#numb

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  • _eleutheromaniac_ 1h

    In our life we get to meet a lot of temporary people. Some just come and go away without leaving anything behind, while some, when they leave take away a part of our soul with them. An irreplaceable part of us taken forever. And we change. Sometimes for good, sometimes for bad. But we're no more the same. Sometimes it's our innocence that goes missing, sometimes our pride, sometimes our will, and often its ourselves that we lose. And then it's not just the person who left that we miss, we miss ourselves too. Our old self. We are reminded of ourselves, the one we used to be, in every nook and corner of our lives. Be it a place, a person, a situation. Sometimes we yearn ourselves more than the person we lost. We can cope with people leaving, but how to cope with my own self abandoning me forever? We get bitter. We get cold. We get mad. We get happy. We become selfish. We become so many things. But never the one we used to be. Sometimes it is better to not be what we used to be. But sometimes losing yourself can be really hard. It can snatch away everything from you. Not just your happiness, not just your will, sometimes your reason to live too. And then you become just a passer-by in your own life. As if you're doing nothing but looking at everything that’s happening. And you're left not even hopeless, because you don't feel anymore. It's nothing else but numbness. You're everything, yet you're nothing.

    - ©_eleutheromaniac_

    #writersnetwork #mirakee #numb #life

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    You're everything, yet you're nothing.

    ©_eleutheromaniac_

  • pallavi4 4h

    Numb

    I feel numb
    Indifferent and detached —
    Quietened and suppressed.
    A feeling of
    Casual aloofness wafts over me.
    I feel numb
    Lethargic and disinterested —
    Paralysed and dazed .
    A feeling of
    Extreme callousness engulfs me.
    I feel numb
    Listless and remote —
    Dazed and unconcerned.
    A feeling of
    Frozen incuriosity reigns
    Over me now.

    @pallavi4

    18th of February, 2020

    Pic credit: Pinterest

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    Numb

    I feel numb
    Indifferent and detached —
    Quietened and suppressed.
    A feeling of
    Casual aloofness wafts over me.
    I feel numb
    Lethargic and disinterested —
    Paralysed and dazed .
    A feeling of
    Extreme callousness engulfs me.
    I feel numb
    Listless and remote —
    Dazed and unconcerned.
    A feeling of
    Frozen incuriosity reigns
    Over me now.

  • obscuredwords 1d

    Numb, the feeling of everything because you feel nothing.

    #ceesreposts #feeling #numb @writerstoli @writersnetwork #tod_wt

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    Numb

    That’s the word
    For feeling too much
    Too happy
    Too sad
    All at once
    Just numb.

    ©obscuredwords

  • ratikaarora 1d

    And it hurts when you don't look at me
    While I am getting hurt.. by you
    ©ratikaarora

  • sober_diaries 2d

    Wish you could hear everything what's in my mind, then you'll see how broken I am.
    ©sober_diaries

  • 845doe 3d

    Did I just lock it all away?
    Did I just lead myself astray?
    Am I numbing myself into nothing?
    Is this just another cuffing?
    I can't seem to access
    The feelings I had in excess
    I want to feel them in their true form
    So why are they passing in a fading storm?
    I need to bring them up and about
    And I search for them like scout
    Scavenging my mind
    For any sort of sign
    But all I can find is an anxious self
    And I thought I had found wealth
    I thought I had found love
    But now that I look up above
    There's still so much to be done
    There's still much to overcome
    I guess I'll go over it again
    To see if I can see through the stain

    ©845doe

  • sblaze 4d

    DYING

    In the shades of autumn trees,
    I kept walking,
    Giving myself sympathy,
    Leaving every feeling behind,
    The Air kept healing my wounds,
    As I walked far,
    I felt my body disappearing,
    I was gone along with with my regrets,
    The time period I broke down,
    I became numb,
    Screaming for internal sympathy,
    Slowly the wind started flowing,
    It made me disappear,
    Like I never existed,
    ©sblaze

