Only in delusion
©piscesun
Beautiful, mysticall, unexplainable was what we had.
Broken, trauma, stoned I know I've gone mad
They say move on, life will carry on fine
But will it really. Do they know what has happened with my mind?
Those memories, those promises, them meals
Your hair, your touch, them feels.
Guess none of it mattered in the end.
It just sucks that my heart misses his friend.
#mental
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Just Think About It
Funny you are, who are you to judge me? You don’t know my life, my trials and tribulations. You are no one to me. You really never were. Fuck you and fuck your feelings. Fuck your put downs, and judgmental bullshit. Funny you are you have no idea who I am anymore. In fact you never did. He and I started talking. There was an attraction, so we made a reaction. We are consensual adults. Go smile or at least “act” as if you love him. Make him feel wanted and appreciated, if you can. The fact he strayed is not my fault, but yours. Just think about it.
©somewhat_damaged_bipolar_soul -
devilfish 2w
Slit Throat
A skilled swordsman with 2 eyes to look
And a third eye to see
My tongue is a weapon that I only
Yield in my home where I lay my head to sleep in sheets soaked in sardonic feasts dripping in gluttony, greed, grease, and the heads of my enemy
Wearing necklaces of their teeth
the beasts left in my bed at my feet where they fervently feed endlessly in tormenting agony as their hunger is cursed to never cease and their speech impediment dawn on the wordless pleads with salted fields of rotted crops and infertile seeds
I sensed it easily the breath you tried to ensnare in your now bared teeth
You don't scare me
If my blood is threatened
I Pierce through tension cut into flesh
Into velvet mesh of a melting death
Red rivers swept the current of conflict
Where I stomp on your crown a crooked thorned now contorted crown
Aborted from the wombs that put life into your body as it grew to arouse
I'll grab the umbilical strings and hang you so your feet dangle 3 feet from the ground you won't ever touch until your heart stops to pound
Cancer crab claws pull you into the opposition of my moon while I drag you to your doom and I watch bubbles dance as you drown to never be found an unsung tune
I don't have the weak conviction of your splitting persecutory anxiety it elicited glitches of anger as it twitches seeping through the cracks of your limited vision
Airways closing from the unrelenting constricted pipes not properly fitted
Now riveting from the ripples that are ripping out stitches of your misplaced ego and tearing the friction from your fake caring
You're cowardly clenching your pendant
Don't offer me peace when you were a second ago so charged for this so daring
I hereby declare war
In an instant you won't be in one piece
I won't leave until your existence is no more
You enter my house and you don't close the door
You try to get me off center
A stupid splinter
You won't leave until I satisfy rage at my Capricorn Core
I'll destroy you until I hear your fear rip as your hypocrisy falls with your falsified fear
As the world will hear the earth tremble as your head hits the floor no help to aid you here
Let my Oriental Mars explode in a watery eruption my waves erode your mood contagion a cacophonous Crackle of cutting corruption
That oozes in temperament
An eminent artist and poet
It's evident watch my essence glowing a ruby red floret growing
Luminescent full as the Blood Moon
My wrath a monsoon as it rises now flooding
And suddenly the bud of eloquence blooms into a nightmare of your every fear
You're decadent a fetus at it's detriment
Declination a dilettante beast
I consume you into the fertile soil where you decay away from the realm of all that is prevalent devoid of intelligence
I seethe fumes and strike my desert of pity with a monsoon of fury
©devilfish -
There’s Monsters
My whole life has been filled with greed
My own family has stolen from me
What do you do when everybody fiends
A better life is what I need
Nobody can hear your scream
Even there’s monsters in my dreams
Weed can only get me so far
So I just spam and laugh at memes
I know what I need
But it’s a little far to fetch and claim
I’m so drained
Only a little I have claimed
I’m too much of an angel to go and stain
But too much of a root of an evil, that I still go insane
There’s so much of me that is left unexplained
Half the men I’ve messed with, I don’t remember their name
There’s monsters beneath my bed
They tell me secrets all the time
Paranoid, mostly when I’m high
Can’t afford therapy
Only solution is to die
Just like every other celebrity
All else fails
I know the remedy
The devil, he possibly has me
Crossing off my name
To myself and I
As I lay in my room, cry and cry
Like I even know why
Suicidal yes, but not when I’m dressed up
So...
