The Demon Inside Me
I got a demon inside me digging deep as it goes, I always keep my thoughts open, so the demon stays closed,stay on my toes and I know that nobody will see, that I struggle to cope with all the hatred in me.
I look around as I walk by, nothing but fakes, they wear masks and pretend that they can relate, everybody claims, that they understand, but insane is a game I've seen hand to hand
And everyday I dealt with it, I fought through the struggle, I never showed fear, it always got me in trouble, a slave to amuse, a young boy abused, you think you understand put yourself in my shoes.
I couldn't even stare, you weren't even there, so don't ever fucking tell me that you cared!
I was fucking scarred, I couldnt express my emotions, you know this, with all this fucking anger that you showed us, forcing me to fight, when I was just a boy, I was begging you to stop, but you only got annoyed!! I decided to quit, my brain was over heating, and discovered that my choice was self defeating. Get your ass up.. And I'll show you respect, slam this vodka and get your brain wrekt only 13... I was starting in life, and yet the demon started growing inside...
As the demon grew bigger, my thoughts went further, I still hear him yelling in my head hit harder! I can hear his voice everytime I'm upset, everytime I reject, everytime I neglect to protect myself, nobody else but the demon, you may not get it, but I can still see him, he trys to control me from under my bones, and everytime I fight the demon I'm just fighting alone, So I try to let go of everything that I saw, I know I'm broken inside cause I feel nothing at all, So I live by myself deep inside of my mind, And I'm begging for help in a place noone can find.