Confessions to my mental health lover
I think we need to talk
It pains me to let this secret loose but I had no other option left to choose.
I refuse to let anyone else expose the news...
I've been cheating on you.
And it is not to say that you have let me down,
You've stuck by me through thick and thin
Kept me up and whispered sweet nothings till dawn despite my mouth's best efforts to force a yawn.
You let me not go.
I appreciate the efforts you've taken to introduce me to your friends:
I'll never forget how shy anxiety made me
Or how much time i spent with overthinking.
We shared memories that will be with me like a well decorated headstone...
But memories we will make no more.
My new love - Joy - has given me things you never saw.
She motivates me to be strong against the arrows of your abuse,
Protects me from the grenades of doubt you were never shy to produce.
She reminded me that my Jesus said, "Love your neighbor as you love yourself"
I guess it was a matter of time before the love that I gave turned around 180 until I was the one being saved.
She introduced herself to me on a seemingly insignificant day but boyyy she had a bit to say.
She saw you coming and hid herself in the smile you told me to mask.
So now, my debt has been paid and there's nothing more to ask.
It's not me, it's you.
©zealous_xpression
#cheating
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If your love on me is true and pure, then you wouldn't have left me just like that
©kirthu_velan -
Karma says..
Cheating is a choice , not a mistake
And loyalty is a responsibility , not a choice.
©radha_bajaj3 -
HEART-BREAK
All her life she wondered how good he would be,
But all he did was just sucking the nectar out of her and flew like a bee.
©positive_stagnation -
preranarathi 4w
गलती
ईश्क का पानी चढ़ा कर दगा कि थी,
मुहब्बत की आड में बेवफ़ाई कि थी।
भरोसे का मुखौटा पहन कर धोखा आया,
गलती तो हमसे हुई,
जो उन्हें समझने में हमने इतना वक्त लगाया।
- प्रेरणा राठी
©preranarathi -
pallavi4 5w
Catastrophe
I lie bleeding under a canopy of shimmering stars
Aware that this will be the last time I see them
The cold seems to have seeped into my broken bones
I’m coughing clots of blood along with the phlegm
As life slowly ebbs towards the end
I cling to each moment, each breath
I shiver thinking any minute may be my last
I seem to be inches away from death
Life flashes before my now drooping eyes
As I lay dying on the grassy greens of my own house
In life I hadn’t achieved much
Neither been a good father nor a bearable spouse
My wife, the doting, meek, mother of two
Stands by me watching me hang on to my dear life
She’s soaked to the bone , as am I
I lie prostrate on the ground, she holding a bloody knife
In my life I had had little consideration for her
Or for that matter anyone else but me
I had been spoilt and selfish, self centered and a cheat
Inspite of my kids I had always considered myself free
She had on the other hand
Spent her life tending to me and later the kids
Her obliging, sweet manner were good for a person like me
Oblivious to her own needs she had lived
I had cheated on her for years now
She had only now discovered one
Read the love notes written by one of them
So she knew about my infidelity and how behind her back I had been having fun
When confronted with the notes I denied
Any knowledge of their existence
Plead to her of my innocence in the matter
Thought I could persuade her with some persistence
The lies seemed to not have moved her
She was embarrassed, angry and outraged
I had underestimated the degree of her ire
She stood listening , seething like an animal who had been kept caged
Without a word , she lurched at me
The blade of her meat knife piercing my heart
As I fell to the floor I lost count of the slashes
They’d been so unexpected that they’d given me a start
I slowly dragged myself away from her
Towards the garden I started to crawl
She stood like an amazon watching me mewl
Watching my blood soil the floors and the walls
As the thunderstorm outside blessed
The lovingly tended garden with showers of rain
She followed me out to the lawn
Where I now lay writhing in extreme pain
The kids were asleep although they were
By now used to the silent treatments and fights
I wondered what they would think of their gentle mother
After she disposed me off this very night
I pleaded with her to get me a doctor
I knew I was close to being gone
She stood silently like a block of wood
While I bled out on her meticulously manicured lawn
Walked she did to the house alone after orchestrating the catastrophe
The nearest neighbours were further away than a mile
For the first time in years once she shut the door
Her face lit up with a beatific smile
@pallavi4
22nd of January, 2021
Pic credit: Pinterest, picture credited to its rightful owner- “Blind Love” by Cora Tiana
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pallavi4 8w
Icicle
He was the light of her life
A luminous candle in the dark
They’d spent they lives together even though
The difference between them was stark
He would often come home late
But always with flowers in his hand
If he ever messed up he would rectify
The situation by doing something grand
One day while she was shopping
And humming to herself
She saw him standing in a cafe
From across the grocery shelves
It was as though someone had
Punched her in the gut
When she saw the woman he was with
Her eyes in utter shock she shut
Hoping the image would disappear
From her mind and her heart
Quietly she collected her things
Walked home dismally in the dark
She vowed to not question him
Instead wait for him to confess
It was as though an icicle had been
Pushed inside of her chest
He came home early that night
And tried to be his jolly self
He noticed she’d grown weary of his jokes
She refused to play along or melt
The silence hung heavy between them
Neither one willing to make the start
Of breaking down what had gone wrong
Why he’d gone and broken her heart
Quietly they ate their dinner
He knew looking at her this wasn’t alright
She kept wondering what was wrong with her
Staring into the ebony of the night
He tried to work his way out of it
Tried very hard to convince her otherwise
But she’d seen what she needed to see
And told him from him she’d like to cut ties
With the love he believed he still had for her
He tried to make a yes out of her no’s
The next day she packed up all her things
And left him watching the joy out of his life go
@pallavi4
29th of December, 2020
Pic credit: Pinterest, picture credited to its rightful owner- “Moving on” by NaBHaN
#iciclec #icicle #stories_in_poems #disloyalty #cheating #writersbay @writersbay @writersnetwork #writerstolli #writersnetwork #mirakee #mirakeeworld #readwriteunite #thepoetrycommunity #poetry #pod #writerscommunity @mirakee.
