#personal

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  • deadlittlesongbird 3d

    Inside Out

    Dress myself in layer after layer,
    Lie after pretty lie,
    Just to pull apart
    This empathetic work of art.

    Fishnets to conceal the scars,
    Accessorize to hide the lies.
    Beneath this porcelain complexion
    Dwells my true reflection.

    I am a walking contradiction.
    A manic-depressive, hard loving
    Yet hardly breathing sin.
    Ambivalence is the skin I'm in.
    ©deadlittlesongbird

  • pensup 5d

    तू

    तू सावन की बदली,
    में तेरा प्यासा सा

    तू एक बेल लचीली,
    में कांटा करार सा

    ©pensup

  • the_poetic_room 1w

    Parameters

    What do u fear that
    Makes you shade tears.
    Irrational thoughts that you retrospect
    Or is it the fear of falling apart?

    Maybe you want to go
    Away from yourself
    Deceiving the eyes of you admirer,
    His memories came nearer.

    Trust, to be fine with
    Everything that was promised.
    Be good enough to enjoy the moments,
    That makes you smile for a while.

    Babe it's just the dreams
    You don't want to dream of
    And if it's alright to run away
    Just stay with me.

    Maybe the past stabs
    Your back; you love the pain
    But where does this end?
    Intoxicating me and making the relations faint.
    ©the_poetic_room

  • calm_chor 1w

    My Own Sunset

    To be honest,
    I've always been cautious about expressing
    my affection for people and things I love.
    People ruin beautiful things they say.

    You'll find me soaking in the
    beauty of a place without a word.
    The dusk provokes in me, emotions
    that keep me awake well into the night.

    If I'm being honest,
    I’m obsessed with the sky and stars.
    When I look at the sunset hues,
    I wonder how peaceful the creator
    must be after painting them.

    And when I think about the working of the world,
    I think about how everything functions
    as half to a whole, through days and nights,
    or men and women, or the Ying and the Yang.
    I wonder if God split itself into a million halves,
    just to refind itself again.

    So when I think about refinding ones self,
    I think about the day I found you,
    the half to my whole, skin like gold.

    You smile when I tell you there are no sunsets
    that could take my gaze off of you,
    my own sunset.

    I have been told I have a tendency to love hard.
    So I’ll try to love you gently, patiently.
    I’ll wait for you to find yourself on days
    when mirrors don’t reflect familiar faces.
    I'll wait right around the corner,
    for you to walk into my arms.

    I’ll be peace, the kind you can rest your head on
    knowing I’ll still be here in the morning.

    I’ll be careful, because I know the past
    hasn’t treated you half as well as our future will.

    If I’m being honest, I always find myself trying
    to find myself, and I’m not confident every day.
    So I hope it means more when I confidently say
    I love you.

    I struggle with insecurities and I won’t project this onto you. I will not make it your duty to show me how to love myself. I only ask that you love me in the way you do
    - honestly.

    I’m obsessed with the sky but I look at you
    and wonder how satisfied God must feel,
    having painted something more beautiful
    than sunsets.

    - Sarthak Kulshreshtha

  • ylviia 3w

    Mama

    Mama
    I am so thankful
    You went through so much pain
    To give me this life
    You are worried about me
    And you gave me food and water to survive
    But I am sorry for wishing that I wasn't bored
    At all
    Because at a small age you weren't there for me
    You needed to put your job first
    Which is understandable
    So I am not judging you for it
    So you gave me away to my grandparents
    After two years you took me in again
    And I am grateful for that
    But you didn't spent time with me
    And as I wanted to spent time with you
    You were busy with work
    But I stayed stubborn and you beat me
    Now you make fun of it
    Are you serious?
    I have no words for it
    Then I had to spent most of the times with my siblings which made my day living hell
    But of course you had no idea
    You were too busy with work
    Then I grew up and am silent
    Then you ask me why I am not like other kids
    Constantly smiling and jumping around
    I shrugged my shoulders
    Then you compared me with my cousin
    Saying how happy she's all the time
    And you wish I was her
    So I tried to change and I thought you will accept me
    But deep down I know you didn't
    Because she will always be better then me
    I will never make you as happy as she
    So you ask me why I am constantly sad
    Saying you're worried about me
    I shrugged my shoulders again
    It's not like you said it multiple times that you wish I wasn't your daughter
    So I tried the one thing I am better then her
    School
    I was getting good grades but it was never enough
    How could it have been different?
    I was still not enough
    I still could have done better
    So now I gave up and you call me useless
    Saying I can't do shit and I am a waste of space
    I hope you're happy because you gave me my life
    And you took my spirit away
    So I really only can say
    Thank you...
    ©ylviia

