To shame by Shy Flores
Gazing at the liquor store,
& I don't even know anymore,
Thinking of all the ways to steal,
So I dont have a way to feel.
People know that I am scum,
I am used to being numb,
its so easy to unwind,
When your lost inside your mind...
I am poisonous in every way,
And i am toxic to every day,
I keep dancing with my hurt,
Always in the mood to flirt.
My demons have a way to find,
The truth that I have stuck behind,
I'm the one who is to blame,
The reason that I am to shame...
©sourr3jekt666
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sybs13 25w
//where art thou?//
i searched for you in the vastness of skies
but you were hid in the depths of seas. .
i searched for you in the melancholy of dark . . .
but you were hid in the silence of the moon . . .
i searched for you in the parched deserts under the scorching sun across the distant lands . . .
unlike the raindrops that could quench the longing pluviophile
but you were the cloud visible on a sunny day . .
enough to h o p e . .
but swaying in the winds of tomorrow. . .
i searched for you
beyond the tomorrows . .
beyond the seasons . . .
but you were hid . . .
unlike a ghost without a body and soul. . .
trapped in the traces of uncertainties..
wishing you were alive . .
i searched for you
beyond the home of boundaries & walls
beyond desires & regrets . .
but you were running away from everything to escape the existence of the transience
the perplexities . . the nothingness of life. .
you hid unlike a dream forlorn of sleep
descending in the forgetful wisp of air
exhaling the deliberate compromises . .
you hid while i chased you till the end of everything beyond the depths.. space .. or time . .
i burn all the maps in reaching for you . .
but you were hid
hid . . . unlike a shadow . . .
in the dying darkness that fell as an aching upon my soul . . .
©sybs13 -
sybs13 27w
m i s f o r t u n a t e
sorrow is like a feather
crushed under the weight
of h o p e l e s s n e s s
the air seems forever barren
and the heavy shroud
of s i l e n c e
never cease to leave
but g l o o m and p a i n
©sybs13 -
sybs13 29w
S o m e t h i n g is always missing
my heart is a graveyard
of all that is broken
i try to put the pieces together
only to learn
how lonely things hurt
even when you fix
©sybs13 -
sourr3jekt666 42w
Wasting lives by Shy Flores
I know this place and its whimpered farewell,
The needle welcomes me to hell,
I've been here before, so let's do a little more,
'Till all of the veins in our bodies are sore.
The stains on your sleeve isnt anywhere close,
To the look in the eyes of the ones you love most,
You Pissed it all away for the love of getting high,
Now all of your loved ones are kissing you goodbye.
Obsessing over money moves to get another score,
Spending every penny just to feel a little more,
Misery was good to me until she fed me lies,
Now I'm just a junkie with a love that never dies.
I swore to never let myself lose my self control,
Or stick a needle in my arm that fed upon my soul,
The toxic waste inside my veins is all I want to feel,
So tie me off, and let me fade away from what is real.
©sourr3jekt666 -
sourr3jekt666 45w
Stranger by Shy Flores
I thought I meant a little more,
Than just a stranger at your door.
But I was never worth your time,
I thought that you were always mine...
Once again I truly thought,
That I could ever mean alot,
That love was worth fighting for,
Instead you threw me out the door...
When you hung me out to dry,
Left my loyalty out to die,
And in that moment I could see,
That we were never meant to be.
I trusted you with all my heart,
That we would never be apart,
But like a bird you spread your wings,
And fly away to better things.
©sourr3jekt666 -
sourr3jekt666 10w
It Doesnt matter by Shy Flores
It doesn't matter how I feel,
It doesn't matter how I deal,
As long as i can see you smile,
Then it is worth it for a while.
I always tell you that I'm fine,
I bite the bullet every time,
Putting on that happy face,
Hoping things will fall in place.
Things aren't going all that well,
It's been a constant living hell,
I've been so close to checking out,
Theres nothing left to cry about.
The days grow colder every day,
So much Heavier along the way,
It's hard to let myself forgive,
A life in which Im scared to live.
I used to have it all and more,
I used to be a somebody before,
It was time to leave it all behind,
To find myself some piece of mind.
©sourr3jekt666 -
sourr3jekt666 46w
Turn the page by Shy Flores
She tries so hard to make me smile,
If only for a little while,
She tries so hard to give me hope,
Whenever it's hard for me to cope...
Tomorrow is a brand new day,
She'll find herself another way,
A way To fill her heart just right,
When all we seem to do is fight...
She'll find herself another man,
A man who takes her by the hand,
And she will turn the crumpled page,
Forgetting our bookmark as we age...
I will become a distant thought,
A lover that she has long forgot,
And I will bask alone in the rain,
So she doesn't have to be in pain.
©sourr3jekt666 -
Alone by Shy Flores
I hear it in your tone,
I should leave you alone,
But baby this isnt us,
What happened to the trust?
What happened to the fire?
To our burning desire?
To the passion that we craved,
To the love that we made...
What happened to your smile?
I haven't seen it for a while,
And Where did we go wrong?
We used to always get along...
I hope you know that I adore,
The way we used to be before,
I could feel your love for days,
Feeling all these kinds of ways...
Now its always something new,
I dont want to fight with you,
All I wanted was a chance,
To be your lasting romance...
©sourr3jekt666 -
sourr3jekt666 12w
Repair by Shy Flores
When the night leaves me behind,
To spend some time inside my mind,
All of the parts that need repair,
Are brushed aside until I care.
I used to know where this road ends,
I used to have alot of friends,
I used to love until my heart was full,
I used to have some self control.
