Mirakee
Anxiety, were not friends
Anxiety, were not friends.
The day you came to me, that day you were filled with fear. The lost of trust that came with it too. With my heart opened wide, darling please come here.
I'll comfort you until you get back on your feet.
That day I messed up. Cuz now you're like an everlasting period that just floods my brain with emotions and torment. And all I did was open my arms for you, so you can take my hand. Just so you can see better days.
But with you, why do they seem so far away?
Is there an actual cure or I'm I stuck in this rampage?
I'm hurting to, because every time I go on into a conversation, it feels like I'm on a stage and the words I spill out slowly fade... Into mumbles and decay into the dreams of jokes that could've had people even choke. But now the conversation is dead, and nobody is woke.
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I want us to have hope anxiety, but all you say is
"No."
And go to seep till the next day. Sometimes you wake up in the middle of the night, cutting off dreams that will never come back. Twisting up into,
"no wait! I wasn’t finished with that."
Like a movie, I wanted to see how it ends. But it isn't the human who wins.
Christians call it a demon, doctors call it a illness
But either way you're stuck on pills to dig it away, like an abortion
"Just go away!"
As it digs it's claws in your brain, screaming
"no! It won't be the same!"
Cuz you're so use to this feeling of fear and over thinking, and as the fight goes back and forth, depression gets in the way
3 / 5
Just then anxiety looks like the good guy, but it lies
Hidden behind the cries, heart beating fast
Yet you're not ready to die, laying down in a ocean filled emotion as anxiety is filling up it's skin with lotion, smooth and soft.
So comforting.
That temporary feeling that makes me think
Why was I even mad?
Why was I even sad?
With those stupid words that just slide out
"Here anxiety, I'm sorry."
Until the next time, you're like my best friend.
©wifey_suicide
#mental
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Tired
I am strong
But I am tired
I love always
But feel lonely
I see greatness
Met with failure
I stay present
But feel ignored
Set future plans
That stay forgotten
So I ask you
When can I stop? -
Sky
We share the sky,
Her and I.
I, the pale blue peak of sunrise,
Blending with the fading black,
Just as dawn begins to break over the horizon.
She,
The vivid mix of vibrant yellow,
Entangled with soft orange and fierce pinks.
Splashing the canvas sky,
Reaching as far,
As the colors will let her.
I rise
She sets
Together
The sky is our
Masterpiece
©writeendlessly -
jcksttn
1w
A divine spark
A mischievous glow
An intelligence mesmerising and natural
And a wit, quick and cheerful.
A chemistry only a few find.
A feeling of comfort
Mixed with excitement.
I was blind back then.
Tormented by illness and past experience
Oblivious to what was before of me.
As the passage of time
Ticks madly on
A distance grew from my own doing.
And rightly so, the chemistry decayed.
Leaving a remanence of something
That felt strong and unswayed. -
I throw the stone towards
your fragile glass house
Never realizing
The chips and cracks,
That already existed
I watch as the light you let in
Dances through the spiderweb scars.
I throw stones at your glass house
When I should be there
Helping fix the pain.
©writeendlessly -
jcksttn
1w
Life is filled with defining moments.
With experiences that provide the vital components.
These can change the direction
Of this journey in an instant.
Moments that can lead to regret,
Or times that you can look back on and be thankful.
I often visit the past when I’m unsure of my future.
To try and uncover the mysteries of my mixture.
I return to one of those defining moments.
As I often get the feeling,
I’ve missed my vital component. -
You Can't Judge Crazy Until You've Been There
You can call me a tit all you like,
Probably couldn't best me in a fight.
Not just a physical but also the verbal,
I love the fact that I am a little bit mental.
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Yes a bit mental but very gentle,
Push me too far you best be careful.
I am slightly off center so be wary,
I'll flip from gentle to being quite scary.
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Mental is good as you see things differently,
I would rather be free then locked in your misery.
