With a shaky voice and bloodshot eyes, she asked, "is this how it feels to be heartbroken?" Alex stared at her friend with tears in her eyes. She couldn't possibly tell her to forget about him or that she would be happier without him because she had seen how happy she looked when she was with him, how her eyes were literally filled with hearts when she spoke about him and how upset she got when she couldn't see or talk to him.
"It hurts so much Alex, I feel like I'm suffocating. I want him and I know he has hurt me in so many ways but yet I long for him." Alex wondered if this was truly true love. "It's been three weeks Dee, I thought you were doing so much better" She wondered.
"I also thought I was, I thought I had moved on but just now, I thought of something he had said to me and I can't help but miss him." She stopped talking as though something had suddenly crossed her mind.
"Do you think he misses me too? That maybe he wants to get back together but he doesn't know how?" she asked desperately with hope in her eyes. "I should call him." She said reaching for her phone.
Alex snatched it away quickly before she got the opportunity to make a fool of herself again. "No, you shouldn't. He chose to end the relationship with you, he consciously decided that what you both had wasn't worth it..." and it broke Alex's heart to say that to her friend knowing that if she had something close to what Dee and he had, she would have held on to it and fought for it with all her might. It's not something you let go of so easily. "...so if he wants to get back together with you, if he decides that he made a mistake and you are worth everything to him, he would use the same energy he used to break up with you to ask for you. He has your number and if he doesn't anymore, he knows how to get it or how to see you so don't call him baby. If he wants you, if he truly loves you, he would come back for you." Alex hoped that this wouldn't give Dee too much hope. That guy was gone and perhaps never coming back but she also hoped that for the sake of her friend's sanity, he would.
Dee wiped the tears on her cheeks and sniffed. "You're right, I shouldn't be crying over him like this. He probably doesn't even think about me anymore. He has probably even moved on with someone else and he probably didn't even love me the way I loved him." Deep down, they both knew that this confidence wasn't going to last. Nonetheless, Alex smiled weakly at her friend trying to encourage her. She knew her friend was lying about what she had said and she knew all these probabilities were what she desperately hoped never happens.