I'm a mess
I smoke a cigarette to calm me; slow shit down
But every time I'm in my thoughts it keeps playing around.
Why I'm not normal, I'm not worthy, they can't take a hint,
Why I'll use them, dry them up, until they cant forget.
It's not that I don't like you, girl, see, you are the shit
It's something deep inside my soul, man I just can't commit
I want it all then nothing baby, that's just how I'm equipped
You want it all OR nothing that's just how the script just flipped
I sit at home alone just thinking about the next girl
Your in your room thinking bout' me, trying not to hurl
I mean, I admit it, like I gotta lot of issues
Enough to make you cry, here's a box of tissues
And when you wipe your tears away, try to not forget me
Because I made it easy, see, you don't want another me.
My mind just races about what you think you want from me,
What you want from us, see being plural is just too much for me.
I stand here solo, sitting home alone most every night,
Trying to figure out which demons next for me to fight.
I put myself first cause trust me you don't want these issues.
The last girl that did loved alcohol and would continue
To drink everyday to forget what I had done and said
Walking up each morning, vodka spilled acrossed her bed
See that's what I do, I told you, just leave it alone
So you're not there next girl, fucked up sitting alone at home
Thinking, praying, how you wish we never met,
While I'm in bed with the next girl, fighting no regrets.