It's said, "Money, It's the root of all evil."
The life I have lived, working day after day, too stay above water.
And it is what it is, I am good with that.
The point being, you can have all the money in the world, have the best car.
Have a big, huge house, living alone.
Most don't understand, yes money can make a life easier.
Money can buy the next hot big whatever.
The more you have, the better it makes you?
I do not agree.
My family, between 3 uncles owning their own businesses, they have all done well for themselves.
I have hardly seen a dime.
But the you can't take money to your grave.
You are now better than me.
You don't speak to me because, I have had 4 kids, and needed some help along the way.
Yea, well I knew better than to seek out help from family.
Rather take eveey dime to the grave.
To serve zero purpose.
Ny family knows not who I am.
My relationship with the otherside.
That I can communicate with Mawmaw.
They just still look down on me.
I am whitetrash.
I smoke marijuana.
I would not trade my life for theirs.
I love the life I have been given.
It's been hard.
I was given this life, I was able to walk in my shoes.
God does not give you more than you can handle.
I live in the hood.
I am from the hood.
And if anyone messes with mine, I can get real ghetto.
From 0 to 100.
I have done what I have had to do,
Some I am not proud of.
I just know I am who I am for reasons unknown.
Mom can't fathom my life or who I have become.
Well, I can't keep being criticized for my life.
I am 41 years old.
It's a real miracle I'm here to write about me, my life.
I need not change me, cuz you don't get it.
You are not sure if I'm nuts mom..?
Maybe if you hadn't been so damn greedy, you would have been shown as I have.
I can't apologize for my gifts from God.
I wasn't given a choice.
I was born this way, for a reason.
And I'm finally understanding myself.
Who I am.
Day by day.
And I'm thankful, to be who I am.