  • ylviia 4d

    Mask

    When life's trying to tear you apart
    What do you do?
    I feel like crying but no tear left my eyes
    No river streaming down my face
    My feelings are long broken up from my soul
    It's all just a blure
    I feel that I am in no good place
    But I am way too weak to fight it
    So I just gave in
    In this numbness
    And I have to admit it feels good
    Like a solid cell all for myself
    Where noone can hurt me
    But it's unhealthy and I know it
    But running away was always the best
    I could do
    So I am running and running
    So far how my feet can carry me
    Maybe to a place where it's okay to cry
    Okay to feel
    Okay to be myself
    And not wearing that mask that we all have
    Not putting a smile on that isn't sincere
    Not standing straight when all I wanna do is fall asleep forever
    I just wanna escape hard bitter reality
    Escape to a place that's beautiful and lovely
    A place I feel secure and loved
    That's my utopia
    My place I wanna hide
    To build up my strength in order to face reality
    Brave enough to come back to reality
    And feel all the emotions I have been missing out
    But until then I am gonna stay in this state...
    ©ylviia

  • alostnomad 1w

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  • passerby_ 1w

    I don't even hate them anymore.
    I've run out of despise,
    their poison left my tongue feeling numb,
    I can't taste my happiness.

    I don't speak out much either these days,
    I've already ran out of words,
    their daggers left my skin punctuated,
    blood draining out,
    I'm now pale white as snow.

    If they tell me one more time
    what I can and cannot do,
    I'm going to laugh out so loud,
    make them think I'm crazy,
    until they see me do what I want to
    and storm out of their face
    like a fucking hurricane!

    ©passerby_

  • grotesque 1w

    I wish I started hating myself
    Earlier in life. Now unfortunately
    The hate has a hatred towards me!

    ©grotesque

  • grotesque 2w

    A dark silent room fell in the trap of love.

    ©grotesque

  • tangled_in_her_thoughts 2w

    I lay down numb again, feeling the emptiness in my body again, staring the ceiling with tears unknowingly rolling down my cheeks, I feel numb. Taking deep breaths, I could hear my thoughts getting tired of falling apart. How unworthy I feel at this point of time none understands, I only know. I have nothing to lose as what I had I have lost it all. Being so aware as I foolishly thought I am but when bell on my phone rang I heard and then while talking I came to know a lot of time has passed and I felt numb again. I lay down, now I don't feel anything left in my body, I feel hollow. It's just my bed and blanket who has kept me warm but from inside there's glaciers I feel. You can't force someone to love you when they are finding ways to get rid of you. I just feel like an emotional fool who just thought was smart.
    My body is warm yet my fingers of both hand and feet is as cold as ice. I wish I could end this existence of such a life but I know I can't. All I could remember at this hour are lines from Emily Dickinson's poem
    "Because I could not stop for death,
    He kindly stopped for me,
    The carriage held but just ourselves,
    And immortality"

    #love #life #writer #postoftheday #shortstory ##quotestoliveby #love #lovequotes #indian #numb #tears #longdistancerelationship #partedways #emilydickinson #poem #immortality #hollow #death

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    I lay down numb again...

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    ©tangled_in_her_thoughts

  • grotesque 2w

    Depression: 1.4

    I am still now. Do not move me anymore.
    It hurts to move in a void. Leave this
    In between and breathe with me as
    We have always promised to. Can we
    Not undo everything and follow a routine
    Of not feeling anymore? Here is a long
    Winter in our hearts; a frozen poetry of
    Untold sadness. So, if we now know that
    We would not be going anywhere, do not
    Touch anything around me. I am still now.
    I am breathing for everything yet I am
    Losing more of me every second. This
    System will eat me out. At least, you have
    Your monsters. I have got a horizon that
    Is like a mirage when I try to move forward...
    So, I am breathing devastatingly. I know
    All we can do is to do nothing about it.
    You address me as someone close to you.
    My body wakes up and lies still. I do not move;
    And the heart is sinking down and down; a
    Crux of heavy thoughts are encircling my
    Being. So, it's like an explosion. I am like
    An explosive element to my own thoughts.
    I am still until my time comes. The clock whispers
    To me to close my eyes and wait for my heart to
    Stop. Can we agree now that I am more in darkness
    Than that of you?! Or should I send some of it
    To your doorstep to smell it. The rotten smell
    Will empower you and make you empathize
    Upon yourself. That night when I didn't shout;
    I screamed internally and now it's all gone.
    I am still for other people who needs my body.
    I am just not dying for you. I don't die. I won't.
    .
    .
    --silently living

  • lovely__ 2w

    Expectations destroyed everything
    #poem #end #robot #numb

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    Conversation with conscience

    Me - Go away , you always hurt me?