Before I knew how it felt to choose,
Before I knew how it felt to lose,
I used to have my ducks in a row,
I lost myself a long time ago.
I wish I knew what I know now,
To spare myself the pain somehow,
I wish I knew the reasons why,
My demons keep me up at night.
Time will keep on passing by,
The past will haunt me till I die,
I will be here wasting away,
Dreaming of a better day.
©sourr3jekt666 -
sourr3jekt666 45w
Joke by Shy Flores
I closed my eyes a little too tight,
And made a fool of myself tonight...
Of all my different colors I bled,
I was blinded by the red...
Our lungs were full of pure disgust,
Broken hearts with broken trust,
I felt her pain and she felt mine,
Both of us were out of line...
I hate her for my broken heart,
I blame her for me falling apart,
I tried to fix what was never broke,
Now I wish we have never spoke...
©sourr3jekt666 -
sourr3jekt666 12w
Heartbeat by Shy Flores
I love how soft her lips always feel,
With every kiss; I faithfully steal,
The smell of her hair across my face,
She Takes me away to a better place...
My heart is yours to have and to hold,
Always and forever; as we grow old,
Her voice is heaven; she makes me melt,
Shes the reason for the chills I've felt...
Whenever I hold her body close,
That's when my heartbeat skips the most,
She made me into an honest man,
She made me proud of who I am.
Shes seen my colors in every shade,
Loved me and all the mistakes I've made,
Someday : this girl will be my wife,
On the happiest day of my life.
©sourr3jekt666 -
sybs13 31w
Love alone
could escape our forlorn hearts
captive in prisons of wall
built of despair
©sybs13 -
Junk by Shy Flores
Everybody knows that I'm a drunk,
A hopeless addict on the junk,
And when it feels like i cant win,
I take a swig and soak it in...
I used to care about my drink,
Now I dont know how to think,
Watch as I become a fool,
I used to think that I was cool,
Buzzin' through my day today,
Dazed and I cant find my way,
Faded into all my shit,
I dont ever seem to fit...
She knows I always get the blues,
With all the ways I get to use,
Breaking down another hit,
Cause I'm a fucking piece of shit...
©sourr3jekt666 -
Goodbyes by Shy Flores
Its hard to find the words to say,
To make it better off this way,
But truth is i will upset everyone,
There's Nowhere left for me to run...
I wont give any reasons why,
That I am sick of living life,
All I know is its hard enough,
Always feeling like giving up...
I lay awake all night and cry,
Knowing all I did was try,
To find a reason for me to stay,
And I cant help but fade away...
Try your best to please stay strong,
Lean on eachother to carry on,
I'm sorry that I hurt everyone,
Life was never my kind of fun...
Remember me the best you can,
But not as the piece of shit I am,
Beside you is where I will be,
When you are hurting over me.
I love you more than you will know,
I'm sorry that I let myself go,
I'll be standing by your side,
When you find out I have died...
I didnt stand a chance anymore,
My mind was at a constant war,
I left behind a world of pain,
Forgive the thoughts inside my brain....
©sourr3jekt666 -
Somebody by Shy Flores
Today I had an awful day,
Nothing seemed to go my way,
I carry on the best I can,
the pain is bigger than I am.
I hate that I dont have a voice,
I hate that I dont have a choice,
Everything is going wrong,
And it keeps going on and on...
I tried to find the good in me,
But I don't want the world to see,
That I am weak and I am sad,
And Every day is getting bad...
I put a smile on my face,
I don't want to lose my place,
I dont want the world to know,
That Im so close to letting go...
I Dont want to feel anymore,
Never felt this way before,
I used to be somebody who,
Used to mean something to you....
©sourr3jekt666 -
Chills by Shy Flores
My nightmare somehow stuck on woke,
I want to scream but I just choke,
So before you start to get the chills,
Chug this drink and take these pills...
Hide behind an empty smile,
Hold it down just for a while,
Gaze upon the liquor store,
Yearning for a buzz of more...
I am not all in the head,
I might be so much better dead,
Help me reach my goal at peak,
Lets make all of my demons weak...
©sourr3jekt666 -
sourr3jekt666 46w
Carriage by Shy Flores
I swear I'm still the same old guy that you recall I was,
The same old guy to melt your heart the way he always does,
My love for you still carries on just like the day we met,
But Years gone by and yet I try to make you not forget....
I know we fight and it's alright to want some time alone,
But i can't help it if I still keep calling on your phone,
Even when you hate me for the pain I leave behind,
Love is blind and baby you are always on my mind...
©sourr3jekt666 -
sourr3jekt666 44w
Low by Shy Flores
I have never felt as low as this,
I try to aim but always miss,
She cuts me down and so I fall,
Just to make me feel that small.
If only I would've done my part,
I wouldn't have this broken heart,
She wouldn't have to say its over,
If I would come over when I'm sober.
©sourr3jekt666 -
Blues by Shy Flores
As Days go by; the years will die, And I will always wonder why, All the pills and all the booze, Couldn't numb away the blues...
I hope you know that i am stuck, You have always been enough, But I'm another reason why, You keep losing sleep at night...
I cant help but mess things up, I will never be enough, I'm the reason why you cry, Im the reason that you lie...
I'm so sorry for your heart, Im always tearing it apart, Always know that I am true,
To spend my life with you...
Drown myself in all the pain, Leaving such a chilling stain, Love is blind; and love is dead,
Your the voice inside my head...
So if I have myself a drink, I dont want to feel or think, Searching for a buzz to love,
The kind I'm always dreaming of...
I dont want her heart to break, i wont make the same mistake, so Take away the blues I feel, And Help us find a way to heal...
©sourr3jekt666