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Hey am new here
I don't know how much you guys will support me but your little support can make me feel happy .My doctor psycritist told me am in depression so am under medication .
But I found a solution to get over this is only to write and listen music and make myself busy in things which I love to do.
Small note from my side hope you are not bored.much love
©parnagh
#anxiety
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Mask
My throat hoarse but I can't scream anymore,
My fists bloodied against this damned floor,
But my mask is still safe,
I still have my own place,
It cracks and it shatters,
My feelings don't even matter,
Tears becoming blood,
I was never truly loved,
Piece by piece it falls,
Staining crimson on these walls,
My mask I worked so hard to seal,
Now being ripped and pealed,
I can't hide myself any longer,
Demons becoming my very own stalkers,
My place I worked so hard for,
Now a field of war.
©blisslia -
yours_fortune
2d
Read MoreThoughts to me :- Hey did I scared you??
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#thoughts #misery #lifejourney #lifegotnochill #hell #dipression #anxiety #thoughtsthathurtHow scary it's to see that, how badly I'm addicted to my own misery.
@the.black_quote -
thebhavnasaxena
2d
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Sleep
Kiss me feather soft,
A brush of your lips on
My brow, so that I may
Finally wear the tint of
Innocent love on the
Brown of my charred skin,
Hug me fiercely,
Make your passion
Squeeze my heart,
So that the shade of
Grief spills out of my
Eyes, big, fat, black tears,
Let me sit in your arms
Under the midnight sky,
The world all hues of green and
Blue around us, and let me
Cry about the things that
I never got to mourn,
I have been the war, the
Warrior and the battlefield,
Look at my armour of steel,
How it has turned crimson,
Tell me I can strip off my
Armour and bare to you
My deepest wounds, make me
A quilt of your love, softer than
Roses, warm as the sun, yet
White like the moon, and
In your arms, let me sleep
©thebhavnasaxena -
thebhavnasaxena
3d
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#wild #anxiety #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mind #madness #nature #life #reflections #world #people #confession #shewrites #followme #poet #creative #readwriteunite #mirakee #writersnetwork #writersofmirakee #poetsofmirakee #writingcommunity #poetrycommunity #freeverse #pod #wds #writinglife #quotes #poem #mood #thoughts #diary #writersbay
Mind
The sun is just a yellow dot
In the faraway sky, what can it
Do to warm my skin, when there is
A winterstorm in my heart?
The sea is cold, but even as I
Embrace its waves again and again,
It doesn't give me any solace,
How could it, when my blood is
Wildfire running through my veins?
Garden of Eden, the nectar of heaven,
I have tried them all, but where does
One run to, when one becomes a
Thunderstorm, what is wilder, I
Wonder, is it the world or my mind?
©thebhavnasaxena -
oddgoddess
4d
You yearn for me
Are you willing to learn from me?
Please don't turn from me when I show you all of my shades Blues and hues that don't seem inviting
I hope they're to your liking and if not that you'll learn to love them
Your demons were touch starved nights and honey-dipped lies
I can love them to silence so they don't torment you when you close your eyelids
Your skeletons can be mine and still kept private
Love doesn't have to be sulfuric acid
That's not how I want to break down your walls
I want to grow in love
Not fall
©oddgoddess -
pakhi1738
5d
Read MoreThey say you are free
To do whatever you want
If only it was true
'cause now here you stand
Trying to breathe in the air
But breathing in chaos instead
They say you are stronger
Than you know
When they know
Nothing about you
They don't understand
What you're feeling,
What you've been through
They tell you that they care
But no one ever really sees you,
For you!
They don't know
That you keep yourself busy
By burying your head in stories
'cause it help slow down
These unbearable voices
That keep you awake
When you're trying to sleep
And won't let you wake up
In the mornin'
They say you were meant to be
A doll from their dreams
The one, born to fly
So why do you feel suffocated
All the damn time
And would rather prefer dying
So why do you feel like
Locked up in a coffin,
A coffin of their expectations
Deep down the ocean
Drowning you
over and over again
They say, you doubt yourself
You underestimate your worth
Then why does cutting yourself
And bleeding to unconsciousness
Sounds much easier
It's funny, how they keep telling you
You are ruining your life
But never really care!
You make heroes
Out of the survivors
Searching for hope
But when it's you,
It hurts way more
And you know,
God! You know,
You are just another
Ticking time bomb
Waiting for one last blow
To give up and finally explode
You plug in your earphones
And hurt your ear drums
With the loud music
All day
To flush out the noise from your brain!
You keep ignoring people
Who really care
'cause you're afraid
You tell them
Everything's all right
When you just wanna say,
"I'm not okay!"
-Pakhi✍️
P.C.- @azureabyss
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- pakhi1738 @u_star thank you so much for this. I am truly grateful to have readers and friends like you who knows what exactly goes into writing what you are going through or what you've been through. I agree with the depression part. I usually write about the way I feel so I guess that means I am depressed. I've been dealing with severe anxiety from past 5 years. So it's probably just that.
