Mirakee
This Feeling
This feeling of anger
This feeling of fear
This feeling of anxiety
This feeling of despair
This feeling of loneliness
This feeling of pain
This feeling of numbness
This feeling of shame
This feeling of emptiness
This feeling of frustration
This feeling of hopelessness
This feeling of desperation
©rogue77
#mentalillness
2321 posts-
rogue77
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Join Me
Here’s to another day.
The day of Hell.
When does it end?
Is it a test?
I can’t sit still
I need my medication
Need to stay still
Not sure how to
How is the question?
Ritalin where are you?
I so need you
Tried to banish you
I just can’t, now
Need you so much
I was so wrong.
Here’s to another day,
The day of Hell.
Glad you joined me.
©somewhat_damaged_bipolar_soul18 3 5
- lovenotes_from_carolyn A heartfelt and well conveyed expression of angst!
- somewhat_damaged_bipolar_soul Thank you @lovenotes_from_carolyn
- lovenotes_from_carolyn More than welcome.
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Just Think About It
Funny you are, who are you to judge me? You don’t know my life, my trials and tribulations. You are no one to me. You really never were. Fuck you and fuck your feelings. Fuck your put downs, and judgmental bullshit. Funny you are you have no idea who I am anymore. In fact you never did. He and I started talking. There was an attraction, so we made a reaction. We are consensual adults. Go smile or at least “act” as if you love him. Make him feel wanted and appreciated, if you can. The fact he strayed is not my fault, but yours. Just think about it.
©somewhat_damaged_bipolar_soul -
in_fragments
1w
Read More"Meet me out in our childhood ruins.
We can excavate the home we grew up in;
kick up energy, history, dust and old spirits,
the secrets under our stunted skin-
we'll seek them and learn to live again,
we'll retrieve all we've forgotten-
memories resting in washed up coffins
start convulsing within their margins,
their roaring, unreachable engines
starting up after years in the dark;
they startle you and shake your heart,
but you must not let it freeze over again,
you must not let the amnesia win.
I promise you, my dear, if you follow me,
closer to yourself than you ever could be-
you will find what you so desperately seek,
if you're brave enough to let it in;
your weary brain can finally begin
releasing all the horror it's seen.
Are you prepared to fight for your life?
Ready to remember what you lost?"
©in_fragments
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What if it's just never coming back?
#pod #poem #trauma #mentalhealth #mentalillness #recovery #therapy #memories @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersbayMeet Me in the Ruins
Ready to remember what you lost?
©in_fragments17 3 5
- lovenotes_from_carolyn Very well crafted!
- in_fragments @lovenotes_from_carolyn Thank you! I'm so glad you liked it
- lovenotes_from_carolyn Very welcome.
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samueldillon92
2w
Read MoreI love this platform and how cathartic it can be.
#mylife #miraquill #mentalillness #itsbeenawhile #readwriteunite #writersnetwork #mirakeeIt's been a while
It's been a while since I put feeling to paper and it's been a while since I believed in a saviour.
It's been a while since i felt like I could put that feeling into words, the feeling where you catch your breath when everything you forgot comes flooding back. Feeling closed in, feeling like hopelessness is the only way and feeling like that is how it will be.
It will be a while until I forget these feelings again.
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He broke my heart
Tore me apart
I cant explain
How much i'm in pain
Thought he loved me so
Guess he didnt if i was that easy to let go
As much as i want to regret
Its proven difficult to forget
The memories torture me every day
I wish i could just run away
I wish i didnt miss him at all
I wish i could get back up after i fall
But i'm constantly exhausted now
Lost him but also lost myself somehow.
©amyjoylouise96x -
in_fragments
2w
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"Oh!- there she goes again,
my sucidal sister slipping in,
head launching calamity like a nuclear bomb,
quietus beckons me within her rings of flame-
she shows me with such burning excitement
all the ugly ways a body can die,
she injects me with ideations and fantasy,
watching my own life leave my eyes
and come back, blurry and dazed,
a thousand times a day.
She lingers here, she lives in me,
spills such unbearable fever into my mind.
She thinks its unfair, all we have to share;
her hands are my hands, her heart my heart;
we can never start again, we can never part,
we cannot exist without each other.
She sends me her thoughts of lovely, comforting death, and I know
that whether we each like it or not,
we are fated, cursed or blessed,
to die together-
until then, she pours out her daydreams
all aflame. Oh! my suicidal sister,
the one who operates in so much pain
and holds onto all the agony I've forgotten-
I cannot stop you, and do not want to-
sister, all your thoughts are welcome here,
without rash judgements, past layers of fear.
