'Well, there are three of me, really, depending on who I'm with. There's the INNOCENT GIRL, who gazes admiringly at the man, pretending to be impressed by his tales of power and glory.
Then there's the FEMME FATALE, who pounces on the most insecure and, by doing so, takes control of the situation and relieves them of responsibility, because then they don't have to worry about anything.
And, finally, there's the UNDERSTANDING MOTHER, who looks after those in need of advice and who listens with an all comprehending air to stories that go in one ear and out the other.
Which of the three would you like to meet?'
I wont disappoint you, Neither would let you despair I'll find the scars And help you repair I'll make you feel better for being you I'll tell your faults and confess mine too Limits of perfection may not be attained But the time be enjoyed and sustained I'll let you know my fears, And calm you about yours We will close our eyes together And go on some thoughtful tours.
How you play with us, did you ever see? At Eleven, I had decided what I wanted to be; I would serve you to the end, All these boundaries I would defend.
Now you make me look like a fool, When at Seventeen and just out of school; Went to the place where they made "men out of boys" Lived a tough life …sacrificed a few joys…
In those days, I would see my 'civilian' friends, Living a life with the fashion trends; Enjoying their so called "College Days" While I sweated and bled in the sun and haze… But I never thought twice about what where or why All I knew was when the time came, I'd be ready to do or die.
At 20 and with my commission in hand, Under the glory of the parade and the band, I took the oath to protect you over land, air or sea, And make the supreme sacrifice when the need came to be.
I stood there with a sense of recognition, But on that day I never had the premonition, that when the time came to give me my due, You'd just say," What is so great that you do?"
Long back you promised a well to do life; And when I'm away, take care of my wife. You came and saw the hardships I live through, And I saw you make a note or two, And I hoped you would realise the worth of me;
but now I know you'll never be able to see, Because you only see the glorified life of mine, Did you see the place where death looms all the time? Did you meet the man standing guard in the snow? The name of his newborn he does not know... Did you meet the man whose father breathed his last? While the sailor patrolled our seas so vast?
You still know I'll not be the one to raise my voice I will stand tall and protect you in Punjab Himachal and Thois.
But that's just me you have in the sun and rain, For now at Twenty Four, you make me think again; About the decision I made, Seven years back; Should I have chosen another life, some other track?
Will I tell my son to follow my lead? Will I tell my son, you'll get all that you need? This is the country you will serve This country will give you all that you deserve?
I heard you tell the world "India is shining" I told my men, that's a reason for us to be smiling This is the India you and I will defend! But tell me how long will you be able to pretend? You go on promise all that you may, But it's the souls of your own men you betray.
Did you read how some of our eminent citizens Write about me and ridicule my very existence? I ask you to please come and see what I do, Come and have a look at what I go through Live my life just for a day Maybe you'll have something else to say?
Darling,as I flip over the pages of pleasant past once again I fill the eyes With an unending wait And let my heart Drum at rocket pace My ears are spread widest To catch the rhythm Of the only lyric On which these beats Would dance in spree Yes,the only phrase, Your christened name, That my feeble fingers Learnt to scribble Since the day I began to feel The azure sky Shadowing my lamenting soul Under the vast umbrella of warmth With the incessant rains Of crystal clear love cleansing the turbidity of pain I find the serene breezes Impregnated with the ache-healing notes Embracing my benumbed nerves The ocean of feelings Toss up highest And tide over the anatomy of my core Undying ripples Of nostalgia Stir the stagnant hopes Of our reunion The shore of the dried up bond Is drenched With recurrent thoughts The sediments Of separation are eroded And washed Along with the flow Of yearnings Evidently the flood So caused Is prone to drown The enmossed grudges And take away All the blockades And I view us again Blooming gaily In the garden of smiles With the aroma of love Permeating our souls Yes,I believe To live that day.. The herald of blissful days...