  • divyamitruka 3w

    Never give up

    The value of peace can only be understood in chaos
    The importance of joy can only be known in sadness
    Life is all about balancing.
    Some bad days come along the way not to make you quit, but to make you realise the worth of good days
    Never give up
    ©divyamitruka

  • rajiv2 4w

    Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does. It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.
    ~Jean-Paul Sartre~

  • sunofyah913 4w

    HEAL MY LIFE
    (POEM)


    TO GIVE,

    TO BUILD,

    TO FEEL,

    TO FIGHT,

    I NEED,

    SOMEONE,

    TO HEAL,

    MY LIFE,

    I NEED,

    A FIX,

    NO NOT,

    A TRICK,

    IT'S BAD,

    SO SAD,

    I'M MAD,

    I'M PISSED.

    ©SunofYah913

  • draiocht 4w

    I'm really trying my best to be the best mother for you. I'm not okay, and I know you see that at times, and I'm sorry if I'm not always able to hold myself together, but know this too is important and part of life. I do not expect you to be perfect, and strong all the time, or even know what to do. All I ask is that you try to understand that even though you may not be okay, you still do your best. Moving forward is still just that. Moving forward. So please, my son, embrace everything you feel, remember that you decide who you are, and that no matter what life has in store for you, I will always love and support you, every step of the way. I'm both honored and grateful to be your mother. Thank you for second chances; for giving me reasons to smile and continue on.

    Draiocht

  • sunofyah913 5w

    FORGIVENESS (POEM)

    DEAR LORD,

    I'M SORRY FOR ALL,
    THE THINGS THAT I'VE DONE,
    I DISCARDED YOUR WORDS,
    FOR THE SAKE OF FUN,
    I BLOCKED YOUR VOICE OUT,
    FOR SO MANY YEARS,
    I LEFT YOU ABANDONED,
    I LEFT YOU IN TEARS,
    THE RIVERS,
    THE LAKES,
    THE OCEANS SO WIDE,
    WAS FILLED THE WATER THAT CAME FROM YOUR EYES,
    I CRY,
    YOU CRY,
    WE CRY,
    OH WHY!!!!
    DID I DECIDE TO DO EVIL,
    I DECIDED TO LIE,
    I DECIDED TO STEAL,
    I DECIDED TO BUY,
    THINGS JUST FOR THE THRILLS,
    SO NOW WHEN I DIE,
    MY SPIRIT WON'T BE SAVED,
    MY SOUL WILL JUST FRY,
    I'M SORRY MY LORD,
    I'M SORRY MOST HIGH!!!

    ©SunofYah913

  • wolfiewords 6w

    My mind

    My mind is like the kind that keeps getting broken,
    The sort of crooked bind, that seeps through the vulcan,
    I think I am very logical, though the emotions can sunk me,
    I wanna become spock, but these feelings they insult him.
    Heavy heart sulking, I wanna stay sane,
    Neutralize the feelings, and wash this freaking stain,
    If I could I would abstain my train of thoughts,
    Because the pain that I carry, they are stations of disdain.

  • ersezabeth 6w

    Depression

    Some say I'm not trying
    Some say I made mistakes
    Some say is my fault
    Some say get over it

    I say I did try
    Today I opened my eyes
    I stayed in bed all day
    But today I didn't cry

    Some say I should try harder
    But they don't understand
    Today I try my hardest
    Today I took a bath...

    ©ersezabeth

  • ersezabeth 6w

    Us

    We were fire
    a flame that never went down
    my love for you grew
    as fast as a wildfire
    my name in your lips
    was the perfect melody
    now, us, is just a memory.
    You were the arsonist
    who kept up our fire
    but you burnt my trees
    my wildness
    my flowers.
    Us are no more
    never thought this might happen
    there never was us
    what I felt was the fire
    of the lies I believe
    were only the truth
    i was playing with matches
    you were playing with fuel...

    ©ersezabeth

  • aphrolighte 7w

    Slow Passion

    .
    .
    .
    Passion.

    Sparks hit. 

    Master me

    And master it.


