~I look at him, with stars in my eyes
For he's like my galaxy
Prefer him over the sky~
*I look at her, when she looks elsewhere
Sometimes our eyes meet, just for a second there
Must turn away, although she pulls me*
~From day one, I knew
But I know it'll never do
Need to look forward, not back
But its hard, something I lack~
*Round and round we went
From being close to being closer
Then distance and strangers
To being close again*
~I mean, he always pushes me away
So I must stay away, even when i hate it
But I don't want to stay away, I can't
Rare, but sometimes, he would put me close
Until we're at distance again~
*I push her away to only push her close again
I say 'no' but a part of me says 'yes'
I deny and be firm with the 'no'
But in the end, I know the truth
Even then I ignore it, I will never show it*
~To the world, we're just friends
To our friends, we're not that close
But deep inside I know
Deep inside I feel it
And I know he feels it too..
..But it doesn't matter-
So we stay 'Friends'
But I still stare and admire his smile~
*Touching at a minimum
Staring at a minimum
Used to lying and sneaking
So it's easy for me
Even when deep inside of me
I want her, but I can't
And I won't, I will not meet her eyes
I will not send mixed signals
No matter what my body tells me
I hold my facade as if all is ok*
~It's late night and we had small chat
We had deep talks and funny moments
For so long I was waiting for the moment
The words, the truth, the confession
For the 'I love you'
For everything to go back
To how it was again!...~
*I looked at her, knew what she wanted
I don't even know what I wanted anymore
Scratch that-I do! I already moved on
Yea..I need her to move on too
I push away what other me wanted to say
And what I actually said was "goodnight"
It came out bold and thick, short but sweet *
~I nodded my head and turned away
Heading my way, down this road
Alone, I knew it, I really did
He moved on, maybe I should too
In this dark narrow road..~
*I did it. Now I just have to believe it
Distract myself with things
And never think of it
Now she'll go on with her life
and I'll go on with mine*
~If only he knew
I only ever saw myself with him
And nobody else
But I won't tell him..
It'll mess everything up..
Cuz he doesn't feel the same~
*Little did she know I once felt the same
But not anymore!..right?
Hope she lives a happy life
And I'll live mine..
No falling into deep dark holes
I did the right thing, keep optimism
Even if a little voice in me says
'You're an idiot, man'*
~'You idiot!' I scolded myself
From that day on, I knew
Little did he know..
I would never get over him
And I don't want to..~