Some unfulfilled dreams
The Nobel Prizes for Physics for the year 2019 were awarded with one half to James Peebles “for theoretical discoveries in physical cosmology” and the other half jointly to Michel Mayor and Didier Queloz “for the discovery of an exoplanet orbiting a solar-type star.”
Ah! Well it was my long cherished dream to study cosmology and delve into the secrets of the universe. Yes I wanted to be an Astrophysicist! Well I was interested in medical sciences too and later chose it, and I am at glad that it happened .
But again if I was given another chance to study, maybe I will choose it in a heart beat ( subtle oxymoron). There were countless nights when I sneak out of my room after midnight just to star graze and identify the constellations. The Ursa major being the easiest. And by any chance if it was a full moon night, it was cherry on top. Star grazing was my kind of meditation. Hell, I even asked my mom for an affordable telescope if I cleared my medical entrance examination (OXYMORON). Ironical isn't?
Last year during my 6th semester exam, we had back to back exams for 14 days (7 theory papers and 7 practicals which included the dreaded VIVA) . By the last one (ENT Practical) I was completely worn out and I was on the verge of crying out of frustration. I think I cried, a little...
Then I remembered my earlier drill, I went to the rooftop of our hostel and it was about 2am. I laid on my back and just stared at the sky, for about half an hour, and let my tears of frustration fall freely .
And it was one of best times of my life. It cleared my mind I felt as if the entire weight which I was carrying on my shoulders were lifted off. How I miss those days.
All these nostalgic thoughts are making me miss the young Rituparna (A cool nerd)...
And I don't know why the hell I am sharing this....
Maybe to relieve my mind and heart. This is just so..... sad... (if you know what I mean)