Mirakee
I'm getting to tired to pretend to be fine
The fake smile on my face carry's so much weight
I can't balance it all
I'm about to fall
With no one to catch me from
Never stopping
Deeper and deeper I will go
Till there's nothing left of me
Does anyone care enough to help me
I'm suffocating in anxiety
And drowning in the dark thoughts that keep finding a way to visit me
Oh how much of this can I take
How much longer can I fight till my legs give in
I'm tired and weak
Ready to surrender
Wave that white flag
Let the demons in my head say they one
Cause from where I stand there's not much left of me just a shell of a being
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drifting_soul
10w
Hide my pain under my sleeves
It's the only thing that helps me stop over thinking Not that it matters if you se
All you do is shoot an empty "I'm here for you"
But seem to disappear when I need you
There for me leaving me alone once again
To fight off the demons in my head
So how am I supposed to be okay
When the same people who are supposed to love me unconditionally are the same people standing by watching me slowly destroy myself
What will it take for you to look past yourself and
See that I'm not okay mentally
What will it take for you to help me
Seeing me inside my own grave?
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drifting_soul
10w
I'm to tired to exist
And to worthless to try
What's the point in breathing
What's the point in living
Im worth nothing
So I ask what is the point in trying
If I'm to weak and worthless to continue
Fighting
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- reneewolfcrowdenunez Probably because YOU ARE worthy to live!! And to try!!but your writing is definatly a gift, that you gift US with and your time and devotion.. which to me is a priceless gift, just as YOU are!!❤❤
- reneewolfcrowdenunez @drifting_soul
- drifting_soul @reneewolfcrowdenunez thank you so much it means alot ❤❤
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drifting_soul
10w
All you believe in is inequality that's not how you raise a family your not better than the rest just cause you think your the best your the same as us all a human with faults
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- reneewolfcrowdenunez congratulations on winning your word prompt! VERY thought provoking!! @lost_in_the_empty
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drifting_soul
10w
Life's lessons
Life is full of lessons
Ways to explain the world
And ways that the world teaches you
Just how terrible people can be
But one lesson from life is everyone leaves
Sometimes with no explanation
No reason
They just go
No more texts
Or calls
Or even responses
Someone who was once your best friend
Is now suddenly a stranger
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drifting_soul
10w
Seasons change like our feelings for eachother
Never do they stay the same for long
Always in motion one way or another
Never loyal to eachother
But don't want any other
Complicated and full of pain
But yet it stays the same
With nothing but terrible winters
And unbearable summers
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drifting_soul
12w
Look mom
Look mom aren't you proud I haven't eaten in a while
I'm not annoying you
Or around
Look mom in doing school
Smoking weed
Slowly drowning in anxiety
And suicidal thoughts
Along with no way to cope
But hey I better focus on what matters
You know my calories
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drifting_soul
13w
Turn it down
All I want is to have my
music a little bit to loud
but all you wanna do is turn it down
Why you gotta bring me down
Why you gotta try to make me frown
All I want is to have a good time
And get lost in the music
Loose all trace of mind
All I want is to have my
music a little to loud and
all you wanna do is bring it down
Im younger and dumb
Looking for a good time
And and sign of love
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drifting_soul
13w
Do I matter to you
You told me I could come to you
Open up to you when I need too
But then when that day came
And I needed you to be there
And tell me it will all be okay
When I needed you to listen to my pain
You turned around and put your focus on something else and told be to talk to somebody else I don't want anyone else to be there
I wanted my dad
But you just "didn't know what to say"
Cause you have never experienced these things
You couldn't hold me close and tell me that it will all be okay I mean what do I expect you where never hear for me emotionally at any other time
Actually listen and care about what I had to say
Why did i think you changed
Silly me for thinking i mattered to you anyways
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drifting_soul
14w
I can't seem to catch my breathe
It's like no matter how fast or how hard I breathe the feeling that I'm not getting enough air consumes me but I can't let that show not physically
You see I have to hold it all in so that not a soul can see the panicked heart beat and the rapid over thinking
The unstable breathing makes me dizzy
As the nashua starts to set in
It feels like I just might cave in
Give up on whatever this is I'm fighting for
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drifting_soul
15w
I still hear your laughter echoing these halls
Is it just me or are our memories trapped im these walls a place that once used to be full of our laughter and screaming is now as silent as can be so silent it's suffocating
I can sometimes hear the reminiscent sound our feet running through the rooms
As my mom yells at us to calm down
But we were to busy living our life
To have a care in the world what anyone had to say
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drifting_soul
15w
A special kind of emptiness made itself at home in my body it's a pit in my stomach that makes it feel impossible to eat it leaves a hole in my brain where a happy child used to be
This emptiness is consuming me
Is there anyone out there to help me
Someone please just fill this void before it
Takes over my entire body
Like cancer it will spread through me
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drifting_soul
15w
Same house
Same walls
Same people
Same flaws
No change
Just reliving the same
Day with different pain
Most days I find no point
In staying here for much longer
I think my days are numbered
Im going out old my mind
Stuck in this same old house
With the same broken people who never
Seem to want me around
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drifting_soul
15w
Blissful moments make the worst memories
They haunt you with no remorse of the chaos they cause
They will tear you apart with no second thought
Peace by peace
Slowly but surly
They will rip you to shreds
And leave you nothing but a broken shell of a body left behind
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drifting_soul
15w
Lost in my head once again
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drifting_soul
15w
All you make me feel is guilty for my feelings
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drifting_soul
16w
Most days I don't have a identity
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