Mirakee
Damn You
First you took my sun
It used to be warm
Inviting
Energizing
And calming simultaneously
I remember that color
Golden yellow to citrus orange
So easy to stare at, that our parents had to remind us not to!
Coconut oil on my tanned childhood skin
Floating in turquoise chlorine water
The scent of oil mixed with the scent of the thin plastic innertube my skinny childhood body floated in.
I watched all the wavy sun lit lines travel across the bottom of the pool.
They hypnotized me, until my body floated in time with the tiny water movements of the pool. Undulations.
I stuck my bottom in the hole of the innertube and faced the sky.
A rich deep blue like my best friend's eyes.
Brilliant white puffy clouds
Slowly drifted through the sky.
But you took that too.
Damn you for taking my blue blue sky.
And smells
like fresh flowers, green grass and fresh living dirt.
And now
You took my family
And friends
You took my human touch
My hugs
My soft embrace
My healing hand holding
Damn you
You took anything worth
Living for
But damn you
I won't let you take me!
©mmbftd
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mmbftd
40w
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mmbftd
89w
I made a mistake
I made a mistake
I let it in
Trying to innocently
Get a breeze
To blow the demons
Out of our home
And unintentionally
Let something else
Equally
Insidious
Through our screen
This air
White
Thick
Acid lung stinging
Ears ringing
Body vibrating
Sickness.
I let it in.
Now it's too late to do anything
But breathe
What else is there?
I'm responsible for this
The sky is in our house
And now I can't get it out
Head throbbing
Pulsing
With purposeful
Rhythm
Assigned by those unseen
I made a mistake
So I must suffer
I'd rather live with the demons
Than breathe this chemtrail air
At least demons
Have their reasons
I've made a mistake.
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mmbftd
92w
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Fog
Socked in again
But this isn't fog
I know, you know
That something much more
Sinister
Created this sky
I keep looking
Searching
For that orange-yellow fire
That signified life to me
Gave me youthful energy
But it's hidden
Obstructed
Behind this blue to white sky
Obstruction
Purposefully
They drop it low
On our lives
As we start to hideaway
Collect in small groups
And hold to each other
Sharing memories
That are morphing now
Mandela may just be alive
Nothing is certain
There is nothing sturdy
To lean our brains on
Nothing to give us strength
To face this
We collect
Like bubbles on water
Desperate for community
But we've been splattered
Apart
Turned against each other
And shame
Runs our dreams turned night terrors
No one's sleeping good anymore
That sharp silver screech
Of tinnitus
Running in our heads
Something has gotten out can't erase it now
Like a parasite
It feasts
On what we are becoming
And I would give anything
To return
To blue skies
And hot fire sun
To simple meals around an old scratched oak dinner table
Running outside
Barefoot in the grass
With friends who felt like family
But those days are gone
How long since any of us laughed with each other?
Too long
How long since you fell in love?
Too long
I need my history
To stay intact
But we are socked in
And this isn't fog
It's intentional
Dimming and dumbing
Of our true lights
Potential can't easily take flight
When we've all become
Socked in
This isn't fog.
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mmbftd
128w
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Just a little photo that shows me thinking about these skies that are so strange looking compared to what I saw back in the 70's/80's when I was a kid. I like to document my skies with my photography which is a passion for me, just as much as writing is. #notmychildhoodsky#lookup#strangeskies#sad#sunlight#shots in#planes#jets#solarradiatinmanagement#chemtrails#geoengineering#bluesky#clouds#thoughts#sunnysightup#thinkaboutit#nature#manmade#mmbftd#photography#timeshavechanged#sunnydays#Seasonalaffectivedisorder#sickness#anxiety#depression#sideeffects#ponder#sharingthoughts
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