Dear fake friend,
Today, I took out my years old dust-filled diary from the bookshelf,
And read about the best laughs I ever had,
And soon our unbothered laughs girdled my mind,
I remembered the time I’d call you at 9,
And we’d natter about every idle thing all the time.
Although we were the best of friends,
yet we didn’t meet often.
But our ultimate bound of love didn’t soften,
And it kept strenghtening more and more,
With every passing year.
Undeniably, those moments were worth the time,
I laughed hysterically as I skimmed every page,
Until today when I saw your name,
I was devastated with sorrow and rage,
Quickly I turned it close, and was about to explode,
Because I had reached the last page of our book of friendship.
A film of scenarios rushed through my mind, some sweet some sour.
And then came a day when you left me like you never existed,
Breaking the bond of a decade,
which I never believed would fade.
Soon sorrow surrounded me and I fall in the pit of dejection.
Unanswered texts and calls made me enter a phase,
A phase that consisted of endless doubts and questions about my own rationality.
Was I the one not worthy of this beautiful relation called “friendship”?
Was that the end I deserved?
The debilatating pain drained into my veins,
Aching not my body, but my heart.
Yet, I Kept trying to figure out what drifted us apart.
Looking back now every damn thing makes sense,
After every breakdown,
how you always came to me to find your solace,
and I relieved you like it was my own pain,
But then the other day when I came to you with my heart fragmented,
Crying with unendurable pain,
You’d just abandon me sayin “it happens to all of us”
I’d go back and question myself again:
Was that the phrase I craved to listen?
Or Maybe my story wasn’t agonizing enough to be consoled.
My friend you neatly stripped self love out of me.
Finally, gathering my sanity I cheered again,
Knowing that what I lost was just a “fake friend”,
A friend who was never meant to be cherished forever.
As now I have known my worth,
It was much more than this that I always deserved.
I’m glad that it all came to an end.
Dear fake friend.