To Whom it May Not Concern:
I've become very unwell this week
A result of running myself into the ground
When I let those around me know
All of a sudden there were none to be found.
The help we hire, who we pay, walked out!
Haven't heard from any friends nearby.
Not a person has thought to offer a thing;
There's much I can't do now if I try.
That's the problem when you're a "giver"
It's easy to make the mistake
Of remembering not everyone has the same heart as you,
Who don't do "giving", only gladly to take.
I bumped into someone I knew at the shops,
Said "If you're that sick you shouldn't be here!"
Maybe I wouldn't have to be
If someone else was prepared to be near.
The avoidance might not be intentional
But my brain still finds it outrageous.
I'm struggling alone, no calls on the phone
No visits... And I'm not even contagious!
I'm grateful for one thing at least in all this
My children have been as helpful as can be;
A testament solely to their upbringing,
Which safe to say has been all done by me.
A son making me tea, or soup, without asking.
A daughter putting her own struggles aside.
I'm so proud of the values I've instilled in them both
And how well they're taking it all in their stride.
I think in all this I've learned something
A small but important lesson at best...
Don't overlook your own needs to give too much,
Think of yourself, take care, and take rest.
If I hadn't been so busy helping everyone,
Trying to be so giving at late
I wouldn't have burnt myself out as I have
By having too much on my plate.
I'm still very poorly, though trying to improve
And I do know it'll all turn out fine.
Just need to be mindful when to prioritise others
Vs. when to draw a line.
When you're an "Empath" by default it's difficult
To learn it's ok to say "no".
Sometimes life sends us these moments alone
To teach us how we still need to grow.
This isn't a complaint, though a vent perhaps,
Though it'd be easy to misconstrue.
It's more a gentle warning to everyone else:
Don't forget to look after "you"!