Do you even know how difficult it is?
To get you out of my mind,
To not include you in my dreams,
To act normal when you are nearby?
When all those hormones trigger me so much and still I have to keep quiet?
I'm not even able to look up when you pass by. Those split-second eye contacts are enough to make me nervous. The butterflies in the stomach never seem to settle. But in your absence, the places seem so void.
And when it comes to confessing... haha, lol, thats not happening.
Why can't you make things a bit easier for me? Why do have to take my breath away with that spectacular smile of yours? Why do have to leave me spellbound with your velvet voice? Why don't you say something when I'm all dumbstruck and speechless?
See... look for yourself how much I have to say. Yet all of my vocab gets exhausted when its time to speak. And yet again I find myself writing to you, hoping that someday you'll read all this crap.