske hi rehnu do to acha hai.


    Maine koshish bhi ki bahut bar nisar na hone ki unke upar,
    Par kya karu jab bhi unka naam sunta hu,
    Andar ek ajeeb se gudgudi se hone lagti hai jaise bhut sare pyari pyari baate dabi hue ho andar aur uske niklne ka zariya nahi mil raha ho,
    Main har baar sochta hoon ki unke baare me naa sochu par yaad aa hi jaati hai unki naa jane kaise.


    Shayd, mere kamre ki dewaar pe tangi vo tasveer jo tumne apne hatho se banayi thi,
    Aur mujhe dete hue kaha tha, ki tumne bhut pyar se banayi hai ise, aur haan sambhal ke rakhna,
    Jab bhi yaad aaye mere to isse dekh ke muskura dena, par tumne to bataya nahi usko dekh ke aasu beh jaye to kya karna hota hai,

    Vo jo tumne kahaniya sunaye thi aadhi neend me
    Aur kuch mazedar aane par tum uth ke baith jaati thi,
    Maine sab ek dairy me likh rakhi hai,
    Kabhi waqat nikal ke aana padhne ko.

    //Dekha maine bola tha,
    Unke baate aane par main behak jata hu,
    Chalo chhodo,
    Aaj bhut sallo bad kaise yaad kiya tumne mujhe//

    Maine uski taraf dekha aur keh diya

    Bas aaj kuch akela sa tha,
    Naya naya ishaq hua hai mujhe
    Socha purani galtiyo ko phir se palta ke dekh lu,
    Taki baad me koi aaye to aasuu bahane ki jagah kuch sahi raah pe leja saku aapne aap ko.

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 11w

    Is he even a real person?

    "Is this place taken?" He asked me looking towards the bench which was there in park. I slided my things towards me and gave him space to seat, he said thank you and sat down with me.
    The park at this time is very calm and not much children were playing around, some people were roaming around as in taking evening walk, some couples were roaming around with holding hands,
    I was looking at them but not looking at them, as I was there physically but mentally I was broken, I was seeing kids with there mom playing and which was making me more sad, and a drop of tear fall down from left eye, I was not crying but tears came by intuition of that place, I was crying from months now these tears are dry now, like I want them to flow down but I think my body doesn't have much tears left in it.
    I was smiling by looking at kids but also crying, the guy next to me saw this, I was forgetting that there was someone arround me and I am not sitting alone in that place, I looked towards the guy and immediately wiped my tears.
    He looked towards and he hesitantly asked me "Is something wrong? Something is hurting you? Do you mind if I ask you". I don't know why but I was not in mood to talk to anyone, that's why I was out from home so that I can be in peace of mind but this guy next to was trying to have a conversation, it made me little angry as in please let me be in my sorrow, so I looked at him and said "please ignore me, I don't want to talk to anyone as of now" he looked at me and silently turned his head towards other direction.
    It was about to be dark as in night lamp was started and small insects are making noises around the light bulb, the air was getting cold slowly and I was out from morning so I wore light clothes which I feel now, I should have been worn something better.
    The guy next to me saw this, he asked "I s everything fine?" This time I shouted at him, "can you not disturb me?". He made eye contact with me, like he wanted to say so much to me, he wanted to hold me, but he said "sorry" and he was about to get up from the place, I hold his hand and looked at him with weeping face I said "sorry" he smiled at me and sat back, there was silence for a while.
    "Do you know how tensed I was about you? Have you ever checked your mobile? Have seen yourself? Have you eaten something? Are you sleeping well? Did your eyes ever stopped flowing from 3 months?" His question weren't stopping, I stopped him on middle of this long rail of questions and said "I am fine, but sometimes I wanted to feel alone for a while, so I came here. But how do you know about this place? This place is far away from my house and also no one knows about this place, how did you come?" He smiled and said "now can you stop asking this much?" I also grinned, after a long time, I was happy that someone was there for me.
    He said "he was looking for me in whole town,and he found me in this place" I was stunned to hear that, that someone is doing so much for me, I looked at him and smiled and with teary eyes I said "thank you so much, I was in need of it", he said "I know" I felt like I was smiling after ages.
    He took out something from his back, he brought me food, he looked towards me said I brought your favourite pizza, now eat it up, but I declined as I was not at all in mood to eat, he looked at me and smiled and he brought pizza in front of mouth and made me eat it from his hand. I was happy to get someone like him. "Do you know how much I missed this smile? Do you know how many times I felt like hugging you" he said this nonchalantly, And after listening to him, I turned red and looked at him, he was smiling, like nothing happened to him,
    It was kind of moment for me when a guy asks a girl to hug him, and it was first time a guy was asking me to hug.
    I looked at him with a fake angry face,he looked at me and laughed as I was blushing with fake angry face.
    We hugged. I had feelings for him from very long but now it was getting stronger and stronger but he, does he even know about this? Does he like me too? Does he just have sympathy for me? Or does he is acting this out just for the phase of mine? Does he loves me?
    I was recalculating this questions in my head till that time he said "let me drop you home, everyone in home will be waiting for you" I looked at him and said "do you not know my family?" "I know it, but, nevermind, you go in your vehicle, we can go for a while together then you on your way and I will be on my way, is it good?" I smiled and said okay.
    He stood up and forwarded his hand towards me like a gentleman to hold his hand, I hold his hand to get up and we walked out of park, I didn't notice that we were still holding hands till this time, I think even he didn't know that we were holding hands.
    Before going to our vehicle, he holds my hands tightly like he never wanted to let me go off from his life atleast for this life. He said "let me know, if you feel sad or anything like that, I will be there to hold you, I can give you a shoulder to cry on atleast, or I can get you foods or anything, but I wanted you to be smile, I know about trauma, i can feel your pain of losing someone so close, I know you are doing your best to hold yourself after your mom, but please for your moms sake, you should smile more and live your life, may be she is also praying for your good life from heaven, I also wanted you to be happy" I was about to cry, my tears were in my eyes like flood was coming and I was feeling like I would end up crying if I stay longer here, stay with him little more. I looked at him said "it's getting late, let's go home".
    With his finger he touched my nose and said "okay" .

    ©darkerthanblack

  • darkerthanblack 11w



    Maine aaj dukh ke sagar mae dubki lagayi hai
    Vo aaj bhi kadwa hai,
    Jaise koi sach ho.

    Maine dukh ke lehro ke sath khela
    Vo aaj bhi apni se hi lagti hai,
    Jaise bachpan ka pyar ho.

    Maine dukh ke sath baith ke baate ki,
    Vo aaj bhi sabke sath hai,
    Jaise dudh ke sath maliye ho.

    Maine dukh ko galle laga ke usko rone diya
    Vo aaj bhi sabke sath hote hue udaas hai,
    Jaise mere hi kahani ho.

    Maine dukh ko apne andar samétni ki koshish krte reh gaya
    Vo aaj bhi mujhse dur bhagta chala gaya,
    Jaise tum aur main ho.

    ©darkerthanblack