#darkthoughts

378 posts
  • mjpoetry 3d

    Ugly thoughts

    I'm trying to find just one good reason
    Why I should continue to live.
    I know there's one
    I just can't find one at the moment
    My mind is so fucking exhausted
    All I want to do is sleep
    I don't wanna die.
    I'm scared of my thoughts
    My mind has a mind of its own
    I tell myself it's just a thought
    it shall pass,
    trying to keep calm
    I'm trying to be
    kind to myself but it's hard when I feel so
    ugly on the inside.
    ©mjpoetry

  • jerryyak 1w

    Dark thoughts part 5

    traumatized from my past bae i keep it low
    we fell for eachother like two pieces of Domino
    fire in the soul but my heart is still cold
    no wooden kid can't take me to your puppet show
    bullet to the head call me Vincent van Gogh.
    ©jerryyak

  • apple_brooklyn 1w

    Darkest sins reside behind the
    curtains of brightest eyes;
    in secrecy, they rejoice.
    When the world weeps in agony,
    they shed tears
    intended for joy.

    Their upfront polished, porcelain white;
    indubitably a bewitching sight,
    but beneath lies
    a core so rotten, riddled with mites.
    Deceased hearts, derailed minds,
    they hurl preachings at us who
    understand their kind.

    With their sparkling, pseudo angelic wings
    they beckon the perplexed minds,
    and pose as the unblemished shrine
    of love, devotion,
    but it soon sublimes.
    Sugary smiles, honeyed lights,
    turn acrid when ill figured reflection
    presents itself to the sight.

    So, I sit in my seclude corner of tenebris,
    with my fellows, with my ashened wings.
    And we cackle together,
    our breaths splitting into laughter,
    watching the lambs being
    led to the slaughter.

    All the while they rub their
    pink studded mirrors vigorously,
    paying no heed to their soiled visages.

    ©apple_brooklyn

    #dark #darkthoughts #mirakee @mirakee @writersnetwork

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    Cleaning the mirrors

    So, I sit in my seclude corner of tenebris,
    with my fellows, with my ashened wings.
    And we cackle together,
    our breaths splitting into laughter,
    watching the lambs being
    led to the slaughter.
    ©apple_brooklyn

  • terbell 3w

    I'm lost in my own wonderland,
    You'll never see me around.

  • terbell 3w

    Don't you constantly
    feel like there's something missing.

  • inspirational_thoughts 3w

    Mind

    The power of mind is incomparable,
    It's memory is imperishable.
    Unaffected by emotions,
    It finds the solutions.
    Without considering the feelings,
    It tells us about the healings.
    When situations get critical,
    It asks us to be practical.
    From good, better, best,
    And bad, worse and worst,
    It's power is strong as the crust.
    ©inspirational_thoughts

  • juhiyverma_ 3w

    Without You.....

    Have you ever wondered what this world would be like, without you?
    Lifeless and dead like you??Or the same as it was before, cold and cruel.With only hatred for people like me.Maybe i am wrong or maybe Not.Maybe i judged it all wrong with my myopic eyes and cluttered mind Or maybe i just could not look enough. Not Looked enough to see whether it was all a perception of my own dismantled thoughts,and my handicapped mentality that unwillingly forced me to frame an all wrong notion about the world i am living in, among the people i m struggling with, towards a future i m not ready to be a part of.What if everything that i have been doing is just a part of something thats never gonna happen.Something that was never in the bigger picture that the world hung upon the walls of my broken heart, only to stain it with my own blood.Maybe it wasnt merely a coincidence that all those wounds werent meant to be transformed into beautiful scars but painful memories to be remembered long after I m gone.Or maybe they were supposed to trigger the ache this world inflicted upon me , time and again which my dead and soul less body could no longer feel anymore.But sadly i was numb and oblivious to everything around, owing to my already non existent life.The world would always be the same, no matter you exist or not. Its gonna be there like it was , unperturbed by my death or yours or anyones'. It hardly makes any difference to the world whether u r alive or dead or in a totally third dimension.But for your own satisfaction, u can believe what you want. Whether the world would stop existing for a while or time would cease to mourn over your death. Its all upto you.You can believe in anything and everything that pleases you.Be it the sweetest lies or the ugliest truth. You are already dead so that just means nothing.You are investing in the wrong place, for the wrong people, all for the wrong reasons. Those eyes hiding behind the prettiest faces and honey coated words are myths you could never unravel.Though death might be the eternal truth,your family would be the only one devastated by your loss nevertheless sooner or later they too would learn to live without you.The birds would still chirp every morning and the dawn would still bring beautiful sunshine to your bedroom window, even in your absence. Your words may echoe in the house where you grew up but there wont be anyone to be yelled at now.And Teatime would be the only time , you would be missed But everyone would get used to this new life.Isn't it??