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yours_fortune 9w
But hold on
It's never late.
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#2020 #realization #fakepeople #people #spoiler #goodfriends #badfriends #friends #cheat #cheating2020 made me realise that,
I have wasted my "yaar pata hai aaj kya hua"
On people who deserves my "accha,ok, theek, ya, hmm".
@the.black_quote -
Cheating
Cheating is a choice not a mistake. -
_infinity_writer_ 18w
Burned out this one's bit dark so warnings i guess like it and share...❤️
#burnedout #cheating #ignorance #pain #heartbreak #love #lostlove #loveisblind #hurt #husbandandwife #badhusband #innocent #patientwife #assholes #smoking #dark #brokenrelationships #storytime #stories #writer #writings #stayhome #staysafe #writersofinstagram #writerscommunity #writerBurned Out
She thought they were happy...
she didn’t know what changed. They love each other. she did. she thought he did too. “What changed?” she whispered to the empty room. They met in college. They fell in love. she did. They decided to get married. They even fought their parents on it. she did. she thought he did too.She moved out of town for him. she stopped calling his parents, because they didn’t trust him. She didn’t talk to his college or school friends, because they didn’t trust him too . She helped him with household chores;never doubted him; never questioned him for being Iate;never fought for his time. ’she trusted him’. “ trusted you” she whispered to the empty room.
His business was down. She didn’t berate him. She worked for him too. “It’s too soon for a baby. Abort it. We will wait for another year”. He had said. They had a big fight. But she gave in the end. She cried that night after her abortion. He wasn’t there. “I killed our baby... my baby for you” she whispered to the empty room.
She got through it. She worked, worked , worked to the bone to escape from the pain.’everything would be fine. It’s just a phase’, she said to herself. She tried to talk to him. “Look, I’m going through a tough time. My business ideas aren’t working out. Nobody is ready to invest. I don’t have the qualification or interest to join a stable job. Am l whining like you? Quit whining and stop disturbing me.” he had said. She stopped telling him her problems.
He was out always lately. ‘Maybe he got a new business’ she reasoned to herself. “Yeah” he replied when she asked him about it one day at dinner. ‘He is stressed due to new business’, he reasoned to herself again. Her calls were ignored. Her texts were unseen. He stopped having dinner at home too. ‘Had dinner with the investors’ he had said. She believed him. “I believed you” she whispered to the empty room.
She had left for an official trip the day before. It was for 4 days. But she skipped last day tour activities conducted by the oPice and decided to surprise her husband. She came in early in the morning and opened the door. She went to their room to surprise him. She could never erase the image she saw there. ‘You were supposed to come tomorrow. Did you come to check on me? You were never there for me. You were always working or whining. I x‹as depressed and you cared about only you. You were selfish. Only your career was important to you. I was never there in your life. She likes me. She wants me. She’s not like you. I’m leaving’ he had said. All through this she had stood frozen, not able to talk; think; move.
“What changed?” she questioned the empty room. She saw his lighter and ashtray on the bedside table. 'Oh he started smoking because i didn’t give him enough attention. Funny’ she snorted. She took the lighter in her hand. she had given it to him as a gift and made him try and quit smoking. ‘Don’t burn yourself out too fast’ she had said that day. “So you burned my life down,” she said to the empty room, lighting it and staring at their bed.
I will burn myself now...
©_infinity_writer_ -
_infinity_writer_ 18w
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#storytime #oneshot #writer #stayhome #staysafe #bestfriends #brotherbyheartnotbyblood #breakups #friendship #icecream #netflixandchill #tears #support #bestfriendsgoals #cheating #heartbreak #toldyouso #exgirlfriendsbelike #bestie #trashtalk #feelings #writer #writerscommunity #writersofinstagramShared tears
He want to punch her in her face...
He knew it. He knew she wasn't taking her relationship with his best friend seriously.
And he told that idiot and they had fought.
Look whose right now.. He thought.
They were best friends for better part of a decade. When she came around 2 years ago telling she liked his best friend, he knew something was wrong. His friend wad happy in the beginning of their relationship that he ignored it.
And then she started pulling away from his friend. He asked his friend so many times if it was okay but his friend just said ’fine’.
He knew something wad wrong. He want to ask her. Talk to them. But he feared it would be wrong to interfere between them.
