#SJlove

7 posts
  • behindface 21w

    Hate You

    I don't want to hate you.
    that's the real truth.
    i know what you made me feel
    and i forgive you.no,its not for you
    only because i don't want to hate you.

    reality is painful, it wakes the demon up
    demon that loves me and kill everything that inside me hurts .
    and it will kill the only love i ever felt..
    i forget people like in water salt melts,
    no trace left behind.thats what i dont want with you.
    i am afraid one day i ll loose control and forget everything like i always do
    that day things will be in my favor where
    after losing every reason and having no fear.
    there will be strangers around ,nothing else.
    i would be with someone else
    and wont even care who you are with.
    and that's what i avoid to breathe.
    but you won't understand.
    between my head and heart,nowhere stand.
    I know the decision will be mine,
    like always with everything, you will be fine.
    ©jhelamrout

  • behindface 21w

    Its about acceptance . please have a read,and give me your opinion. #enough #regret #forever#love#memories#binding#past#SJlove

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    Enough

    you have loveD me and that is enough
    i felt your love like no other and that is enough

    you may try to fall in love and then it ll be your try
    but you won't have to try it with me and that is enough

    she will hold your beautiful skin and maybe your heart
    but once 'it shivered for me' and that is enough
    forget my name ....
    but there was a day you remembered nothing but my smell..
    for me that is enough.

    look into my eyes
    and turn back ,say me good byes
    plant a last kiss on my lips
    make this apart more than enough.

    Give that beautiful heart of yours to many
    it was completely mine once in your life ,Honey
    but turn it back to pure and innocent with all goodness assembled.oh baby no!
    and that is enough.

    everything you did,i felt it. though I'm bad at showing
    BUT THAT WAS ENOUGH.
    ©jhelamrout

  • behindface 21w

    Tinder

    He mentioned that he likes her voice
    along with the situations her head ploys.
    Said that she is just the one he wanted
    oh, that sentence kept me 3 nights haunted.
    But then he said something about cornerstone
    and nobody said that road is danger zone.


    Then someone is moulding wrinkles of the black casualshirt
    and getting anxious everytime his shoe get a little dirt.
    Once he was a person wearing uniform at every civil days.
    People change over time ,and that's all my mother says.

    Then for 12 days things weren't at my best
    so he turned and ran right back to his ex
    My bff said darling give up this and take some rest.
    can't u see what all of his actions reflex.
    She made me consider some tinder profiles
    and talked me through to give it a try
    Luckky me,i got a date within 4 miles
    but what the heck i was doing with that guy.

    My reaction was exactly like cotton candy,melt to nothing
    Here I'm holding onto the memories,they may have meant something.
    ©jhelamrout

  • behindface 21w

    साया

    यह जो आपने चक्रव्यू को रचा,
    और बदल दिया अर्जुन की इच्छा.

    कोई समझे ,यह मोहमाया हे!
    हम पर तो कृष्ण की साया हे.

    ©jhelamrout

  • behindface 21w

    Kylie

    After everything ,I think Kylie is right

    I should have searched for handsome man and put on makeup so bright.

    ©jhelamrout

  • behindface 21w

    This is a journey or journey built on my imagination. #mirakee#whycheat#impossible#singlewriter#love#wishes#lies#SJlove

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    I wish

    don't read it, it's too long

    June 27th,2am something happened
    teardrops from my eyes reached a deadend

    So the night was really magical
    and my head was getting cynical

    you know, I've started hating the afternoon rain
    cause it ignites inside a cruel pain

    that pain brings a different side of myself
    there's all blood around me and noone to help


    Just ANSWER ME,
    How's her kiss that you indulge?
    will it be better if i just camouflage?

    heard you are planning for your bike
    pull her from the back,she might like

    There'll be rain and a windy cold
    teach her to put a hand on zip and be bold

    you look hotter with that faux leather
    just treat her right,there should be no other

    Answer me,
    will you tie her shoelaces too
    and write her loveletters maybe one or two?

    I wish she makes you wilder in your wildest dream
    and threesomes BDSMs wouldn't hinder her self-esteem

    Never asked,does she too love your broken teeth
    and shiver at your every single breath?

    Don't worry,cause
    I wish she loves you passionately
    handle your faults delicately
    Encourage you at your every lows
    and you make her soulclose
    she must fill heaven in your life
    happy to see her as your wife

    I wish you forget the past and other thing
    One day for her a lovesong you'd sing

    I wish time would stand very still
    her hands ,one thing in the world you'd feel

    I wish you feel the spark when she kiss
    your night get filled with heaven's bliss

    I wish you make big big dreams ,then shout and scream
    meet her to grandparents and like that you shall redeem.





    But then i wish she cheat
    baby like you did it on me
    hope she keep that on repeat
    and like me,you cry holding your knee
    rebel everyday to stand on your feet
    But that day i wouldn't be here to see.
    ©jhelamrout
    ©behindface

  • behindface 21w

    Sinner

    The game was fine and i was playing it right
    But one day i slept so they made up the night

    Made me forget it was just a game
    Everything sugar-coated with fake name

    I was running for the water in my desert
    My friend called and said darling, be alert

    I knew somewhere along the line i was wrong
    but i blamed myself for being too strong

    Before all of this they have said it clearly
    "the winner of this game would lose it surely"

    I was confident and maybe too proud
    with my middle finger up,i said it loud

    I said,you don't even know a thing about us
    they laughed and said Honey,let the time pass

    So,the time has passed and they have watched
    My dog is biting,who has never barked

    Now it's clear,they are the winner
    because winning would have made me more sinner.





    ©jhelamrout