Hold On
I'm holding you close in my heart tonight, just as I have done every second that your not here. Only tonight my prayers are more fervent, because I don't want to lose you and that I might is what I'm starting to fear.
My mind drifts back to the day you were born, and I held you that first time so tight in my arms. I looked down on your precious little face, and promised you then I would always protect you from harm.
Yet here you are so far away in a hospital, fighting to stay alive. I feel like I have failed you, now all I can do is cry and pray to God that you will survive.
My life would be empty, cold, and dark if God forbid I ever lost you. I beg the Lord, "Please don't take him, let me take his place if that's what I have to do".
Thaddeus please hold on my baby, don't give in or give up the fight. Always know how much I love you, and that I will always be there when you need me right by your side.
July 24, 2020
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Tujse juda kya hua!
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hmharris 70w
Everyday Is A Blessing
Sometimes it's hard to see the beauty around you through the darkness of your pain. But don't let that cloud your sight, or that dark will slowly blind you and drive you insane.
Be thankful for everyday and all the blessings you have been givin in your life. If you focus so much on the negative all youll get is anger and strife.
Our time here on earth is way too short to spend even one second wasted being upset or mad. Appreciate all you do have, instead of wanting more or all you wish you had.
Oct. 25, 2019
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Fire and Ice
She was like summer, and her love for him burned on like those endless summer days.
He was like winter, and yearned for her warmth like a flower for the sun's renewing rays.
Her fire, and his ice were destined to come together and never be apart.
Cause she loves and cherishes him, and he holds and protects her heart.
Sept. 29, 2019
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My Wish for Sky
Skyrah my girl I pray you will always see the world as you do now, with the eyes of a child. Remember to dream often, dream big, let your imagination loose to run wild.
Make sure you laugh everyday, love with all your heart, and dance and sing outside in the rain.
Dont take the little things for granted like the smell of a flower in spring, or the beauty of winter frost on the window pane.
Never stop believing that it only takes a hug and a kiss to make all the pain go away. And keep believing in true love, fairytales, and happily ever after one day.
All my love always, Grandma
Sept. 7, 2019
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hmharris 79w
Close In Your Heart
How do I tell my babies goodbye? Every time I start to even think about it I break down and cry.
I never in a million years thought that one day this could be our end. There's still a billion things I need to say, and about a thousand or more hurts I need to mend.
If God forbid our tomorrow never comes if I can't be here anymore for you. I hope all the love I gave you all will be enough to last your whole life through.
I want the three of you to remember that when that day does come when we must part. You will never be alone cause Mommy's love will always be with you as long as you keep me close in your hearts.
Aug. 18, 2019
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hmharris 79w
A Chance
If you really looked into these eyes all you would see is a torn soul tortured by pain, lose, and regret. Every mistake replaying over and over like a broken record making sure I'll never forget.
The mental wounds that were inflicted have left scars that'll never heal and run deep. I still hear all the ugly hateful words in my head every day and even in my sleep.
In order not to hurt I shut everything off until I didn't feel anything at all. Not aware that I was hurting my kids and it was my life and family that took the fall.
I'm trying now to make amends and heal their broken hearts so we can be a close family again. I pray every night that it's not too late that they can forgive and give me that chance to begin.
Aug. 11, 2019
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hmharris 98w
Let It Go
Do you know what it feels like to wake up every morning praying to not be you? To be someone, anyone, you don't really care what or who.
You look into the mirror, but all you can see is a shape, and maybe a blurry face. Because you've been told so many times your fat, ugly, and nothing but a waste of space.
You wish that you could feel even a little pretty, but sometimes those scars go way to deep. If someone does tell you "your beautiful," you don't believe it and it makes you want to weep.
How do you learn to love yourself again, to let it go and try to heal? When you've been so beat and damaged, that your only defense was to shut down and not feel.
I don't want to always carry around this pain, anger, and distrust. The only way to mend my broken pieces, is to leave all those painful memories behind in the dust.
