One fine summer afternoon, I sat on my front porch with the warm rays seeping into my skin as I wondered about you. I was good at keeping secrets, but this one was becoming a little too hard to keep. I knew it was true for a while now but acting like it wasn't had become a habit. But then I met you. From the moment I saw you, I knew my secret wouldn't last long. From the moment I saw you, I knew I'd fall for you and I had, like never before. It is especially hard to ignore your feelings when things like you happen. That is the thing about feelings, sadness and melancholy can still be avoided but sulking in a newly found joy is a completely different feeling and you can't, nay won't avoid it. I stand there and watch my heart beat peak up everytime you walk into a room, I can't not see myself blush and smile idiotically when your hand brushes against mine. That little electric shock I get, that spark, it is impossible to avoid that. And it is a matter of time before I realised, I was completely hooked on that feeling.
The way your lipstick smudges a little when you sip something, the way your hair flows along the wind, the way you smile subtly, I can't help but feel butterflies flutter away in my stomach. My secret was only mine, it was a little thing I kept to myself. But everything fell apart because of you, you never deserved to be a secret. Your charm wasn't something to hide and neither were my hands on your hips. Once I decided it wasn't going to be a secret anymore then I couldn't stop myself. I wouldn't be able to stop myself from making you laugh and laughing with you. I wouldn't be able to stop myself from being distracted everytime the thought of you crosses my mind. Your voice was soothing and your arms were soft. Nothing I was used to. You were different and you made me feel different, but in a way I felt like a song you and I swayed to, together.
Even the little moments we shared, meant everything to me and each second we spent together was like stored like polaroids in my head in a vintage album. Everytime I was alone, I flipped through it looking at you and how happy I was with you. Not to mention the day-dreams that came along and I floated on a cloud in my imagination away. But everytime I was brought back by the fact that I was falling for a girl. A girl like you, from which there was no coming back. But I had my tongue tied and when the secret spilled who knows what kind of heartbreak it would end in.