You don't get that choice!
Just because they left you,
Only because they ditched you,
You don't get the right to ruin the gift of life given to you...
Just because you missed few chances,
Or because you were not there on time,
You don't get the freedom to choose end, over the option of starting all over again...
Just because you have few bad things hitting,
Few difficulties over your head shitting,
You don't get the right to choose not to live it...
There is always a new hope, a new sunshine, a better tomorrow, another way, an alternate choice where you got to chose the life.
You need to work on your better future and forget the horrid past.
You need to learn to live again, not for that person from your past or yourself; for the people who see you dying and die with you each day, for people who have been there even when you were the worst person who they could be with.
You don't have the choice with life saying, either live or end it or put it on hold, you are given this gift by almighty; and you have to live it no matter what, you gotta try to make it better, his decision worthy and your existence a blessing and not curse for people who are related to you and most importantly for yourself!