As I lay my tired, worn body down to sleep
In my large empty bed
My fingers stretch out to find you
But I feel only the cotton fabric instead
Sitting up, spine straight, I panic
It must be a bad dream, nightmare of the worst kind
I try to speak the words, call out your name
All that comes out is a garbled scream
In that moment I remember
These are my new nights
I'd give up all for this to be temporary
Death should come as no surprise but did anyway
Night after night I fervently wish
For the tears to dry and dreams to go silent
Clutching your pillow, inhaling your faint scent I drift off knowingly, it will be just a moment...
If only for a moment...