Life in mirrors
Remember how as a kid your back to school assignment would be "write an essay on how I spent my last holiday"?
The teacher would hand out empty sheets of paper and I would watch my mates go to work
Flipping sheets and writing about the interesting feats from their holiday
And me........ I would just sit there staring back at this blank sheet of paper that's supposed to be an essay
Because the truth is ........there was never any holiday
I came from a family where our shelter was wood
Breast milk till the age of two, because that was the only source of baby food
So even if there was a holiday we couldn't celebrate
That's when I stared lying to myself
Lying to get good grades
Lying to impress people
Lying to relieve my aching burden,
told my heart you were as good as the others
Because I so desperately wanted change
But change wasn't forthcoming
And destiny was within reach
But the mind is a powerful place you know, feed it a bunch of lies and the rest is history
So I put up all these mirror images of a perfect life to prevent people from seeing what I really am , because I was insecurity driven
I watched everything I'd ever wanted fade away, and I'd say to myself everything I'd ever needed was in here
So I put up more mirages
But your conscience wouldn't just shut up would it?
Deep down I was so lonely that my very own shadow wouldn't walk with me
I'd stumble and hurt myself in the dark but I kept telling myself "I'm fine"
No! No! You're not fine , you have multiple internal injuries, broken into a thousand pieces, probably died a billion times but people don't seem to notice
Distraught from your past your heart feels like a broken promise
You've been trampled upon because people don't even see you
You're life is a dirty mess, but not even the flies will follow you around
Think about this, you put up more audio living because you are an insecure wanna be with a messed up life to hide right?
Doesn't that tell you that people with picture perfect lives and zero problems also have something to hide
How much better has impressing people made your life
Think about that before you black out yourself with your sorry excuse for a life