We are a part of each other,
and I accept you,
even if you are not ready
to accept this life we're forced to lead.
Oh Goldaline, my shadowy siamese,
my long-lost conjoined twin, begging please
for permission to leave;
Dearest Goldaline, don't you die on me.
Don't you kill us now. Not yet."
©in_fragments
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Talking myself down again... Loosely inspired by the song Oh Sister by Neutral Milk Hotel.
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"Oh sister, don't be afraid of me
I won't be nailing you down in the nursery
Just like the rest of them did..."
#pod #poem #mirakee #mentalillness #ptsd #depression #art #therapy #suicide #life @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersbaySister Suicide
there she goes again,
my sucidal sister slipping in...
Dearest Goldaline, don't you die on me.
Don't you kill us now. Not yet.
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#randomthought
The life of people with mental illnesses is complicated. If they tell about it to others, some people will feel that they want to gain sympathy and if they will hurt themselves, people will call them weak.
©dreamerdiva -
Lines
Little lines
Small thin lines
I draw them
from time to time
The lines do
not define me
They do not
define us
©tiny_one -
Devil Confiscated My Soul
Started out peace ,, freedom free
Happy that I once was
No more did it come out to see
Smiles lost brightness in the eyes gone
Travelled some enjoyed sights
Felt experiences and sorrows
Crack would continue as life
Continues
Awoken heart complete
And intact from pain not known yet
Sheltered she wasn't protection
Not around
Life's guarantee didn't continues planned
Scarred from shock and pain
That forever will remain
Person tragedy came in waves
Drowning and downward spiral
One after one
Crack becoming bigger ready to fall
Happiness was thought come along the way
Ended and one crack blew out a wall
Made to split importance suffering in full
Strong or weak will not fall
Picking pieces of a cracked side
And filling
Whether a speck or a chunk
Not faulter and failure will take
What is trying to rebuild a soul
Demons downward seeping never return
Hold the reigns and stop the action
Haulting in there steps overlapped
By the powerful steps
One-day victory will
Come.
Managing the calmness and peace again..
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drifting_soul
6w
Read More#poetry #thoughts #diary #deppresion #suicide #binge #eatingdisorder #poem #deepquotes #poemsofinstagram #deepquotes #poetrycommunity #deep #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anxiety #writersofinstagram #poems #writerscommunity #poetryworld #poetryaccount #poetrylovers #poetryporn #poetry #poem #writing #sad #love #romance #little_miss_deadly #teenage_poet #lost_in_the_empty
Thin ice
I'm standing on thin ice
And I can see it start to crack beneath me
I'm yelling for someone to help me
But they keep saying I'll be alright
I'll make it out alive
Slowly I hear it give in peace by peace
But my feet are stuck in place
And my entire family is looking me in the face
No one willing to help me make it out alive
Maybe there right maybe it's best if I give up
Let the world win
Let my life come to an end
©drifting_soul5 2
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drifting_soul
6w
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#poetry #thoughts #diary #deppresion #suicide #binge #eatingdisorder #poem #deepquotes #poemsofinstagram #deepquotes #poetrycommunity #deep #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anxiety #writersofinstagram #poems #writerscommunity #poetryworld #poetryaccount #poetrylovers #poetryporn #poetry #poem #writing #sad #love #romance #little_miss_deadly #teenage_poet #lost_in_the_empty
On your knees
Scars cover my body
My mom says there ugly
My best friend says they only add to my beauty
My mom says to just get over my anxiety
While my best friend sits right beside me
Helping me through this messy life
Why is it my best friend can support me
More than the women who gave birth to me
He is the one who tells me I don't mean nothing
He is the who convinced me someone would miss me when I felt like I would be better off gone
He is the one who was there when I needed you
So don't tell me you know what's best for me
Cause if you did then you would be on your knees thanking him for being the reason I'm making it out of this shit hole we call life alive
©drifting_soul -
drifting_soul
6w
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Dad I wish you cared
Why are they all that matters to you
When I'm trying to talk to you
You never seem to listen
But you bring them up constantly
There all that's on your mind
They run your damn life
Tell you I'm tired and sad
For no damn reason
You see I'm barley eating
Have no motivation in life
Vent to you just like you say to
Go to you when I wanna end my life
All I can think about is cutting my wrists
About how I am nothing but
Worthless
Pointless
Useless
Alone
No one wants you
Clearly not even your own dad actually
Cares enough to listen to you -
stevenseidel
6w
Read MoreThese memories seem to cycle day by day, never to go away
#trauma #substanceabuse #selfhate #guilt #mentalillnessDream of a life more mild
Mother and kin
Hope's in a bin
Are suicide pacts all that been?