Your opinion of me you are entitled to,
But keep it to your self as you have no clue.
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I can act dumb and a little sad,
But if you think of it that's no so bad.
You can not judge what you do not know,
I may be crazy but I enjoy the show.
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I dance like a fool without a care about you,
I may trip over myself after drinking a few.
If you don't like it then walk away,
If you do then come join in with the play.
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You see I don't care what you think of me,
I am who I am so let me be.
You can't stop this boy or maybe man,
Because I am succeeding in my own ridiculous master plan.
N -
Baat pahuchti nahi ,
Gum kam hote nahi ,
Khushiya aati nahi ,
Sapne pure hote nahi ,
Dil kisika humdard banta nahi ,
Aage barne ki himmat aati nahi .
-Divya Soni
©expressed_emotions -
yanrotem
2w
Missing Times
Running past our death-time baby,
Ooh, missed on a special night!
Think our score now must be 2020,
Aged 21 and endless fights.
Keep you in a bottle, like it,
better than the alcohol.
I'll get high when old and precious,
And also will claim back our souls.
Wearing sixteens, eights and twenties-
Pictures you drew for our devil.
Thought he'd leave me by these days,
knowing I failed the last level.
Nicest of friends, one and only,
Couldn't save me, ooh the past year.
Or the ones that came before it.
Check out date and mission- for I'm here.
Couldn't save you, couldn't save me,
Couldn't save us, ooh in the past.
Couldn't save us, "help me baby"
Couldn't you say these words at last?
Way too dangerous, had our fun time,
Think it went for six years straight-
A coincidence that takes a lifetime,
He visited us just since we met.
Tried to tell him, "don't come over"
The way we kicked out toxic friends
"Man it's just been too long for us".
His face his face his face his face.
Let him know I'm real-mad-made now,
Quiet so you can protest.
You can ask him what he risked,
Putting me as one of his two safe bets.
Ooh the past year, past year had me-
Calling you from hospitals crying,
You said "I can't hear you like that,
I can't hear you, just quit dying".
I don't feel so bad on these days,
On these days I don't feel so good,
Doctor's saying I'm alive,
But half of me- misunderstood.
Missed you on our special night,
Ran to you like every year-
Catch my breath, shit can't I hear you?
Catched it? Laugh! Don't disappear!
Nicest of friends, one and only,
Late to save you, oh, my dear.
Can't! I just can't miss you baby,
Don't tell me you checked out of here.
Couldn't save you,
couldn't save us,
Couldn't save you,
ooh in the past.
Couldn't save me,
couldn't save us.
Half of me is mis- it's missing.
The other one, whatever, lasts.
©yanrotem -
asavagewarrior_27
2w
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The only disease
To convince you that you do not have one
A reprise
we've all heard before
That you can have a taste and simply be done
Until it becomes more, more, more
Leaving you demoralized
In a state of confusion
Paralyzed
By the illusion
That you're safe and focused on stability
But in reality
You're a walking ghost full unpredictability
Whose morality, mentality, and spirituality
Are severely affected and in danger
This illness is starting to derange their
Ability just to survive
To strive, thrive
Fuck, even just to stay alive
©asavagewarrior_27 -
asavagewarrior_27
2w
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LEGENDS
I want to be legendary
Something revolutionary
But I am quite arbitrary
To acting on impulse involuntary
And it's necessary
For my death to not be preliminary
To end up in a cemetery
And you not having to bury me
Is this possible?...
©asavagewarrior_27 -
asavagewarrior_27
2w
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PROBLEMS
Customary
to think that
I was clearly the master
The definition of an doctor
Quite the apothecary
But rarely did I seem a problem
If there was not any issues
Then I did not have to solve 'em
©asavagewarrior_27 -
Montage
I battle daily with self sabotage
Envisioning happiness and success
Is my recovery a mere montage?
Attempting to convalesce
©asavagewarrior_27 -
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