#UnFoRgIvEn

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  • eboniivaationalblackrosebony 74w

    Some actions can't be undone and restarted with a fresh start. If you can, then that's not irreversible pain. You can't always fix other's terrible choices that they decided to commit in the past. You can change a terrible mistake, but not a terrible choice. Not all selfish acts can be accepted with another chance. I had to learn this a couple of years back and a time not that far from now.

    Don't put up with anybody's bullshit. It ain't worth it. Irreversible pain is unfixable. Living with this cuts through the core. Your heart will sink more and more until you can grow numb with it. A dragging heart isn't something that you want. Take risks, only when it's worth it. Keep in mind that some catastrophic mistakes can't be undone nor fixed

    ~Ebony Bear

    My quote:

    {"Things hit you differently when you have irreversible pain. There's no fixing, forgiving or forgetting. It's hard knowing there's wrongdoings from other's that's unchangeable. You can't change anything that causes grief or hatred with everything in you. These types of choices can't get a chance. You can wish that someone didn't do horrible things you'll always regret, but giving a chance isn't an option. If you can forgive someone, that's not irreversible pain. If you can't stand the look of someone who brings deep regret, hate isn't enough of a feeling to express the animosity you have, your tears swallows back, their image permanently deleted from happy thoughts and disgusts runs through your burning fiery veins out of vain; That's some factors on irreversible pain. You'll never believe in chances with people like this. Between, grieving from the pain of death or traumatic experiences, you can't fix these circumstances.}

    #pain #irreversibe #irreversiblepain #unforgiven #unforgotten #donkkeepanarc #somedeathcantreachthispain #choosingmyselfworth #ihateyou #animosity #icanttakethatback #toughrealism #realism #everyonewontunderstand #notforclosedmines #antinarc #narcissisticabuse #scarred #hurt #hurting #numb #empty #numbness #emptiness #lettinggo #erasedoutofmymind #original #the1st

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    Irreversible pain (My original)

    Things hit you differently when you have irreversible pain. There's no fixing, forgiving or forgetting. It's hard knowing there's wrongdoings from other's that's unchangeable. You can't change anything that causes grief or hatred with everything in you. These types of choices can't get a chance. You can wish that someone didn't do horrible things you'll always regret, but giving a chance isn't an option. If you can forgive someone, that's not irreversible pain. If you can't stand the look of someone who brings deep regret, hate isn't enough of a feeling to express the animosity you have, your tears swallows back, their image permanently deleted from happy thoughts and disgusts runs through your burning fiery veins out of vain; That's some factors on irreversible pain. You'll never believe in chances with people like this. Between, grieving from the pain of death or traumatic experiences, you can't fix these circumstances.

    ~Ebony Bear

  • eboniivaationalblackrosebony 74w

    Some actions can't be undone and restarted with a fresh start. If you can, then that's not irreversible pain. You can't always fix other's terrible choices that they decided to commit in the past. You can change a terrible mistake, but not a terrible choice. Not all selfish acts can be accepted with another chance. I had to learn this a couple of years back and a time not that far from now.

    Don't put up with anybody's bullshit. It ain't worth it. Irreversible pain is unfixable. Living with this cuts through the core. Your heart will sink more and more until you can grow numb with it. A dragging heart isn't something that you want. Take risks, only when it's worth it. Keep in mind that some catastrophic mistakes can't be undone nor fixed

    ~Ebony Bear

    My quote:

    {"Things hit you differently when you have irreversible pain. There's no fixing, forgiving or forgetting. It's hard knowing there's wrongdoings from other's that's unchangeable. You can't change anything that causes grief or hatred with everything in you. These types of choices can't get a chance. You can wish that someone didn't do horrible things you'll always regret, but giving a chance isn't an option. If you can forgive someone, that's not irreversible pain. If you can't stand the look of someone who brings deep regret, hate isn't enough of a feeling to express the animosity you have, your tears swallows back, their image permanently deleted from happy thoughts and disgusts runs through your burning fiery veins out of vain; That's some factors on irreversible pain. You'll never believe in chances with people like this. Between, grieving from the pain of death or traumatic experiences, you can't fix these circumstances.}

    #pain #irreversibe #irreversiblepain #unforgiven #unforgotten #donkkeepanarc #somedeathcantreachthispain #choosingmyselfworth #ihateyou #animosity #icanttakethatback #toughrealism #realism #everyonewontunderstand #notforclosedmines #antinarc #narcissisticabuse #scarred #hurt #hurting #numb #empty #numbness #emptiness #lettinggo #erasedoutofmymind

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    Irreversible pain

    Things hit you differently when you have irreversible pain. There's no fixing, forgiving or forgetting. It's hard knowing there's wrongdoings from other's that's unchangeable. You can't change anything that causes grief or hatred with everything in you. These types of choices can't get a chance. You can wish that someone didn't do horrible things you'll always regret, but giving a chance isn't an option. If you can forgive someone, that's not irreversible pain. If you can't stand the look of someone who brings deep regret, hate isn't enough of a feeling to express the animosity you have, your tears swallows back, their image permanently deleted from happy thoughts and disgusts runs through your burning fiery veins out of vain; That's some factors on irreversible pain. You'll never believe in chances with people like this. Between, grieving from the pain of death or traumatic experiences, you can't fix these circumstances.

