There was a time when I was younger, I would pretend to be tired just so I could "go to bed" early. But I wouldn't sleep. I would stay up reading, writing on my computer, or drawing. I'd even stay up late to play with my pet rat, back when I had one. And back when I was a 1st place winner in 5Ks (races), I would stay up listening to my iPod and exercise quietly until I was too exhausted to stay awake.
Now I just stay up and watch anime porn, and cry myself to sleep because I hate myself, and who I've become.