I wish i could tell you how your departure left a permanent mark of not trusting anyone again I wish i could tell you how you your touch still lingers on my body and everyday i try to scrub it of and i hate it how i think of you touching another girl just like the way you touched me. I wish i could tell you how I still remember your smile and it warms my heart. I wish i could tell you how i search for you in crowded streets and my hands itching to hold yours. I wish i could tell you how i run back again and again to our favourite spot near that lake and find bits and pieces of our love lying there and how i see flashback of our fights and search for that one sign where you behaved like you were slipping away. I wish i could i tell you how december nights reminds me of our cozy moments soaking up the christmas vibes under the blankets and jamming to justin's mistletoe. I wish i could tell you how much i miss you and how these memories are a constant reminder of your absence and that the pain never goes away and how departures are hard to accept. I wish i could tell you how much it hurts me to see you living without me like i never existed in your life and you never really loved me.