But if I knew what to do to accomplish that, I wouldn't be like this now. So all I can do is keep praying that hopefully today will be the day I learn how.
April 12, 2019
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hmharris 98w
My Friend
I know this beautiful lady who's kindness and love can warm up your heart.
I consider myself blessed to be able to call her my friend, and it's been that way from the start.
Her presence alone will light up the room, and her inner strength is something to behold.
To be lucky enough to be considered her friend is more precious to me than any diamonds or gold.
She's always there if your ever feeling sad or blue, and helps you laugh away your pain.
She will take you in, and give you shelter and comfort if your life is pouring down rain.
Cheryl you'll always have a place in my heart, and I'll forever call you my friend.
I will gladly walk down this road with you now, and stay by your side till the end.
Jan. 30, 2019
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hmharris 98w
Bittersweet
There's so much I long to tell you, so many things I didn't get to say. But all I really want now is for you to know I love you, and I miss you every day.
Another year has come and gone since you left, some days I don't know if I can go on. There's no one to say "Freckles I love you" or cheer me up by singing me that song.
I wish my Daddy could walk me down the aisle and be there when I say "I do". How bittersweet that moment will be, because my new life will start without you.
I hope the life I'm living now makes you proud, and that your loving spirit lives on inside me. I wouldn't be the woman I am today if -
hmharris 98w
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I am reposting this because 3 years today I broke my chains of addiction to herion. I am stiil clean and feeling better than ever. If you or anyone you love is struggling with an addiction please dont give up, and dont give up on them, it can be done just keep at itToxic Hold
The first time I ever felt you, I was hooked then and there. Even knowing you were a killer didn't matter, I really didn't care.
I would float away in your sweet embrace, and let the the world around me pass me by. Ignoring all of my loved ones cries to leave you, always afraid one day I would die.
I felt invincible when I had you, I swear sometimes I felt I could fly. In reality your nothing but poison, and my life turned into hiding and lies.
You took away my money, family, and everything I ever held dear. All I had left was you, anger, shame, and never ending fear.
It took all I had to see the truth, and finally break your toxic hold. Now I'm no longer yours to control, and my life you can no longer mold.
Go ahead and whisper your sweet lies, but you will never get me back. I see you for what you are now, respect and love for myself I no long lack.
I'm stepping out of your shadow, to live my life back out in the sun. You will never have any part of me again, this is over and I'm finally done.
Aug. 22, 2016
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hmharris 99w
Back To Us
Honey please tell me what's happening to us, what detour or wrong turn did we take? Please God let this be just a fucked up nightmare, from which we both shall shortly awake.
We're stuck in this not so fun house, a merry-go-round of lies and hurt, hurt and lies. We need to jump off this ride fast before we lose us or our love truly dies.
This isn't us these strangers I see, the ones who yell, or the ones who fight. I pray this nightmare will end soon and we'll awaken in love, and our world will be set right.
How can we get back to where we were, to the loving couple we used to be? Back to where all I wanted and needed was you, and all you needed and wanted was me.
July 10, 2019
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hmharris 99w
Miss You
I miss you as much now as I did the day God called you away. Everyone said the pain would fade in time, but my heart still aches for you everyday.
I miss how you could make me laugh and cheer me up, even when I was down or feeling blue. I miss hearing the sound of your voice, and how you were always there anytime that I needed you.
I still don't understand why you had to leave me, sometimes I scream out to God "why"? But still no answers are to be had, so far all I've heard is my own lonely cry.
I try so hard to be strong for you, and to live my life in a way that would make you proud. I can hear you sing "Freckles" sometimes in the wind, and see your face when the sun breaks through a dark cloud.
I would give all I am to have you here with me now, I need my Daddy cause here comes the storm. I need his light to show me the way, and his love to keep me warm.
May 18, 2018
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hmharris 99w
Dark Abyss
I can feel myself slowly slipping into the cold and dark abyss. But unlike Sleeping Beauty nothing will wake me, not even true loves kiss.
Scenes of happier times flash before me, when I thought hopes and dreams could never die. Now here I am scared and alone, and all I can do is breakdown and cry.
