How do you draw sadness? Despair? Hope? Anxiety? Depression? How can you possibly depict an image that so clearly conveys the remote feeling of uneasiness churning away in your gut. The sinking feeling every time your heart falls into your stomach like the titanic swallowed up by the sea. The hopelessness and fear eating away at your logic and excuses, like termites to wood, excuses to try and help you feel better. Excuses that try to distract you.
Don't even think for a second, that the feeling is gone, because you look around and all you think is this isn’t permanent. The feeling as the ocean of queasiness and anger rise up from your stomach drowning your lungs, filling you up with despair.
Join the club kiddo.
How do you draw feelings. You can feel the lack of sleep on your eyes, your eyelids are heavy, as if there were anchors attached, you can feel the circles as dark as your thoughts under your eyes, feel the weight of another restless night take hold. Your eye sockets are pockets for secrets and tears, anger and fears, people have skeletons in their closets, yours reside in your eyes. “ it’ll be okay “ another lie, but what else can you say. Scratch that, what can you manage TO SAY.
You look back to that ol’ reliable sketchbook of yours, and the page is as blank as your idea for your future.
You try and function but you can’t, your legs are trembling, like jelly, like a guitar string thats pulled too hard.. You feel dead. You might as well be. But youre not, you're just scared...and confused.