I have stopped crying !
I wonder, how with time, I have stopped crying! Almost nothing makes me cry now; except the song 'Iktara', when I listen to it on a rainy day with a cup of chai in my hand.
I had been a crybaby for quite a long time. I cried when my favorite character died in a movie. I cried when I scored less marks. I cried when I was rebuked before a packed class, for asking a silly question. I cried when maa taunted me. I cried when papa slapped me. I cried when they called me an escapist. I cried when I was called a loser, when I was called oversensitive, when I was called weak. Yes, I had always cried loud and wet.
And I had been made to believe that I am never enough to take right decisions, that I always need someone to advise me, that I am unnecessarily oversensitive, that I am not strong. That I cry so much and so often.
And today, I don't cry. Even when I want to. It just sometimes feels like all the inflammable insecurities that I had safely kept in a noncandescent casket at some hidden corner of my lost heart, incited by some matchstick, have exploded, leaving me deaf and dumb.
But I swear, I do not cry anymore. I have stopped crying. So, am I strong now? Am I enough now?