I finally realised: It doesn't have to make sense. None of the things that you do or that happen to you.
Your feelings shouldn't have a proper meaning. Even if you can not define what you are experiencing now, it is okay. Feel it. Let yourself Be in that moment and accept your flaws and imperfections. Do not judge yourself. Do not expect anything to last .Don't bother yourself to find answers in other people's behaviour. Let things, people and the past go and do not feel guilty about it. Do not try to make anyone stay !
Your whole life might not make sense and is fine. This is the way that things are. Accept the reality!
It shouldn't necessarily have a meaning. It isn't supposed to anyway.
We may not have a purpose .
And maybe nothing happens for a reason.
Maybe you end up where you are, not because of destiny but because of nothing making sense . And they might not deserve what they already have but as I said,it doesn't have to make sense. If everything that happens followed a logical order , we would know the mysteries of the universe and would have everything figured out.
It doesn't have to make sense. Anything. At all.