This one word is used as a joke. Go kill yourself is used so casually. This action affects so many but is passed over like an overreaction. We pass off the blame. We pass off the guilt.
It's the thoughts and wishes and regrets...the if onlys that we have left after someone commits suicide. The if only I helped, if only I thought to care more, if only I said this instead, if only someone else showed they meant something. We only have those if onlys and those are wishes, regrets that we have left, the guilt that we have because we did nothing before because we thought we had time.
But the thing is we all play a small part in everything, our actions do have consequences, our decisions create a butterfly effect. We may not directly cause one to lose all faith in life and feel as if suicide is the only answer, to feel life isnt worth it anymore, to feel it's the only way through the pain is to end it.
Sadly we as a society dont want to acknowledge someone's elses darkness, someone elses depression, someone elses brokenness. We try to tell ourselves after the fact we tried. We try to convince ourselves. We dont do it when we need but. because of aftermath of this tragedy we need to feel better about ourselves. If we never waited maybe just maybe we could make even a sliver of a difference not for us, not for our peace of mind, but to help save a life.