    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#struggle#existence#identity#catharsis#deathismycatharsis#withoutyou#theworldilivein#insaneworld#lifeandlove#soulsearching#darknightofthesoul#awakenings#spiritualascension#unlost#unfound#iam#death#darkthoughts

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    Without You.....

    Have you ever wondered what this world would be like, without you?

    Lifeless and dead like you??Or the same as it was before, cold and cruel.With only hatred for people like me??Maybe I'm wrong or maybe I'm Not.Maybe I judged it all wrong with my myopic eyes and cluttered mind or maybe I just could not look enough.Not enough to see whether it was all a perception of my own dismantled thoughts,and my handicapped mentality that unwillingly forced me to frame an all wrong notion about the world I'm living in, among the people I'm struggling with, towards a future I'm not ready to be a part of.

    ©juhiyverma_

  • noonstar 4w

    Suicide

    Death waits out the door
    Without knocks, without noise,
    Waiting for me to break,
    And open up to her.
    ©noonstar

  • juhiyverma_ 4w

    All this time
    I was living an illusion
    In àn illusion
    That the world loved me
    That everybody cared for me
    How crazy this heart must be
    To believe in yet another lie
    Another great illusion.
    An illusion
    Of the times
    i wanted to speak my heart out
    But had nobody to talk to
    An illusion of all the
    Unfortunate circumstances
    When my body wanted a hand
    Upon my insane head
    And my bare soul
    But none reached out.
    An illusion
    of all the unspoken words
    I wanted to scream
    But couldnt
    Only to protect my little dream.
    An illusion of acceptance
    that i belonged somewhere
    To someone
    Other than me
    that this ugly heart of mine
    Could actually beat
    relentlessly to know
    what being loved felt like
    For once
    Just once.
    I was living an illusion
    That all those plastic faces
    Disguised as well wishers
    in pretense of care
    That they loved me
    loved me enough
    To never let go
    Of my beautiful mind
    Of my beautiful soul.
    An illusion
    To make sure
    I was convinced
    In every possible way
    That i too was loved
    and Never lost
    Never abandoned.
    To make me believe
    I had them
    That i was never alone.
    Oblivious to the fact
    That all this while
    I was living a lie
    The perfect one
    With a beautiful beginning
    With no end at all.
    In an illusion that
    My soul lied to me
    When i trusted you
    That the truth must be told
    To let me out of my confusion
    To let me out of my darkness.

    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#illusion#truth#darkness#justafewwords#randomstuffs#bsyunhi#survival#existence#iexist#iam#lifeandlove#darkthoughts

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    illusion...

    All this time
    I was living an illusion
    In àn illusion
    That the world loved me
    That everybody cared for me
    How crazy this heart must be
    To believe in yet another lie
    Another great illusion.
    An illusion
    Of the times
    i wanted to speak my heart out
    But had nobody to talk to
    An illusion of all the
    Unfortunate circumstances
    When my body wanted a hand
    Upon my insane head
    And my bare soul
    But none reached out.
    An illusion
    of all the unspoken words
    I wanted to scream
    But couldnt
    Only to protect my little dream.
    An illusion of acceptance
    that i belonged somewhere
    To someone
    Other than me
    that this ugly heart of mine
    Could actually beat
    relentlessly to know
    what being loved felt like
    For once
    Just once.
    I was living an illusion
    That all those plastic faces
    Disguised as well wishers
    in pretense of care
    That they loved me
    loved me enough
    To never let go
    Of my beautiful mind
    Of my beautiful soul.
    An illusion
    To make sure
    I was convinced
    In every possible way
    That i too was loved
    and Never lost
    Never abandoned.
    To make me believe
    I had them
    That i was never alone.
    Oblivious to the fact
    That all this while
    I was living a lie
    The perfect one
    With a beautiful beginning
    With no end at all.
    In an illusion that
    My soul lied to me
    When i trusted you
    That the truth must be told
    To let me out of my confusion
    To let me out of my darkness.

    ©juhiyverma_

  • inspirational_thoughts 5w

    Heart tripping

    I’m dying with pain in my heart
    It’s just my soul ripping tonight
    Love, that was known as a pure art,
    Destroys everything that comes in its sight.


    ©inspirational_thoughts

  • joeymango 5w

    Doesn't he look tired

    Its 4am he's up, no time to eat or drink, he leaves for work, he gets to the station a thousand dark faces surround him on the rusty long shell they call a train. The smell of long smoked cigarettes fills the air, he pushes on.

    He works he's fingers to the bone, all day he's on the phone.
    Customers shout and swear, nobody seems to care. He pushes on.