Constantly always stressed
Shoot me in the head
Explode my brains out
Like Kennedy
Take your shot. Aim. fire.
©wifey_suicide -
Have you ever felt so lonely that all you wanna do is to lock yourself up in a room and cry?
Cry for apparently no reason!
You have a loving family, caring partner, amazing friends, good grades, awards for sports, dance , art and music, different cuisines on your plate, cozy bed, dollars in your account and every luxury possible in life, but still you are not happy. Your heart is heavy and your brain just wants to leave its vault. All you want is to close your eyes, and let the tears roll down your cheek.
All you want is someone to hold you tight and tell you that they are always here for you, but even if they do something deep inside you doesn't wanna believe them.
Have you ever wished that you were in a boat, in middle of a rough sea where you could drown in your sorrows, where the sea could swallow you with his waves? Have you ever wished that you could put an end to your misery, the misery which resides in you and is not visible to the external world?
Have you? Or is it just me? -
SOUL DOES NOT EXIST
A divorce why? Is it a physical assault.?No.Is he cheating on you?No.Is he an alcoholic or drug addict?No .Can't he fulfill your expenses?No he can .Than you can't divorce him the society won't let you. Even you can't even apply in the court without these causes. Don't you know the marriage is just between two bodies which can be seen. When the problem can't be even seen than will you get a divorce. And about your soul?Even science can't define what soul is?Or where is it actually?Then how will you get a divorce for a thing like that which you can't prove that it actually exists. A non existing part of your body can't be hurt. Then at what basis you'll get a divorce?
©ibtidatahsinibnat -
Depression
Esa nhi h ki pehle kbhi na hua tha....
Pr lockdown m kuch jyada der hi chl gya
Bchpn ki kuch yaden aine(mirror) si bn gyi thi...
©ambika_s -
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/I AIN'T HAVE A TRIGGER FINGER BUT HAVE GOT A TRIGGERED HAND/
"21 Savage
With my hand i shoot my shot, with my hand bleeds the ink and with my hand the blood flows so I paint the city RED. A crisis of the mind from a tormented heart to the flows of a bleeding pen.
"YODO"
©pj_animation -
One day
One day,
When ashes are swayed by the swift wind beneath my feet,
My spirit will be set free.
All that will stand in my good faith were the words I've written in ink.
The weeping sorrow will be swept under the foundation of healing.
As grief always strikes the lonely hearts,
You will be resilient with the life you have come here for.
They cycle seems to be to destroy, decompose, and to rebuild once again.
But all that matters in between is the presence of your breath.
I know that the thoughts can trickle down your spine in such a destructive manner.
To the all of us, calm will find it's way into the shaken hands and crevices of our brokenness.
One day.
©bipolarpoet -
Mental Health- Something We Need To Talk About
Introduction
So this is all about mental health, that is more often ignored by the very people around. I know it’s quite disturbing for you to understand about Mental Health, but the worst part is it’s even more rebellious to the one going through it, and the easy yet difficult part of it is you can’t talk about it until you face it. Mental Health has become such a superstitious issue that people often ignore it even while knowing that there are people around them going through some serious mental conditions. Mental issues can be any of it like bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, borderline personality disorder and other psychoses, dementia, and developmental disorders including autism but most people suffer from anxiety, trauma, and depression. Around 13% of the world population sufferers with some sort of mental illness and it’s increasing day by day. It is no hidden that we can talk about sex, race, community, mandir, masjid, Desh ki economy but we fail to talk about our mental health and we fail to ask about mental health. In this world we can Instagram our travel stories, can tweet about nepotism, trend whether Lata Mangeshkar Ji is overrated or not, but again not a single trend I found on Mental Health. Is it so unproblematic? Or are we so less bothered about the wellbeing of the people around us?
