~ I understand myself, I just need time ~
They don't understand how painful it is kmowing that you were an option without your knowledge and you just suddenly left alone without explanations
They don't know how it feels to felt neglected of your own partner
They don't know why until now after a year I still get sensitive talking to him, because they don't know how it feels to forgive someone who never ask for forgiveness instead blamed you where in fact it was his fault or at least explain and let me understand
They don't know why I don't want to talk to him after a year of breaking up, because as I said he never ask for forgiveness nor sorry but was blaming me for the whole situation
They don't believe me that I don't and did not made in contact with him because they think and know I have a feeling. But I did not, I moved on, learn from it, and distance from him. But what did he do? He kept on messaging me, lying and checking my profiles.
They don't know how sensitive I am for my own welfare. Since then I doubted myself, I put too many boundaries and limitations on myself. I compared myself to everyone. It's so negative. I felt not so myself at times.
I felt not enough.
Because of that person.
I did not know how impacted my life is because of that situation. It made me so aware of my sensitivity. To the people I surround myself with. To how I look. To everything.
I know I have this in me, but from time to time I remember that and I can't stop comparing myself to others. And it sucks, tbh. It made me feel down.
But... yes, I know my situation and im trying to be positive. Find something good out of it. And I help myself in all ways.
And I am not letting myself drown to this.
Just, I have this times...
that I felt it all at ones.
If they don't understand me,
I do UNDERSTAND me.