Can't we just turn down the dial?
The children are all riled
Maybe just for a little while?
To dream of a life more mild
It's all about to spiral
So it comes in 1, 2, 3, 4
But I'm looking for more
Shaking to the core
These thoughts I can't ignore
Loathing in disguise to lure
To set myself up again just like before
This must be the cure
Or nevermore
It's not just my skin I tore
Head's breaking
Vices taking and taking
Am I just faking?
What am I supposed to be making?
Absent every moment, never waking
It's what from who I'm found taking
A mirrors' reflection, not myself
Someone else
It seems I've been left up on a shelf
Who is this vile self?
Pretty colors are supposed to be comforting?
But this part's suffering
It's this nothing that needs to mean something
Head hurting, too loud, maybe I'll curl to sleep
Into a place quiet and deep
Surely this I'll reap
For the guilt tends to creep
Never to leave for a wink or a weep
It's a plea for an eternal goodbye slumber, kind and neat
©stevenseidel -
LOST IDENTITY
I do not recognize myself in my very own skin,
What I see within the surface floats overhead me.
Finding resolutions seems to be a loss of identity.
Running the paths in my veins are not things so satisfying.
Like a lock dangling above the water I can't find security.
If a reflection in a mirror could tell the truth about who you really are as a whole,
Why does it not reveal the parts of me that disease my soul?
©bipolarpoet8 1
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drifting_soul
7w
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Word Prompt:
#poetry #thoughts #diary #deppresion #suicide #binge #eatingdisorder #poem #deepquotes #poemsofinstagram #deepquotes #poetrycommunity #deep #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anxiety #writersofinstagram #poems #writerscommunity #poetryworld #poetryaccount #poetrylovers #poetryporn #poetry #poem #writing #sad #love #romance #little_miss_deadly #teenage_poet #drifting_soul
Write a 8 word one-liner on EvokeMay I surrender
Most days my brain becomes the enemy all my thoughts and any amount of reason or sanity in my head has slipped like the wind no where to be seen again the demons are staring to get to much to cope wit staring to meet to use self mediation as the only way of survival
You leave me hear lonley
No one to fight with me
Constantly lonely
Never worthy
Never enough
And on top of it all
No matter what I say you don't help me
No I'm not okay but yet here I am fighting
With no one else by my side
I can't trust my own brain
But I can trust you to help me Even less
You see I'm at war with my head and I'm
Getting tired of fighting the enemies
And no matter how much I beg you can't seem to find the time to care enough to help me
©drifting_soul -
rogue77
7w
Losing it
Out of chaos
Out of dissent
Out of confusion
Out of pretence
Out of avoidance
Out of indignation
Out of destruction
Out of retaliation
Out of disorder
Out of delaying
Out of delusion
Out of portraying
©rogue77 -
drifting_soul
7w
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#poetry #thoughts #diary #deppresion #suicide #binge #eatingdisorder #poem #deepquotes #poemsofinstagram #deepquotes #poetrycommunity #deep #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anxiety #writersofinstagram #poems #writerscommunity #poetryworld #poetryaccount #poetrylovers #poetryporn #poetry #poem #writing #sad #love #romance #little_miss_deadly #teenage_poet #lost_in_the_empty
Did we mean anything
All I can think about is you and me
And the crazy feeling you leave me
When our eyes lock your all I see
Your all I need
All I ever want by my side
But you can't get your mind of what you could have instead of realizing what you might lose
Don't you see I could be your everything
Or could be us agents the world
So what do those other people have over me
Do they love you better than me
Treat you better than me
Hold you longer
Tell me
What do they have
that you are losing
Sight in me
©drifting_soul15 8 2
- reneewolfcrowdenunez You wanna hear something funny? Lmbo @drifting_soul i deleted my last question/ comment because it was ALLL messed can www a.9gs
- reneewolfcrowdenunez Like this one, shoot I keep falling asleep (that's what makes it funny) and my fingers started the message and my face finished the rest teeheehee sorry bout that my friend but i cant help what my nose types...its got a mind of its own @drifting_soul
- drifting_soul @reneewolfcrowdenunez aww lol its okay it just wanted to say hi to the world
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