©shivanigandhi -
Wicked
1. Distant stays crookedly straight it's all the same when
2. Wicked ways cuz wicked pays just enough to make the wicked stay
3. the addicts are stayin slaves cuz that's addictions way
4. Im Addicted in the addic gettin manic when i cant have it lettin in frantic so i panic causn havick
5.livin tragic due to manic tendencies causin static instantly between me and the plastic fake fanatics
6. And I'm back at it night and day At night they come out to play but the good should run away
7. Cuz I must say
8. danger goes higher
9. And it never gets tired
10. it wont ever retire
11. the only light out tonight in sight
12. is gonna be fire
13. from bic lighters
14. In the hands of abusers and liars
15. Beasts and freaks, thieves and tweeks, monsters prey on the weak
16. As they sleep counting sheep they should be safe
17. But locked doors dont keep the evil away
18. Even when it's late with all that lurks around this place.
Good ones become lost without a trace
1. Making so many lose faith
2. In the human race
3. Myself included cuz I've stood black hooded at night
4. with the outcasted in sight
5. Watched nd learned I watched them burn
6. I Witnessed them turn on one another with no concern
7. The innocents get ditches the snitches gain riches
8. The thugs just run while the real ones end up in prison
No it's not the only way it goes it's just more often than most know
1. Sell outs get sold out like the damned sell their soul
I've lived with wicked surrounding myself in my own hell as I battled addiction
Within and gettin internally twisted
Watching people cooking dope in their kitchen
We never heard about this struggle in schools lessons I must of missed that section
Never did we think this was the future we wished for cuz that went missin for shore and we were wishin for riches and picket fences and all we got were dreams that eventually managed to vanished
And feelings of being useless, helpless, and damaged
I cant stand it
We never planned for it yet they're lookin at me like ya we told you so
Hell no not one single person helped me be ready for this shit and so fast it got too heavy
What happened to the classics and being professional
1. If these nightcrawlers were catholic the priest would never leave the confessional
2. Its becoming pathetic on how they've become so predictable
3. Let me vent in my lyrics on this instrumental
4. Or I might go psycho lose control and bo might go have a psychotic break on my mental
5. I dont know but why question the inevitable
6. A verbal fight with beau is damaging like a fist fight with kimbo
7. Its keepin me from becoming a tragic story like so many others known as abnormal
8. I gotta get this out before my brain has a blow out
9. I'm feelin crazy baby why cant I keep my feet to the ground in front of me
10. I think it's just me maybe but it feels like it surrounds my brain like rabies
11. The beat vibrates the ground I'm feeling more calm now but I'm being looked at like I'm lazy
12. I just hope this isnt calm before the storm as I fly in like a kamikaze
13. Why is my mental so torn bring me back to my human form but lately I cant stand me I might even hate me
Words with purpose/ can be of service/ when some wanna hurt us/ its torturous on how they tortured us behind closed doors with curtains down the blinds up to hide the bruises and cuts/ and scrapes/ some beat some burn some rape/ and I know all three so I'm known to hate/ they took from me a chunk of humanity/ and gave back some insanity/ but I wont let it be the end of me/I know my enemy/ because I know those who take /are bound to their fate/ where mine is the path I make
1. What do I got to do to get it
2. through to you that I'm through with who I used to be and who used to use me so its kudos if you know you got away with it before but no more as I move on wit my life I slam that door
3. And nail it shut with boards across it so it never opens back up
4. I just wanna make this day right
5. wanna get this stage time
Wanna make this stage mine
1. wanna take a stage dive
2. I just wanna make this beat fly
And get paid on time for writing lines to say some rhymes
1. I hope you know I'm Writing lines for the working minds
I wake up
to an instrumental just to beat it up/let's shake things up cuz I'm lyrically in combat/got ahold of your brain by its testacles so now im fuckin shit up with a verbal massacre/ im a word murderer alphabet cereal killer deadly as you can be from A to Z hit you lyrically but its gonna be felt physically a wide spread attack like I had twin uzis I handle my shit like a Porsche or a Ferrari fuck around and get burnt my words bringing heat like a torch you must be feelin chilly?
Why else challenge an O.G.
©beaubearic -
Rise, as you do.
Have you ever felt a hand turn ice cold when our bodies should be radiating warmth?
When you've weeped alone have you felt the sensation in your heart that someone has tossed it into the middle of the deepest sea?
When you're hanging onto the pants leg of the last bit of love you can find, were stretching yourself so thin someone broke you into?
Have you looked into the eyes of a leader and see the shimmering light in their eyes fade their perspective of you?
Has someone washed away your fountain of youth in the name of something other than glorious, pure and innocent?