    Old fashioned

    Open doors and call me ma'am

    Slam into my veins

    With a firm hand.


    Land a kiss

    Abandonment's

    Wrist is slit

    I admit

    I missed the 

    Hard hits

    Pillows bit

    And a

    Quick wit.


    Emergency kit needed

    Action preceded 

    No warning heeded* 

    Heated fast

    Longer lasting

    Foreplay basking

    Asking and receiving

    He's got my body heaving


    Mind relieving 

    Always teasing

    Leaving no part untouched

    Hush hush now listen up

    Gentle until I erupt

    I never said it doesn't take much

    Slow and steady baby no rush

    Prove to me you're enough.

    .
    .
    ©aphrolighte

  • marianneelviolet 7w

    I wanted to #write something from my #heart and my #soul I never thought that I would be #writing something #personal

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    Determination

    You thought I gave up.
    You thought I was done.
    You thought I stopped.
    But I won't.

    I won't give up.
    I won't stop.
    I wont be done until I reached my goal.

    I promise that to you.

    ©marianneelviolet

  • pranshu2210 8w

    Self Realisation

    Sometimes you just need some time for yourself....just silence and yourself....for gathering some potential to go on n face the world.
    ©bhairavi223

  • saturn5er 8w

    All The Things I Never Said/Unsent Texts: If I'm uncomfortable in a sexual situation

    If I am uncomfortable in a sexual situation because of PTSD that I'm trying desperately to understand and heal from, what kind of person would continuously shame me for this and make it about them? If I ever feel uncomfortable or change my mind during sex I should not be shamed for it... Sexual issues are no ride in the park for anyone because it's stemming from something mental we can't fix on our own. I've never blamed you for anything in that nature. EVER. it's not your fault I'm having these issues but it's not my fault either. It's HUMILIATING and scary. This is me opening up greatly to you one of my most personal and traumatizing fears: I'm scared because in the past when I have not been able to preform sexually due to my own personal issues, I've been left, blamed, and cheated on. I didn't ask for this, only that you consider attending counseling with me. I've asked you for this for almost two years and your refusal to try once has really made me feel less like I can trust you and my needs have been going unmet for so long while trying to meet yours that it's caused more psychological damage...and all you can do is gaslight me and shame me for neglecting you...
    I love you and I feel helpless

  • vera_anne_wolf 9w

    Wolf

    ***
    It’s just another dark cloud
    Wrapped up inside my mind
    I try hiding myself away
    But the truths not far behind.
    It’s just another midnight
    Exhausted yet restless
    Counting all my failures
    And betrayals I can’t forget.

    Who am I when daylight comes?
    I thought I found forever
    But the dream has come undone.
    So who am I supposed to be?
    I cry like I’m the victim
    But the Wolf was always me.

    It’s just another heartbreak
    But this time I’m far too numb
    I watch you leave us behind
    And move on with someone.
    It’s just another battlefield
    Of chaos and deceit
    But you’ll never be the victor
    Because this time I won’t retreat.

    Who am I when daylight comes?
    I thought I found forever
    But the dream has come undone.
    So who am I supposed to be?
    I cry like I’m the victim
    But the Wolf was always me.

    It’s just another lesson
    Of the selfishness of man
    You cry just like a coward
    But we both know where you stand.
    While I dug up the key
    To the darker side of me
    Don’t ask me for forgiveness
    When the Wolf has been set free.


    ©vera_anne_wolf

  • megan_19 9w

    A little being called love

    You came into my life
    To give me hope and comfort
    It's sad that I'll no longer have the companion who was my best friend
    I hope there is a heaven for those dear animals we call our pets
    Because that's where I'll be searching for you
    Your life was shortlived but i enjoyed every single day with you
    And you will be missed very much
    With love from me

  • bookdrunkard 9w

    ..

    Unexpected silence.
    I just have so much to utter. 
    But, I can't. 
    I even don't know what's holding me back.
    It's not about love nor hatred. 
    It's about the freedom to think,
    Freedom to let me be.
    Continuously, someone runs to me and utters the negativity. 
    The only thing I wanna avoid right now.
    Is just throwed toward me.
    I just want to be by self.
    Thinking about me, my development, my freedom to think, 
    It's been ages , I thought about it.
    I'm so stuck.
    And I, still pretend like 'I don't give a fuck '.

    ©bookdrunkard