- musicduniya @pakhi1738 extremely beautiful ❤❤
- pakhi1738 @musicduniya thank you so much for reading
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gemmah
The first two paragraphs were .. and they hit deep ..
Loved this.. - pakhi1738 @gemmah thank you so much for reading
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One Big Tragedy
I'm screaming but no one can hear
Alone with all this fear inside of me
My life is just one big tragedy
Is life worth this pain?
Can somebody please explain
My mind has made me feel insane
I try and try but yet I still wanna die
The night sky brings me to my knees
I pray and pray to not live another day
I'm screaming but no one can hear
Alone with all this fear inside of me
My life is just one big tragedy
Is life worth this pain?
Can somebody please explain
My mind has made me feel insane
I try and try but yet I still wanna die
The night sky brings me to my knees
I pray and pray to not live another day
Sitting in the dark with a gun to my heart
Why is it so hard to pull the trigger?
Figured this would be the easy way out
Never thought I'd go down this route
Is life worth this pain?
Can somebody please explain
My mind has made me feel insane
I try and try but yet I still wanna die
The night sky brings me to my knees
I pray and pray to not live another day
©candicehasley96 -
paulwrites
5d
Read More#poetry #heartbreak #lostlove #poem #poemoftheday #writersnetwork #anxiety #depression
Sitting on the back porch
Staring up at the nighttime clouds
Voices in my tortured head
Once quiet become too damn loud
It seems I can barely separate
The truest facts from painful fiction
And now thoughts I never wanted
Cause nothing but endless friction
Why won't it rain so I can dance
Every worry into the darkened sky
Above my head the stars laugh at me
As every memory makes me cry
And I just want to let it all out
Every feeling I can't express
But if I can't find peace of mind
How can I even begin to rest?
Sitting on the back porch
I think I feel the beginnings of rain
But no it's just those returning tears
Little drops of falling pain
I turn my head hopelessly skyward
Trying to see where it all ends
But it just keeps traveling on and on
Lost loves rarely return again
By paulwrites March 2021.Back Porch Poetry #1
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Eyes
Close your eyes,
Shut it all out,
What's there to control?
I have been here before.
I have seen the darkness,
Not everyone get anxious all the time,
For me, its when I lay in the dark,
I curl up around my pillow,
Trying to shut voices in my head,
What's there to control?
They come for me every night.
When I smile in the sun,
When I do my laundry,
When I clean,
When I am sitting alone, wanting to talk to a friend, so this feeling of emptiness can go.
I know it will come again.
But, now, they won't.
©odd_ramblings -
Attentions Sour Center
You see me and expect someone just like you
You want perfect in all forms
But don’t brag, be humble
You see me and expect the next Annie Lennox
Be smart, be talented, don’t fail
But remember your place, you’re still a child
I
You watch me each day and analyze me actions
Quiet moments, excited actions, anxious breathing
You think I’m just acting out
You remind me of my age. You point out my mistakes
“You’re in highschool.” “You always give a monologue of an excuse”
You think I’m doing it on purpose.
I am
You admit to your actions. Your hateful words
You know what you say cuts with harsh lemon
But you will never stop
I cry to your voice, to the sour drip
As the stars watch me cradle myself to sleep
Singing sweet melodies with my cries
I am not
You control my life with each twist and turn
I step one toe to the left, you pull me three feet to the right
Like Master and Slave
My future is yours, as were my past and present.
You live life through me, succeeding where you failed
I’d tell you I was okay with it but…
I am fine.
©baby_blueberry -
misskadambari
1w
Read MoreSleepless nights... #mirakee #unlimitedthoughts #writersnetwrok #sleeplessnights #anxiety #uncertainty
The night
The night holds
so many thoughts which cannot
be unearthed by anyone
else solely just by
YOU.
©misskadambari -
yours_fortune
1w
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To all the man/woman
Girls/boys
Who had done enough for a relationship and if nothing worked between you two, it's time to move And live a life you always wish to.
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#womenempowerment #relationshipgoal #notallrelationshipstaysforforever #acceptit #moveon #anxiety #dipression #toxicrelationship #possesivepartnerWhen she loved you, worked for you, took care of you, listened you, obeyed you, for you she was doing too much.
But now when she moved out, breathing for own survival and happiness when she don't give a damm about the world and their words and about you, you started getting mad.
@the.black_quote -
Just write down when you feel like writing
The best way to set yourself free from the anxiety of writing is simply jotting it down whenever you feel like doing that.
©jeetspeaks -
ANXIETY
Dark room, dark thoughts,
people think so, but there's lots and lots;
It's not always when you sit alone in the dark,
it's also when you sit in the park.
Grim concepts wander through the deserted mind,
each one different,depressing and undefined.
Sitting under the sun but feeling like falling into an endless pitfall,
that is when you know your anxiety hopelessly calls.
Losing interest in the most interesting things,
cutting the dreamy chromatic wings.
it's all when you start feeling empty,
although you have everything and plenty;
there's something in the future you see
and it makes your mind for escape plea;
that's when anxiety hurts,
it makes the sadness reassert.