    He thinks of he's children, he jolts and jutters. He was a knight once, the protector of their soft cotton world.. in the divorce he was cast out and forsaken, he's armour stripped and taken, she won't let him see his children. He pushes on.

    Every night he wakes up screaming, he's demons claw and mock him, he lost his children.

    He goes out into the black cold of night, to buy his last rights.. he can barely afford them for she has his children and money. A noose wrapped around he's skinny hungry neck.. he jumps, he snaps he's neck as he hangs in he's final rest. The ladies at work wonder were he's been as they all of a sudden so keen.

    Didn't he look tired.
    ©joeymango

  • ursanocte 5w

    11.11, make a wish-
    11.12, did you do it?
    11.13, I'm sorry, I broke it.

    It's not your fault, but mine.

    11.14

    It's not you, it's me.

    11.15

    I try to be honest and open.

    11.16

    But some of the things you say?

    11.17

    God how they break me.

    11.18

    I'm tripping over myself,

    11.19

    So ready to beg, so ready to plead. .

    11.20

    But that means being honest and open.

    11.21

    And I'm already so broken.

    11.22

    And so this is my broken unspoken.



    #childhoodtrauma #relationships #depression #darkthoughts #11:11

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    11.13 : A Broken Unspoken

    ©ursanocte

  • rakshuk 8w

    Random one.

    Unstable thoughts bouncing the brain harder
    Dark nights,aroused immortal emotions out of the heart
    Tear in the eye and smile on the lips
    The real self is still hiding behind the emotions.

    ©rakshuk

  • sneh_antil 9w

    मैं धुन किसी गीत की
    वो साज किसी राग का है ॥

    मैं राख किसी आग की
    वो चांद किसी रात का है ॥


    ©sneh_antil

  • juhiyverma_ 9w

    Idealised Despair....


    Life has always been unfair to me,
    and this unending ocean
    of unelongingness
    and hopelessness
    has been my only achievement so far.
    the painful experiences aren't just past things
    to remember and laugh off
    they are the avalances that broke apart all the courage and strength i gathered for years,
    to move ahead ,
    that now,
    they lay my heart barren and my memory soiled.
    that I could no longer discern ,
    this threshold of despair is real
    or merely a figment of all my dismantled emotions ,
    piled up through decades,
    not to be fluxed
    with agony and resentment but hope.
    that this awakening
    isn't a chance meeting with myself
    but an age old healing
    to process the obscured sorrows
    that came uninvited to my life.
    that this sense of abandonement
    and alienation
    isn't real
    but a hallucination,
    trapping me all the way,
    into another world.
    that all along
    i had been living
    in an idealised despair
    that sacred journey
    towards my inner being,
    untouched by darkness.
    towards an actual ghost
    i could never dare to fear again.
    towards a blurry vision,
    of watching myself burn
    a thousand times,
    to be reborn
    anew,
    every single time.
    towards the absolute truth that
    i too,
    deserve to be accepted
    with all my imperfections,
    that i too,
    deserve to feel worthy
    of my precious life,
    just for once.
    that i too
    deserve everything ,
    other than
    this idealised despair.

    ©juhiyverma_


    #life#love#despair#idealiseddespair#lifeandlove#youandme#awakenings#insight#selfhealing#betrayedbyqords#juatafewwords#deserve#imperfectlyperfect#randomstuffs#bsyunhi#darkthoughts#unlost#unfound

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    Idealised Despair...

    Life has always been unfair to me,that this unending ocean of unbelongingness and hopelessness has been my only achievement so far.the painful experiences aren't just past things to remember and laugh off.they are the avalances that broke apart all the courage and strength i gathered for years,to move ahead,that now,they lay my heart barren and my memory soiled.that I could no longer discern,this threshold of despair is real or merely a figment of all my dismantled emotions,piled up through decades,not to be fluxed with agony and resentment but hope.that this awakening isn't a chance meeting with myself but an age old healing to process the obscured sorrows that came uninvited to my life.that this sense of abandonement and alienation isn't real but a hallucination,trapping me all the way,into another world.that all along,i had been living in an idealised despair.that this is my sacred journey,towards my inner being,untouched by darkness.towards an actual ghost i could never dare to fear again.towards a blurry vision,of watching myself burn a thousand times,to be reborn anew,every single time.towards the absolute truth that i too,deserve to be accepted with all my imperfections,that i too,deserve tofeel worthy of my precious life,just for once.that i too deserve everything,other than this idealised despair.

  • swa_yasha22 11w

    Ab ruh meri zinda nahin!!!