    ~Ebony Bear

  • snehal101 76w

    After a long time I wonder why am I still pain when you did not care about my tears !

  • andthen 91w

    I Wish I was Kind

    I wish I was kind.
    Then I'd pay no mind, to all your terrible acts.

    I wish that I'd see,
    What sets your demons free, isn't your fault.

    But here I am,
    Shouting again, at those dieing eyes.

    Look at the ice,
    I wish I was nice, enough not to let you freeze.

    But I am not kind,
    And I loose my mind, every single day.

    I run away,
    Even today, from all the monsters I know.

    And even if I understand,
    I don't know how to mend, a quietly bleeding heart.

    For I also know,
    Even if I don't show, how it feels to be mad.

    I am not kind.
    And I wish that I wouldn't mind.

    ©andraya

  • mmbftd 103w

    Unexpected

    You know I stayed away
    Because I thought
    You would understand
    That I was far too broken
    To reach out my hand
    In your time of untiming
    Unwinding your clock
    Years faded away and then pulsed back
    You started to remember
    The earliest bits
    Of sun and sand and island family
    The Cuba of old times
    Your sisters you loved
    How you found my grandfather
    How you fell in love
    Promised together
    You kept your vows
    He left at 98 years old
    You've gone to be with him now at 104 years.
    He told me in a dream he was coming for you
    It was expected but
    There was nothing I could do.
    Unexpectedly
    It's caught up to me now
    All this running away
    The hiding
    The distractions
    The tornado of other things
    That spin constantly in my head.
    You remembered it all at the end
    Your very beginning
    You family and friends
    The texture of huge tobacco leaves
    Drying in the sun
    Rolled by your soft able hands
    Smoked by the men
    With their domino stares
    Smelling the pork and garlic
    Waiting for you
    To finish the meal
    Made from love
    And you were the one who taught me love
    That I was ok
    That I was not bad
    Yet because of my fear
    Of saying goodbye
    I abandoned you
    When you longed for me most
    To love you purely
    Without pretense
    Like you had done for me my whole life
    I failed and disappointed you
    When I thought you would know
    That I was too weak to be there
    And let go
    And I had another dream after you passed
    And I saw you in a chair
    Sitting against a wall
    Your face
    Covered by your hair
    My aunt said to me
    " don't pay any attention to her, that isn't the real one", and she said something else that faded now from my mind.
    But in that dream...what I felt was anger coming from you
    You didnt understand or forgive my abandoning of you
    You were hurt and angry
    And rightly so
    And that
    Well that
    Was unexpected
    Like letting you go
    Or how I'm crying here
    Years later
    Because I cannot run anymore
    I've nothing left to preserve my soul
    I'm done with me
    And that
    That
    is to be
    Expected
    After what I have done
    To you
    Abuelita.
    I love you so much.
    ©mmbftd

  • kewjoe 103w

    Embracing one dream doesn't demand to say goodbye to the other.....
    Self respect comes,
    When we have the will to take charge of ourselves.....
    Self respect also comes,
    When we understand proper
    And, don't misunderstand.....
    Respect is earned when we empathise,
    What look beyond the obvious
    ©kewjoe

  • the_anonymous_1 106w

    Life Lessons With Mum

    I was having a "life lesson" conversation with my mum.. which is usually us being sarcastic af to each other. And she just said something amazing.

    She said, "Look, whatever you do, if you are sure about how you feel about a person, make sure that you remind them and keep them happy everyday."

    Don't you think it's pretty cool for a life lesson? ❤

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • arthur1995 108w

    Good men finish last

    You found another lover but in your eyes i see your lost, caught between giving your all and researching what it may cost.
    Bonding way out of your area code in search of sex and love. When in reality all you need is one last hug.
    Hard to erase how you feel just know that feelings don't change, when he say no to being your husband don't go to looking all strange.
    I was there in the mist of your passion pain and fear, I was too young to jump the broom so you pushed me to the rear. Take a look up to the sky is your husband going to fall. Well he's not you chose a thug now pick up that collect call. It takes a man to do what's right and a fool to do wrong. Akon locked up now watch that be your favorite song.
    ©arthur1995

  • emily_cjw 112w

    Clinging onto Sorrow

    Blaming other people,
    I'm ever so sinful.
    Clinging onto sorrow,
    I'm doing what I'm able.

