HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIRAKEE
Apart from wishing you happy birthday,
I had few other wishes some can't come true,
but still I'll recite it so that I don't feel so blue.
I'm glad! so glad I found you when darkness
was making me sleep and was raising me in its bed,
I was no less than a dead and my heart chambers were smoked cos I had nothing left but poison inside my head.
I was mere a lifeless, everything was breaking me and I was walking with so many side effects.
I remember I found you in September 2018.
I was so happy posting my very first post. I had so much inside of me that was making me hollow everyday.
I wish you had started earlier and I wish I had met you in year 2015 if only you had started that year, maybe I wouldn't have lost myself and maybe I wouldn't have wounded myself by keeping thousands of things inside of my head.
I wish I had met you when I was struggling with so many delusions and illusions that kept me awake for years and soaked my eyes in tears.
I wish I had met you when I was giving myself bruise and was completely diverted from my path.
I wish I had met this brilliant community that possibly is the best because they make me believe there is still hope and I love when they appreciate and shower you with their love.
Those many years when I felt alone, darkness came by my side and plucked my emotions, my happiness and my smile.
I felt worthless because I was being controlled by my demons and everyday I felt no more than a living dead, holding his emotions and hiding from everyone, but inside I was completely shattered, battling with so many things and was fighting against my own evil who was reflecting me as devil.
These wounds, bruises and scars that I've given myself hasn't gone anywhere but since when I have found you, I've found me somewhere and that I'm glad I found you though late but I found you.
Still trying my best to gain possession over myself because those nights still some days haunts me, scars still looks fresh and whenever I see my reflection, I can see the unrest.
I can write even more but I'm having difficulty finding words for you at this moment so I'll end it here but I'm sure someday, I'll try to express my love for you even better than this.
Happy birthday to you! I hope you grow and grow because If you'll grow, I'll grow too with you.