I'd abandoned my soul to seek your heart,
Stood on my toes to prove my part;
In pursuit of unconditional love, I'd once proclaimed,
Synchronicities one after the other were signs, I'd claimed.
You've found divine love, said my impressionable heart,
A blissful companionship, until death do us apart.
In the name of love I'd nurtured your baby,
Part of me craving that you'd deem me worthy,
It's this sense of unworthiness that had raised it's head in fear,
A morbid fear of loss that made me cling to what's dear,
An entrenched fallacy that was blinded by emotion,
Overwhelmed by possessiveness that my ego had set in motion.
Night after night I'd tossed and turned,
Thoughts running wild that made my stomach churn,
Fate said mockingly, "Woe betide you!"
And lo behold! my worst nightmares came true!
On that dreadful night when at you my acid tongue lashed,
It changed our lives forever; it all burned down and crashed!
For days I lay in bed, wondering why I was here,
Questioning my very existence, hoping my end was near.
I reeked of an aura of unworthiness, my heart wrenched in despair,
That drove near and dear ones away; like the stench of a dead rat in the air.
My chest grew awfully heavy, writhing in immense pain,
"I give up!” I said, swearing I'd never love again!
Finally one day, I felt my heart slowly open, allowing the light to stream in,
And calmness engulfed my entire being, despite all the background din.
Like a balm that soothed unnerved senses, I felt the heaviness dissipate,
I could feel my lids grow heavy; Was I knocking on heaven's gate?
And then I heard a voice, which spoke quite loud and clear,
You've created your reality with your own doubt and fear.
You've been looking for love in all the wrong places,
Seeking your green haven in all the wrong faces,
Quit clinging & craving; look not in no-man's land,
Seek approval from your own heart, and you won't need a hand.
You want what you want because you think you'll feel love when you have it,
You've got it all wrong, but I daresay you didn't know it.
If it's Unconditional Love that you truly seek, don't look for it without,
Resonate with your Source within, without a trace of doubt!
How do I find my alignment with Source? Asked I, with great anticipation,
Make peace with where you are; said The Voice, and find reconciliation.
And lovingly, The Voice continued in a tone sans doubt,
You asked me who you were and what Life was all about.
YOU are an Infinite Being, expressing yourself on this stage of reality,
The body, just a vessel you use to experience physicality,
You're a born Creator, creating with your awareness,
And you create what you perceive, for the expansion of Universal Consciousness,
You are Who-You-Truly-Are, the Phoenix who rises from the ashes,
A Force that finds its desires from the fire of contrast that lashes.
You came with a conscious intent to discern your desire and create,
And you do that by making choices by experiencing both Love and Hate!
You create your reality with your thoughts; with focus, thoughts turn to emotion,
And thus you summon one of the greatest Universal Laws, known as the Law of Attraction!
Everything you've experienced you've attracted, there's no Law of Assertion,
You attracted the contrast to contextualise experience, clarifying desire with precision.
Lackful emotion is inner guidance; an indication of thoughts in opposition to your desire,
So pay attention to the way you feel, for it is the essence of that feeling which transpires!
You attract the essense of what you feel; You're like a magnet that's attracting reality,
Your thoughts become things with focus, so think not, thoughts of negativity.
You created your own chaos with the perceptions of your mind,
You separated yourself on purpose, so that your way back to Source you may find!
Jesus had once said rightly, "Ask and you shall receive",
But forget not to focus on what you want, & not on what you haven't received!
For Thought is Energy that forever grows, and momentum ensues when you focus,
Therefore, focus ever so gently on your desire and not on its absence!
Witness not an unwanted reality, for you create what you observe,
So behold only that which you enjoy, so you recreate those events that serve!
But Contrast is essential for discernment, for what is Heat without Cold?
And without Contrast, Desire cannot exist, for a finiteness of the Universe would unfold!
You are Energy at the end of the day; so a magnetic field you possess,
And like a radio that emits a signal, an emission every second you process.
You emit a frequency every second, based on the thoughts you're thinking,
The beliefs you hold and the thoughts you promote become the vibration you're emitting.
Your thoughts therefore are in constant communication with an invisible field of potentials,
Which then responds with a corresponding reality that you then experience as ordeals,
Tune in to thoughts that feel good within; do not react to conditions without,
You activate the vibration of the subject you're observing, restricting your desire from coming about.
Observe not an unwanted reality and hold your image of what's wanted,
Distract yourself from contradictory thoughts that pop into your head, uninvited.
Your desire's like a moving train, it will surely reach it's destination!
But an engine to the back you add each time, for every thought in contradiction!
Conditions and people around shall change, but make not that your reason
To stay away from Who-You-Truly-Are; and Unconditional Love comes to fruition.
Desire and Contrast are the foundations of Life, for it helps the Universe expand;
And it is these two vital aspects of Creation, that give Eternity a hand!
You are the purest energy of Love, looking for a place to happen,
But you resist it from flowing with ease, if you block it with your human notions.
Every thing you ever laid eyes upon, is but someone's idea of awareness,
When you take off the lens that form these perceptions, what remains is unadulterated Consciousness.
You are sentient beings in a physical body, finding a way of expression,
And once you understand Who-You-Truly-Are, it strips you of all illusion!
You emerge from the same Source of Creation; yet you express as unique perceptions,
You see yourself as separate souls, for your energies have bespoke vibrations.
You view uniquely from individual perceptions, for variety is the essence of Nature,
This instills ideas that inspire, that lead to evolution of the Future.
So know your worth, my love, said the Voice; You are Infinite Intelligence in prowess,
You're not so different from Who-We-Are, for We are Collective Consciousness.
For you too are part of That-Which-We-Are, an Infinite soup of Wisdom,
All you need is to believe in yourself, and you summon a Power you just can't fathom!
Every day is a gift from the Universe; a fresh chance to direct thought to Creation,
There's nothing that you cannot Be, Do or Have, For you ARE the Universe in ecstatic motion!
I felt my eyes brimming with euphoric tears, a feeling of resonance with my Wholeness,
I knew I'd found what I was looking for; Unconditional Love in it's absoluteness!
I'm overcome with a feeling of inexplicable bliss; I find peace within to keep,
Knowing what I now know I can never look back, without feeling gratitude that's deep!
So I thank you for evoking strong desire in me that lead to a powerful disconnection,
When you held your ground; not feathering my nest, you pushed me to my expansion.
The world is living an apocalypse, submerged in a sea of ignorance,
Thank you for freeing me of my own thoughts; Awakening The Truth within my conscience.
I now see You beyond the bourne of body, You are an Eternal Soul,
The fear of loss I possess no more; we're both equal parts of One Whole!
You are worthy beyond words; Embody that thought in every pore;
You're here as a Powerful Creator, Born to focus on your goal!
And the goal isn't to find purpose; nothing to gain or achieve,
You're a Creator adding to All-that-is, with your mind's focus that's unique!
Time and space isn't linear, each frame of reality a projection of the senses,
No Past nor Future, no legacy to leave behind, Only an illusion of an eternal NOW exists!
So there's no race to run, no worthiness to prove; You're already worthy as can be,
You've only come to express and experience as actors ; Follow your bliss and just be!
My love for You has never been purer, for through eyes of Source I now see,
And no matter what happens without, I've found Unconditional Love within me!