    Crying and wailing
    Over wounds torn open,
    I was the one clinging
    To the scars. Unforgiven.

    Grasping onto sadness,
    Holding onto pain.
    I'll never claw through,
    I've put all love in vain.

    Let me stay here,
    In tears and in rain,
    I am no longer worthy
    For joy to remain.

    ©emily_cjw

  • the_anonymous_1 119w

    State of a Depressed Mind

    State of a depressed mind,
    Not something to joke about,
    Not something you wanna make fun of,
    It's complicated, there are multiple causes,
    Though none can be solved,
    Like just another normal crisis,
    There's no peace, just chaos in your mind,
    There's no light, just darkness in the sky,
    World says, "It's a disease", yes it's true,
    But I believe it makes us realize,
    What life really means,
    It's the journey of what you've been through...

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 129w

    One True Human- Part 8

    "H.. How?"

    We found him floating in outer space inside a hibernation pod. He was the original, probably the last one left. There was no way he could've known my mother.

    "Calm down... You think you know everything... You're just pawns, little experiments. You have your doubts, don't you, Simon? Yes, I know everything about you and your crew here in this spaceship... Just keep quiet and listen to me... Then I'll take you back where you belong... You wanna go back, don't you?"

    This guy.. he knew stuff... If only I knew, what he's going to tell me next.. it would change everything... And we would never be the same...

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 129w

    One True Human- Part 7

    It was finally time... I opened the door and went inside. He looked at me as if he could see through me. For the first time, he spoke to me directly... "You already know, don't you?" Yes, I knew.. he could kill me in an instant. I knew it was a mistake getting rid of our emotions. But it had been years since anyone was even born with them. We thought it was our weakness, but oh well, we screwed up. "You still have them, don't you? You're the first one born with them after all these years." He was right again... "How did you know?" I asked.
    "You have your mother's eyes afterall..."
    His reply made my mind go numb... 

    With my eyes widened I managed to say,
    "H.. How?"

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 129w

    One True Human- Part 6

    For a week, we left him all on his own. The only time we saw him is when one of us went to give him some food. It was difficult to formulate a plan after what happened to Mark. There was a possibility that he could take us there.. but will he? After what we did to him, will he show us where our home was? Earth... The place of our origin... Will we ever find it again?

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 132w

    One True Human- Part 5

    We messed up... In the process of trying to understand him and his capabilities, we unleashed something horrible. We tried to control something we didn't truly understand. Mark lost his life and everyone including me were terrified of the consequences. He was truly powerful. I was sure now, we were the weaker ones here. Were we supposed to control these emotions instead of getting rid of them? Were our emotions that important?

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 133w

    One True Human- Part 4

    After learning about his general capabilities, we wanted to test his combact skills. We had decided not to go all out on him since he wasn't a match for us. Mark, one of our elite soilders, went inside the room he was kept in and without a second thought, punched him on his face. His mouth began to bleed, but it were as if he didn't feel pain. Mark kept punching him for a couple of minutes. No.. he did feel pain, he just didn't care anymore. He didn't even look up at him and kept ignoring. To trigger his emotions, Mark abused his parents. Within a few seconds, all we could see was the walls covered in blood and Mark's head in his hands. Terrified at the scene, all I could manage to say was "What The Fuck?!!"

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 133w

    One True Human- Part 3

    It's been two months since he was found. We started studying his overall capabilities. His growth was a bit slower than we anticipated. But every time we triggered his so-called "emotions", he became more powerful. His skills and senses increased at an alarming rate, though only for the time being. After a whlie, he would calm down and return to normal. If these emotions were the source of his power, then we had none. We eradicated emotions years ago to become stronger and to survive. Was it a mistake? Did we dig our own grave?

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 133w

    One True Human- Part 2

    For the next seven days we tried to learn how he processed his thoughts. We knew that we weren't the same anymore... The way he let emotions affect his actions, he was weaker than us. We were far superior and evolved than he was... But deep within I felt it.. We were incomplete... While trying to achieve perfection, did we walk further away from it?

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 133w

    One True Human- Part 1

    No wonder he was so messed up. Afterall, he was the only one left with pure emotions. The way he was, it was rather difficult for us to understand him. In this world where emotions don't exist anymore, he made me think... Are we even allowed to call ourselves human beings?

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 133w

    Life-Lime

    Good people with bad vibes,
    Strong people with weak minds,
    Blessed people with cursed lives,
    Fake people with real crimes,
    Happy people with sad times,

    Sweetie, if life's a lemonade,
    Then you are the lime!

    ©the_anonymous_1

  • the_anonymous_1 134w

    Silent Suffering

    There's no need to hide,
    Wipe those tears in your eyes,
    A guy or A girl,
    Does it even matter?
    We humans are all equal,
    In silence we suffer...

    ©the_anonymous_1