I always lie to myself
That's she wasn't cheating,
But I know the truth,
Sometimes it chokes my breathing.
I really want her back in my life,
But knowing the truth,
I stop those thoughts and slap myself every when.
I always have dreams about her,
But pretend like I forgot that chapter,
And now I feel,
That I've become a really good actor.
I always talk about her,
But act like it's because,
With her I had a great time,
But knowing that she was cheating,
That time doesn't even seem mine.
Believe me it's really hard to lie to yourself,
The more you try the more you feel bad,
Like you're in a loop of some thoughts,
You find yourself halfway dead.