What you do not see though, is something much more special than all of these things. The light inside of you, your energy, your courageous moments you've moved in darkness when you know you should've had someone there, the way you've swam into the depths to collect your heart from what has faded into the sand below. You will rise, as you do.
©Caitlin Davies -
Life. Karma. You.
That’s a threesome that does not provide a climax
©undefined_visionary69 -
Have you ever felt happy and Sad at the same time
Have you ever cried with no reason
Felt like you are paralysed
Being alone become so comforting and discomforting for you at the same time
You are happy at the moment and the very next moment you become sad...
Speak out to your Parents
Speak out to your loved ones what you feel
Crying alone is not the solution
Feeling sad for no reason kills you from inside
Share your feelings
Ask for help ... -
Mental immunity
loving yourself is that immunity which never ever let's you feel hurt or negetive about anything or anyone whom you are emotionally attached with
it will fight with all the negativity
© Anmol -
medusas_child 11w
@medusas_child #creativearena #mirakee #writingcontest @writersnetwork @#mirakeeworld #mental illness #silence the stigma
Barefoot in the Rain
Can you see the stigma in my face.
The warts and blisters on my feet.
Do you know how I got in this place?
I've lived and done it all and I'm only thirteen.
I am a news headline,
I am one third in a growing epidemic.
Now you know why the walls cry.
Branded with imprints of my battered fists.
Now you know why my loved ones hide.
I am a child in crisis,
I reject the help that's given to me.
I hurt myself because you see something ugly.
If I don't tell, you won't have to listen.
Verbal threats, I just can't stop it.
Medication is only a temporary fix.
I'll run away cause a scene and get into some criminal mischief.
I am a challenge by default.
Just because my name is in the system.
Doesn't mean it's my fault.
I walk as if I'm lost.
I'm stuck, my life on pause.
Society judging my damaged outlook.
I am not just misunderstood,
I go where the rain takes me.
I laugh because deep down it's all a fantasy.
Barefoot I am,
HELP!
I lost my shoes in a world called reality. -
veerakanellore_bhavana 11w
Only when one is physically and mentally strong. Only when one follows good habits in life like drinking water regularly, doing exercises for physical strength and meditation for mental strength, having proper food in time, being good with people and many more. And all these factors helps you to be happy every single day.
Everyone will have their own curriculum. For me, before lockdown having proper food, drinking water and going for walk was some kind of exercise. All these helped me and even now it's helping me to be physically strong. But what about being mentally strong? Might be we managed somehow before lockdown but during this pandemic mostly everyone were left mentally disturbed for a while. And the only solution I knew for mental strength was doing meditation and I added it to my curriculum. Daily morning a few minutes walk in our garden. And during work if any stress then for few minutes meditation. If no stress during a day then at time of sunset a few minutes of meditation, so that I never miss the flow. And this made me mentally strong. And all these helped me to be healthy.
Healthy life is the greatest blessing. Never take it for grant. Only good health can make you do any work and let's you earn money, and brings you happiness.
©veerakanellore_bhavana
#health #wealth #blessing #physical #mental #strong #water #exercise #meditation #pandemic #disturbance #love #life #thoughts #diary"Health is wealth". But when is it possible?
©veerakanellore_bhavana -
Wasn't she happy..?
She wished she could just let go
Death wasn't scary anymore
Maybe it was bad
But the symbol meant peace
And a calm silence to all the noise around her
It's left to her
But she doesn't know what to do
She barely opens her mouth
And she hates speaking to you
It's been to confusing
The stress of it all
So she built up this wall
About 10 feet tall
To ignore the hate
That made her feel small
Everyone was smiling
But why was she crying?
Everyone was fine
But why was she fading inside?
How is it fair?
How is it really right?
For one that suffered
Left lacking so long
She covered her eyes at night
Not wanting to wake up
"Another day" was all it was called
Another hour of desperation
And another without the right feelings
And emotions.
No one understood why it went down
The day she passed away
But they cried out of lost
Her tears of lost on
Every pillow she's laid
Why is it so twisted?
You want her back
But never made it comfortable for her stay
But when she passed she had the softest bed
No tears
And a look of empty bliss
Thus....wasn't she happy?
©skiraxxx -
sandy_nk 12w
Then Suddenly, the whole world cared
But it was too late
©sandy_nk