Expressions : Diary of an Introvert
Day ( I have quite forgotten )
'Time flies by in the yellow and green'
I heard that line in a song I've been obsessed with recently,and I cant help but think about it a lot .Or maybe its the loneliness again,or homesickness or just the undeserved attitude that keeps emanating from some faces I know .
I've heard and noticed whispers behind hands,pointy fingers ,snide comments and the worst is the the blankly rude stares.Savannah (my sweet roommate ) is like my saving grace ,I eat lunch with her and thank heavens we dont have to compulsorily eat at the cafeteria.
Our room has become my haven ,when I leave for lectures I cant help but stare over my shoulder ,it's like he's always there ,right behind me and that is extremely unsettling; I remember yesterday night in our room while we were indulging in a cute and fun Korean drama'it's okay not to be okay starring Kim Soo Hyun and So Ye Ji' Savannah gently probed again (I understand her concern but I don't want her to stress out too with mock exams coming up).
'So you know him ',she asked with concern ,'i mean like you've seen him before or something '
I hadn't been able to answer then .
But I knew him Dear Diary of an Introvert .
He was the reason my mom and I changed cities and neighbourhoods ,and I couldn't forget his voice,smell and his eyes .
Just last week when I was in the indoor leisure room (of course it was late but then I think better when it's quiet ) I didn't hear him walk in and settle down ,so you can imagin my discomfort when I stood up several hours later to leave and saw him there sprawled on the seat and looking peaceful .I will not deny I was tempted to scream but I resorted to carefully tip-toeing out ;however as fate would have it he jerked awake just as I stealthily moved past him and I wouldn't have known if his hand hadn't shot out and grabbed my wrist in a vice like grip.My shocked eyes shot back and locked unto his ......I could feel my heat rate spike and beads of fear forming on my back .
'You've been running away from me ,sweetpea,'he said standing up
wait diary I've to go ,it's supper time Savannah is calling me and she hates being late for cafeteria because she hates having to wait in the long queues there in case we bump into (you know who).
I love you my diary ,you listen without judgements (not that its a choice ☺)