I've been beat down and abandoned, torn apart to my very soul. My heart no longer beating because of love, just carelessly tossed aside into a cold, empty hole.
How much more heartache and pain will it take, before I'm so broken that my poor heart withers and dies? I'm so tired of hurting, and crying, and done with the broken promises and all the lies.
Sept. 12, 2019
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hmharris 99w
Fly High
I wish I was a bird so I could fly high, high above all this pain, and above all the sorrow.
Nothing ever seems to get any better, only worse, it was that way today and I see no hope in my tomorrow.
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hmharris 99w
A Blessing
Skyrah beautiful girl, I can't believe how fast the time has flown by. Every time I think of all I have missed in your life it always brings a tear to my eye.
Even though I'm not there with you now, I always keep you close to my heart, and in my soul. The day you were born was such a blessing to us all, and you made our family complete and whole.
I pray that someday soon I'll get to hold you close again, and see that beautiful smile. It's that smile that has lifted my spirits every minute I'm away, and through every weary mile.
Please know and never doubt how very much Grandma loves and cherishes you. I take my sweet Sky with me everywhere I go, and see your beautiful face in everything I do.
I You Skyrah
Jan. 15, 2018
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hmharris 99w
I'll Be There
How can I tell you, how do I show you Clarissa Leigh just how much you mean to me? Why is this world so cruel sometimes, or why can't things be the way we want them to be?
Whenever you feel lost, alone, or in despair, close your eyes Rissa girl and feel me there. Whenever your down or want to give in and quit, close your eyes Rissa girl and know that I care.
I'll be by your side to help sooth away the pain, or hold you in your sorrows. I'll share in your joys and give you all my love today, and every one of your tomorrow's.
So please remember when life gets rough and you feel as if no one cares. Just close your beautiful blue eyes Clarissa Leigh, and Mommy will always be there.
I love you
Feb. 17, 2019
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hmharris 99w
Why
Daddy where are you, can't you see how much your daughter needs you now? Why can't I be happy anymore, I need you Daddy please show me how.
My days are lonely and full of pain, my nights cold and never end. The sun refuses to shine on me, and there's no way for my broken heart to mend.
Is this what I deserve, my punishment for the wrongs I did in the past? I pray this will end soon cause I'm not sure how much longer I can last.
I can feel myself slipping, my soul dying a little more each day. I'm scared the day will be soon when every last piece of me is gone, taken away.
What or who will I be when that happens, just an empty shell of who I used to be? I'm already so lost and broken, that I don't know if I'm even still me.
Nov. 28, 2018
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hmharris 100w
Dead Inside
I feel like an abandoned ship, alone lost at sea. Battered and torn by life's wind and waves, no fire or life left inside me.
No one will come save me, there's no help to be found. I try to scream out " someone please save me." I open my mouth but can't make a sound.
This ocean of sadness and tears won't stop pulling, and only wants me to drown. I don't know how long I can hold on, I'll go under if I'm not soon found.
It seems like there once was a time I was happy, but maybe that was only a dream. I suppose that's what it was, because I honestly don't know what "happy" really means.
I'm so far beyond caring anymore, I have no more dreams and I don't strive for any goals. I've been dead inside for so long now, I'm just waiting till this body follows the soul.
Oct. 15, 2018
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hmharris 100w
Cold World
We live in a cold and lonely world, full of empty words and false put on smiles. No one there to hold or be by your side, no one to hold your hand through life's weary miles.
You can hear no voice but your own echo through the vast emptiness and space. You think you see familiar faces among the shadows, but when you get closer they vanish, gone without a trace.
You wander around aimlessly lonely, lost, and always afraid. Every time you see a spark of light, you try to reach it but it grows dim and begins to fade.
The one's you love are so far away, even when they're by your side. They cannot hear your anguished scream, and won't listen when you've cried.
You wonder if that light will ever shine on you to chase away the cold and dark? You hope and pray for that with all you are, even if its for only one tiny little spark.
Dec. 25, 2018
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