Before you realise it makes you void
and in little time completely destroyed
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- mystical_writer26 @_transient thank you:-)
- lovenotes_from_carolyn More than welcome.
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we_elude
Such a wonderful penning✨✨
That line with "sitting in sun ...endless pitfall " - mystical_writer26 @we_elude thank you so much❤️❤️:-)
- we_elude @mystical_writer26 you are most welcome ✨
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yours_fortune
1w
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Stop - Read - Understand - Repeat
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#priority #friends #friendshipgoal #bestfriend #onewhoignore #ignorance #avoidnegativity #lifegoals #panicattack #anxiety #friendswhoignoredSTOP RIGHT NOW
If someone is really into you, wants you, understand you and appreciate your presence around them, so you don't have to keep begging them for a text, call or to spend time with you.
They will do it if you are a PRIORITY
@the.black_quote -
eva_17
1w
Every night she ends up being tired....
Fighting with her own self
Fighting with her own emotions
She wants liberty
A bird of golden cage,
Wants to be a free spirit
©eva_17 -
pakhi1738
1w
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Five years,
And it still hurts the same
You hold on to that one last picture
As all the other memories fade
Painting your own hell
In your head
This whole time!
A hell to hold you
And scold you
For eternity!
As you dig your nails
Into your sensitive, cold skin
Trying to ease that aching
Of your frozen heart and,
And that burnin' in your brain
Finally burning you to the ground!
So much anger and hate
Inside of you
That it hurts when you
Look into the glass!
Holding up your neck
With your cold, shivering hands
You still patiently wait
For you to explode some day
'cause you know you will
Eventually!
You hide it all inside of you
Bundling it up
In your heart beat
Like a storm!
A storm, To carry you far away
Tossing you all over the place
Making all that pain
And anxiety bleed away
You don't talk sense
You've lost your mind
Feeling so small
And just waiting to fall
You don't really talk much
'cause you don't really hope much
And you know
Oh, you know
You're still ready to let go
Of this dying smoke trail
But the only thing that's changed
Is that now you grab your pen
And showcase your pain!
-Pakhi✍️
P.C.- @azureabyss
#hide #fear #silence #smoketrail #hope #readytoletgo #pain #fall #heartbeat #palpitations #storm #anxiety #frozenheart #semicolon #thegirlwhowrites #poetess
@the_alchemiist @u_star @innerthoughts_ @mirakee @wannabecreative @johar_alfaaz @shaliya @writersnetwork @mirakee_assistant
Follow if u like������
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- pakhi1738 @ishika_0125 thank you
- u_star Dear shagun! ... I really need to tell u this! ... U kno how to "show" the emotions to readers and not just make em read! .... That's a big compliment ive ever given to anyone but to u coz u deserve it ! U show ur scenario, u make us feel! U makes us the protagonist in ur write ups ! ... Its amazing to read something so deep yet so effortless!.... .... I hope u grow!
- pakhi1738 @u_star wow Uma! Thank you so so much. This really means a lot to me. You are probably just being polite given the sensitivity of the write-up you just read before dropping this comment in here but seriously, it really really means a lot to me. As I said, I try to write about what I feel and if you are able to feel it through what I write then it's either because you have felt these emotions too or I felt them too much. Either way, I am so grateful to have met you through this virtual platform. Thank you for being who you are.
- gemmah ❤❤ I'm not supposed to comment on this master piece .. cause.. my words are not good enough to describe how good of a writer you are...
- pakhi1738 @gemmah ahh! you are just being polite. It really does feel like that sometimes, like a dream when I read all these amazing and beautiful comments from you guys in here. Thank you so much for this love and support. Thank you for everything. Honestly, I don't think I deserve it. I just write about how I feel and if you or anyone else can feel it too, it just feels like we are all doing something really wrong. Anyways, thank you
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I was standing on my rooftop
Looking down below
The cold cement and tree
And I was in deep thoughts
Years ago, I wished to jump off this place
I wanted to fall on my death
And I wanted it to hurt
But now, here I am
Despite all my attempts
Despite my suicidal thoughts
Standing here again, I am sober
From all my wishes to die
It's melancholic, I survived my dying thought
I think, back then, I never thought of surviving this life
But I am doing better, there's not much happiness unlike what I imagine
It's a contentment and my comfortable self
Being alive and enjoy all the moments
m.s -
mercynitya
1w
Read MoreI can't believe it's been a year that I've lost my grandma. My heart still choses not to accept it and I don't know what to do. I'm so sorry if you lost someone who were close to you. I only hope you find peace ��
#mirakee #writersnetwork #mentalhealth #panicattacks #anxiety #pod #life #health #emotions #feelings #love #hateI lie awake at night
Reminiscing all the moments I've spent with you
Of us laughing till our stomachs hurts
And with tears in our eyes
Only if I knew
That one of them would be the last ones
I would've laughed a little longer
And hugged you harder
I now lay lifeless and still
Waiting to move on
With a stubborn heart
Which refuses to accept
I try
Not to think of that day
That took not your life
But mine away
©mercynitya