    Expectations - I thought I'm your life ?

    Me - Naaah !! You always come in between me and my loved ones . But they expect me to choose one. So please go .

    Expectations - Then you will be numb .
    ©lovely__

  • nleroy8 2w

    numb

    I went to skate on a semi frozen lake
    Cause I hate myself, and want to feel the
    Hit from a semi. So I fall, I go down
    Duct tape shut can't hear a sound
    Never wore a cape so how can I save me
    I just hear the steps of ducks on top.
    Ice makes us happier, yet I'm drowning
    In it and can barely swim a lap.
    With the light dimming and my bare hands cold
    I know I told myself I wanted to hurt and my
    Sums to deplete, but I'm now deleted and
    Numb.

    ©nleroy8

  • barefoot_ballerina0 3w

    ⚠ Trigger warning ⚠

    *ANXIETY*
    The windows and doors slammed shut as I breathed in the smoke. The room was on fire and I licked something that tasted like soot. I cried all the ink I had ever consumed while my fingertips burned and blood roared in my head. So i buried my head 6 feet under .

    *DEPRESSION*
    A silence prevailed as it poured in my bedroom turning my wounds into boils, pricking my skin into an Overwhelming pain.
    Drenched I stumbled over serpents and scorpions crawling up my body. A stinging pain, I cried and cried till I was black and blue. So when it stopped raining, I finally bled.

    *COMATOSE*
    As my breath faltered the scorpions and serpents crawled out of my clothes. Falling deep into an abyss I couldn't even feel my toes . And when the numbness spread I crept out of my skin, kneeled beside my body ..
    Staring deep into the empty eyes , I wiped my face.

    @mirakee @writersnetwork @writerstolli @still_fragile @joxychella @agypsysoul @the_fox @iam_rose @jeniayn @lovenotes_from_carolyn

    #ceesreposts #mirakee #writersnetwork #readwriteunite #numb #pain

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    The 3 degrees
    Of PAIN
    ©barefoot_ballerina0

  • marianneelviolet 3w

    During my #darkdays of my #life I felt #nothing and #numb for years. I was in a #badspace and I'm #happy that I finally got out.

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    Darkness

    Nothing to be seen.
    Nothing to be found.

    It engulfs you into submission.

    Why did you choose me?
    Why me?

    I want to get out.
    I need to get out,
    But how?

    I don’t know how to get out.

    The light…
    I miss that brightness.

    ©marianneelviolet

  • sonia_sali 3w

    Emptiness. I don't understand what I mean by emptiness but I know it makes you feel numb and yet pain in your deepest vein,heavy in the head yet null within,tears in your eyes, plain,painless and pained.I just don't understand but I feel it intensely and to tell you what it really is I will have to let you in here
    ©sonia_sali

  • quietstorm1 2w

    Her eyes failed to recognize him,
    But her heart will always remember,
    the cause of it's darkness.
    A once loved heart, now heartless.
    She now beats without a conscious.
    Her eyes saw, because to her he did exist.
    Trying to look past the pain,
    But the heart just couldn't resist.
    No love resides within.
    Just darkness without a conscious.
    ©qs

    #darkheart#cold#numb#lostintranslationbetweenlust&love#strangertohereyes#EnemytoherHeart

    #mydrawing��

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    Dark Heart

    Her eyes failed to recognize him,
    But her heart will always remember,
    the cause of it's darkness.
    A once loved heart, now heartless.
    She now beats without a conscious.
    Her eyes saw, because to her he did exist.
    Trying to look past the pain,
    But the heart just couldn't resist.
    No love resides within.
    Just darkness without a conscious.