And then she started pulling away from his friend. He asked his friend so many times if it was okay but his friend just said 'fine’.
He knew something wad wrong. He want
to ask her. Talk to them. But he feared it would be wrong to interfere between them.
He knew his friend will open up to him someday, but he never expected this. Here he was with his friend who not just broke up but been cheated by his Girlfriend (ex - girlfriend - If he sees her now, She’s done).
He wanted to shout. Tell his friend told you so. But one look at the tears from his friend’s eyes, he couldn’t do it. It always hurts to see the people you care about in pain. It is devastating to see them cry. Be it your family, friend or love. whether they are in pain because of you or not, it hurts.
Like hell.
Tears started slipping down his seeing his best friend crying. He had never seen him cry. His best friend was the most strong and happiest person he has ever seen.
Even at his low he never cried so openly. He always masked his pain with smile. It is painful to watch him like this.
What?" his friend asked añer long silence. "That bitch fucked you up bad, didn't she?", his voice thick and croaked as he asked. "you are supposed say 'told you so', not cry with me", his friend snorted and replied. "I have time for that" he
replied to his friend. "Why are you crying?"
his friend asked. "i have never seen you cry and didn't know it would hurt like hell” he replied.
Finally he saw a sad smile on his friend’s face. " Knew you would care, never knew how much" his friend smiled at him. " What do you think about a tub of ice cream and Netflix, we can bitch about bitches all night and i will let you rant about how beautiful she and how she left but on one condition of only today, dealing He smiled back.
They sat all night bitching, ranting and watching series all night, it ended with 3 empty tubs of ice cream.
©_infinity_writer_ -
Unfaithful
There's more to cheating
than what is said
In some cases to be unfaithful is the result
of being careless
something hard to except
A relationship requires
attention, time and romance
not just being together and hoping
to last long
A relationship is about you
How you take care of yourself
To impress you partner is a thing two
It's long tern job until a couple ages
as time goes by
But it's something hard to take
but easy to deny
©dodgerzm -
Trust
she thought
i was in love with her ,
but she never noticed i even trusted her
the most.
©jeeths -
alxita 22w
|| Theme ||
Window Widow describes a person (as if a spider) who is disloyal to their initial lover. The person disposes them eventually.
#life #love #cheating #infidelity
#mirakee
#alxitasonnets
#alxita_september_twenty
#sya #pod #genuine_readers
#daadigotyourback
@writersnetwork.
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Cheating ?
Cheating is a hidden contrasting
characteristic of human being .
Emotionally , physically , mentally ,
thoughtfully , ethically , morally ,
actually you will find yourself..
cheating on someone or something
May be more than once
in past like a swing & sway ..
Come on... Let's not be in denial ,
Let's not shy away ..
Don't beat yourself for the mistakes
Or the cheating done on the way .
Let's remember to correct it , to accept
it & to apologise ..if you find it ..Right away ..
Cheating is a hidden
characteristic of human being ...
Credit yourself without any qualms ..
It's human nature & here to stay ..
©soulfullyps -
धोखा
दिल तोड़ना सही नहीं किसी का,
पर धोखा देना सही,
कैसे?
©roheet -
alxita 26w
|| Main Theme/s : Disloyalty ||
|| Logorrhea ||
1 | cadge - to persuade [someone] to give something for free
2 | besiege - to urgently request to [someone]
3 | sully - to make dirty
4 | infeft - to hand over one's possession to someone else
5 | verbatim - word by word
6 | catharsis - purification of emotions (fear, pity, etc.) through art
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#love #infidelity #cheating #relationship #heartbreak #lies #truth #reality #life #catharsis #mirakee #alxitasonnets #alxita_august_twenty #ceesreposts #pod @writersnetwork.
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INFIDELITY
I started a game.
I didn't expect this ending.
I should have kept my heart and also his.
Falling too deep when I'm not supposed to.
Let his feeling go stronger, when he shouldn't though.
I'm trapped.
I can't make a confession, it'll be bad.
I'm not ready to make them sad
I'm not ready to be blamed for everything that happened.
I don't know how to stop
Even not knowing when to stop
Loving him but don't want to lose them too.
©its_me_luki -
mystery_in_words 27w
#117
Written on 22/08/20 - 22.45
#tears #love #cheating
@mirakee @writersnetwork @thepoetrycommunityI see your receding footprints when I am with you
I see shadows on your shoulders when I cry on them
I see your focus slipping when I stare into your eyes
I have known, always.
By the time you bid me goodbye,
I would have already cried.
©Deepika -
deactivate_user 28w
#mirakee #writersnetwork #readandwriteunite #brokenheart #cheating #simo #quote #fakelove
Glossary :
Aggravated :problem /injury
Mortified : someone to feel ashamed or embarrassed
Enamored :feel with love
You can relate this with me.
What aggravated me most
In that whole circumstance
Was the way that I wasn't feeling mortified,
Or irritated, or even tricked.
Double-crossing was what I felt,
My heart broken not simply by
A person I was enamored with,
However likewise by,
As I once accepted,
A genuine companion.
©cherrrry