To avoid being alone, you taught yourself to hide in plain sight. You learned to laugh in the midst of the flames, to smile while the demons held your hand. They didn't love you, they loved who they were able to make you into, they loved the you that you learned to show them, but when you were truly you, they never stayed. You were too much for them. But the truth is, you are only too much for the wrong person. Do not fear being alone. Fear being someone other than yourself and fear being loved for someone you're not. The lie can't last forever, no matter how good you've become at maintaining it. Be unapologetically you. Someone will come along and love every part of you, even the parts you've fought so hard to hide.