What if I told you that falling in love isn’t the answer?
Would you still want to listen?
That you won’t find what you’re looking
for if you’re looking outside yourself.
We fall apart to fall together.
Love is dismantling to the ego.
Your love will break the walls.
You must remember that it is you
who will stand tall after everything
Looking to another to piece you together
will cause internal chaos.
Sit still feel it all.
Anger slams the door when it enters.
Sadness feels solemn in my chest.
Happiness beams in like the morning
sunlight through sheer curtains.
Grief feels heavy and I find it hard to move.
Waves with troughs and crests.
You’ll feel it everyday, sometimes there’s slack;
that’s when my mind is at rest.
The visitors still come asking to be loved.
Anger screams for it.
That makes it hard to sit.
I think it’s who I am and I’m scared
to exist around
What if I can’t swim out and they think I am meek?
What if they see the scars of low self esteem?
Will you sit with me?
Patience I’ll find when I wipe the last tear from my eye.
Patience to hear the solemn pleads that sadness speaks.
To relish in the happiness that brings me up high
so close to the sun, I’m grateful to be alive.
To hug the grief close because none of it lasts.
At the core, I see who I am.
The spirit that glues this together, I am that too.
The strong willed soul that knows to see this through.
Everyone waits for the hand to pull them up.
I want to be that for anyone thats in need of that Love.
I’ll find it inside everyday.
The opportunity to practice my hearts speak.
Sometimes I digress but
I’ll come back out in the sun again.
I need that hand too, and I don’t always ask for it.
When there’s no one to hold me, it’ll hit.
I’ll feel loves absence.
And each day could mean falling in love with myself
more than the day before.
I’m telling you there are times
I can’t get up from the floor.
I see you, do you see me?
We need to feel seen.
You can turn your back away from the world
and hide if you choose.
And I’ll know the reason you do.
Love awaits your presence too.
These things we can’t manipulate.
Love is precious because it’s sincere.
Compassion is at the core.
You only turn away because your heart is still sore.
You’re healing and that’s okay.
Love will be here when you’re ready, there’s no rush.
Take the time to be gentle to a heart in need.
We are not bandaids to treat others wounds,
to toss away when we are through.
Love heals and we must persist.
It all comes together when we come together.
Nothing can breathe life into me but love itself.
I am grateful for the broken heart I’ve held.
It knows pain. It’s been lost.
It’s wanted to let go.
But I will not leave it behind
because I must persist to see the sun again.
We crumble to fall together.
I can’t help but smile because
I feel so alive.
I know love is always on the other side.