Day 1. Part 1.
She walked past my table, I noticed for the first time ever, she smells like my grandmothers blackberry jam.
I never know where to sit in the cafeteria, I saw an empty table today but there was a boy sitting there who wouldn't stop staring. I wonder if the library is open?
We had to read a poem in class. I read mine, it was about gravity, and how heavenly bodies always amaze us most when they are dying. It didn't rhyme so my english teacher/ boys basketball coach gave me a B+. She watched me read it. She didn't take her eyes off of me the whole time! Maybe she liked it...
WHY WILL HE NOT STOP STARING! he always watches me just a little too long. Its uncomfortable. Thats it, im gonna stare right back at him until he STOPS!
He didn't stop, and we just stared at each other the whole time he read his poem in class. How awkward.
She cut her hair. Like all of it. Shaved her head...it...it's super cute. I kind of want to compliment her for it, but we don't speak to each other. Maybe cutting it wasn't her idea. Maybe im overthinking it. I should compliment her...ok...here goes.
GOD I WISH I WAS DEAD! homemade dye job ended up frying all my hair! Mom shaved my head..."whats that...you...you LIKE it?!?!"
We were told today that we all will have to quarantine at the end of the week because of the virus..like go home, so I guess summer starts early...we still have to do our class work. I won't get to see her anymore. Its now pretty obvious she doesnt like me. But she's never mean, and she's still so pretty. Oh well.
Extended summer...but im already struggling in 3 classes. What am I gonna do? I wonder if
any of my friends...no they're all doing worse than I am. Who do I know that's really smart...
She...gave me her phone number. I've never had a girls phone number before. She asked for help in some of her classes while we all work from home. She needs a tutor. She looked embarrassed when she asked, I hope I didn't look stupid when I said yes, I was just so excited.
I think I've got the tutoring problem solved. He's not a bad guy, my only complaint is the way he won't look away when he's caught staring but its not ever creepy stalker stare, its not like he follows me to class or anything. Its more like...an artist sees a tree they like or something. Or, like, how babies stare at ylu in the grocery store? I don't know. But he is a straight A student. And I really need the help.
Schools out, I passed everything. We still aren't allowed to go anywhere...I don't know if she will want to keep talking to me since its now summer time. But it was really nice having a friend to talk to through the lock down..
I am NOT ok. I passed everything, EVERYTHING, with either an A or a B. Its the best grades I've ever made. And I've been up till midnight for the last week talking to this wierd boy who is obsessed with poetry and music. I'd never even read a poem in my life now I'm looking up Kalidasa, and T.S Elliot. He's kind of...enchanting. Thats dumb...im dumb...you know he always stares...but I never noticed his eye color...wonder if they're green...
First day back, I already miss my house. Thats where she lives in my head. Behind my cellphone screen, where we ask each other questions and laugh together. I expect things will be different but maybe she will keep being my "text pal"...oh there she is...SHE'S WALKING TOWARDS ME!!!
He came back! I didn't think he would. He talked about how much he didn't like school and how working from home had been so much easier...im so glad he came back.
Day 307 (later that day)
She hugged me this morning, I swear my shirt still feels warm. She sat with me at lunch, its so much easier to talk in a text message I feel so awkward...her hair is still short, and it looks so cute.
I wanna bite him. What is that? Why bite him? What a stupid feeling. I do though I wanna bite him. Where is it acceptable to bite someone...he's having such a hard time talking...its adorable.