And you keep coming and leaving me as if nothing happened. You give me hopes which make me smile like an idiot. You give me happiness that nobody can ever give. And you bring everything I ever wanted in my life at once, just like the approaching waves brings happiness to kids you have the same effect on me. As I see you approaching I start smiling. I open my arms to bring you into my embrace for some time but just like the waves as I am about to feel you, you just retreat yourself and you become unapproachable for me.
I run behind you, just like those kids and return empty-handed coz you just vanished in the vast sea where I couldn’t distinguish between you and other waves though I often try to find you in everyone I meet and I couldn’t.
Maybe god made you like an unsolvable riddle, on whom I keep spending my time trying to find the solution trying to get you but I fail always until one day I found someone solving you so easily with a smile.
Maybe you weren’t my puzzle may be you were never meant to be mine.
And I keep waiting for you to revisit me, I sit there on the shore waiting for you to visit me again so I could embrace you but I never find you again, I couldn’t.
Maybe I took too long to catch you, that’s the only stupid reason I could ever come up even after knowing you were not meant for me, in fact, I wasn’t meant for you or for anybody, after all, how can air restrict itself, how can it claim its right to a single place or thing when it knows it has to move and keep moving and not to stop for even a moment or it will lose its existence its real sense. That’s what I am and what I am meant for. To keep moving, may be I was distracted by your beauty, or your depth or the serenity with which you moved and the thud with which you hit the shore.
You know I envy the sand lying on the shore, that you touched may be ones in a day or at least who gets to see you and gets observe you coming moving. I envy.
I envy everyone who could hear you making noises. I envy everyone who could gaze you...
- may be yours like for never