#depressioninlove

2 posts
  • moonxchild 75w

    Vulnerable

    I'm making myself vulnerable, something I swore to myself, many years ago, that I would never do.

    It's easy to take my clothes off and offer you my body. You know I am yours to hold, but it also comes with a price.

    The price to owning my body is now the raw sadness that I feel everyday. I need someone to cherish me and care for me, specially when I can't do it myself.

    I say I want to die, but my biggest wish is to feel alive. I don't want to feel like this anymore, I want to feel your love.

    But you will never love me, you just love my body. And my raw soul is too overwhelming for you.
    ©moonxchild

  • moonxchild 77w

    Staircase

    I'm bleeding out.

    Falling for him was like being thrown down an endless staircase. I keep bumping on the steps and hurting myself but I just can't stop the fall. My wrists have been cut and I'm bruised all over the body I willingly gave to him.

    But he doesn't care. He never did. And I tell myself I'm closer to the end as I start to lose my senses. I hope I pass out soon enough and my body stops moving.

    I don't want to love you anymore. You used to make me feel safe but now I wonder "why did you push me down the stairs?"

    ©moonxchild