    Wo pal jab tune izhaar Kiya, wo sach tha ya ye,
    Wo pal jab tune haq jataya, wo sach tha ya ye,
    Jab teri khushiyon ki wajah maine khudko samjha,
    Teri khwahisho ko dharm mana, tere apno ko apna,
    Teri pasand ko lakeer mana, teri napasand ko tyaga
    Aaj tu mere paas hoke bhi mera nahi.
    Tu kehta hai ki wo dusri duniya hai, jhoot hai,
    Mujhe sirf teri mohobbat ki zaroorat hai
    Do shaksiyat hai meri, tu sach hai mera wo sach nahi.
    ©swa_yasha22

  • xoulie 12w

    I tried to write something again, hopefully I would like you to get a read.

    You know, it's not always the case that you want love and you need love from people. You know, some people really don't know what it is to love someone, how it feels when you care for someone and how it feels when you want to be with someone forever.
    They've never experienced it and probably they can't.
    Not everyone have all the emotions.
    Knowing someone loves you but you can't love them back. Knowing someone really cares for you but you don't feel the same way or you've never felt it for anyone.
    How burden it feels to get loved when you can't give love.

    Love is not always like I don't do it,
    It's more when you can't do it.

    It's not just because you've never done it,
    It's just you try, you try to care for people, you try to love people, you try to do your best, yet you feel so empty.
    And you know what feels more empty when someone tries to fill you with love and yet you feel so empty.

    That's why,
    Some people are not jealous of the people who get love,
    but are jeaulous of people who can love.

    It feels like the heart is made of stone or maybe hard rock, which even love can't melt.

    You know, sometimes I think that can't be helped. These people are probably still waiting for someone who can change their mind and heart, and this way they get heartbroken by theirself only.

    .
    .
    #darkthoughts
    You are the only reason why I'm able to get through tough times. #OS♥️

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    Some people are not jealous of the people who get love,
    but are jeaulous of people who can love.

    ©free_spirit21

  • juhiyverma_ 13w

    Do not look down upon me
    for I may not fulfil the criteria
    you set for me
    for I assure you
    I will not be the one
    you want me to be,
    for I may not be at par with the
    unusual expectations you have for me.
    Do not look straight into my eyes
    for I may not be able to
    hold onto my grief
    my tears
    no more
    for I assure you
    I will not be the victim
    of my own incapabilities
    for I know I have in me
    the strength
    of the mightiest star ever born
    Do not pity me
    for the mistakes
    I never thought of commiting
    though unwillingly I had to
    for I am just a puppet
    having no control of the strings
    you tied to me
    Do not force me
    to chase the untameable
    for I may lose
    the purity of
    this very soul
    you never wanted to see
    for I may not
    cross the gates of hell
    to please you with
    false hopes of
    fathoming mysteries
    of this mighty universe
    Do not clip my broken wings
    for one day
    i shall too
    fly afar
    in the endless sky
    unlost
    unfound
    free.....
    ©juhiyverma_

    #life#love#lost#thoughts#onlyme#theonlyone#unheard#unloved#undeserved#undesired#thedarknightofthesoul#awakenings#insights#selfrealisation#catharsis#metamorphosis#survival#darkthoughts#intheabyss
    #universe#unlost#unfound#free

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    free...

    Do not look down upon me
    for I may not fulfil the criteria
    you set for me
    for I assure you
    I will not be the one
    you want me to be,
    for I may not be at par with the
    unusual expectations you have for me.
    Do not look straight into my eyes
    for I may not be able to
    hold onto my grief
    my tears
    no more
    for I assure you
    I will not be the victim
    of my own incapabilities
    for I know I have in me
    the strength
    of the mightiest star ever born
    Do not pity me
    for the mistakes
    I never thought of commiting
    though unwillingly I had to
    for I am just a puppet
    having no control of the strings
    you tied to me
    Do not force me
    to chase the untameable
    for I may lose
    the purity of
    this very soul
    you never wanted to see
    for I may not
    cross the gates of hell
    to please you with
    false hopes of
    fathoming mysteries
    of this colossal universe
    Do not clip my broken wings
    for one day
    i shall too
    fly afar
    in the endless sky
    unlost
    unfound
    free...

    ©juhiyverma_

  • mentally_till 13w

    My Body

    Skin to skin, I wonder if she likes my warmth as much as I like hers.
    I wonder if she'll carry on until my body grows cold
    I wonder if she'd continue beyond that
    Would she notice? Would she care?
    As my body crumbles to dust between her fingers.

  • inspirational_thoughts 20w

    Beauty OF NaTure

    as I whisper bye bye to naturewith this tiny bird in the palm of my handsbeautiful golden colors start to surround mesmelling a hint of heaven in my soulthey can take away my bodybut never my heartlooking to the skyseeing the blossoming red flowersrain upon memy love is more powerfulthan my fearmy heart takes flight with this small bird that made my eyes sparkle with happy tearsinto the heavenly worldwhere only joy is felt.


    ©inspirational_thoughts